Dont let me out of here! Unless…?

Yes, work related blog, so if that doesnt interest…?

One year ago today, I walked into my new place of work for the first time as an employee. The rest, as they say, is history! Its ironic, all that time it took me to find work, and then I struck gold! I knew they would never know, but I said to myself at the time that I wanted to show all those firms that had passed on me, that they were wrong to do so, but now I’m glad they did.

Even more so, as they have been so supportive of the ‘old crock’ who has (temporarily, I hope) had to cut back to a 4 day week, because of her back issues, and everything else related to it.

Given that under the current rules, I am due to take retirement in just over 6 and a half years, its fair to say that unless they push me out of the door, or my physical health gives up completely, I’m planning on being there until the end. Unless…?

I know, I know, its an actress, and the dream thing. I still dream that by some strange miracle, I’m going to get plucked from anonymity by some director, producer, or whoever, and get offered a dream role. Lets face it, I havent done anything for a few years now, I’m fast approaching 60, and the body is in less than perfect condition, so yeah, who’s going to do that? in truth, no one will, but no, I dont want to, just yet, quite give up on that dream! Mind, currently I’m only good for roles that require someone to be sat down for the whole performance, or in a wheelchair! Hopefully not for long, but…

But yes, in hindsight, with all those mental bruises gone, about finding a job at my age, thanks for that. Because in the end, I’m grateful to you, even if I didnt feel so at the time.

Video time. The blog title isnt the song title, but its a well used line of lyrics.

A look into the future?

Normally my baseball fix is provided by Major League Players, taking things seriously, usually only on TV, though I do occasionally get to live games, as I did in May, when I managed to see the Dodgers win, which was nice. Mind, seemingly they’ve done plenty of that this season, almost got boring lol! No, seriously, its nice, but yes, if it doesnt happen in the playoffs now, it is going to be a letdown to some degree, for sure. Not that I’m competitive, and normally prefer to support the underdog, but never mind…

But at this time of year, I tend to get my baseball fix from a much younger age group, from people from all over the world, not just the US, though to be fair, half the teams are from the US, but anyway… Yes, its Little League World Series time again. I know, everyone is so competitive, its just me that is so laid back about such matters, or so it seems? Fine, it might help if I had affiliation to one of these teams, but without that, nope.

Today though, for the youngsters (most are between 10, and 13) brought a different type of fun, meeting up with the ‘big boys’ from the MLB. Yes, tonight, St Louis, and Pittsburgh will play a game, not in the normal stadium in Pittsburgh, but in a stadium close to where the youngsters are playing, and it seems they’ve got a mass invite. What was fun today, was seeing the two groups interacting with each other. Some of the big names have played in the LLWS in the past, and some of this years teams will play in the MLB in the future, for sure.

I know, I know, a lot of it for the MLB players is probably just PR stuff, but its fair to say that everyone seemed to be enjoying it. I just find it all rather delightful, as I cant imagine many of our star soccer/football (depending on where you read this) players doing the same thing, with young 12 year old footballers. Maybe I’m doing them down, who knows, but I suspect not?

Right, video time. Maybe I shouldnt go with this, because time doesnt seem to have been kind to this group, but given I’ve never heard of a music festival at Ullapool, in the north of Scotland before, lets roll with it.

Oh fine, for those of a nervous disposition, an extended version of the original record

On a grey, Scottish morning

Alright, its a day late, but some of us were working yesterday lol. And its too big a landmark to just ignore, lets face it. We all have those places that we know where we were when a big piece of news breaks. The one that has always stuck with me, even after seemingly 40 years, is the death of Elvis Presley.

In those days, when I’d ventured into holidays on my own, but was most definitely on a budget, and long before I ever considered going to the US, I tended to do coach holidays to various parts of the UK. I know, it was, and probably still is mainly a more ‘mature person’ thing, but as a non driver, if I wanted to visit some more remote, and beautiful areas of the country, it was pretty much my only choice. So anyway, in August 1977, I was away in Scotland, probably heading up to the northern end of the highlands, though at this length in time, I cant remember the exact details.

What I do remember is that coach stopped for the night at Arrochar, I believe it was the Loch Long Hotel, but dont quote me on that, after 40 years. I remember nothing about the hotel, good, or bad, beyond the fact that as I woke up in the morning, I heard a woman somewhere, either in a nearby room, or out in the village crying, “Elvis is dead! Elvis is dead!” Back in those pre-internet days (how did we ever survive lol?), the only way of confirming this fact was to turn on the TV, and yes, the news was confirmed for me.

I cant say I was, or ever have been the biggest Presley fan in the world. I liked some of his music, but certainly not in a fan worship sort of fashion. So why has it stuck with me like this? in truth, no idea. Maybe it was that woman, in her despair, more than the death of Elvis that affected me, who knows? Maybe it was being somewhere different, away from home? Before you ask, I have passed through Arrochar a few times since then, both by car, and by train, but have never stopped in the village again, let alone stay at that hotel.

But yes, I guess if its stuck with me until now, for 40 years, its fair to say that that morning, in Arrochar, is going to be with me for the rest of my life, however long that may be?

OK, video time. Yes, you’re right, it is Elvis. Not one of his rock and roll songs, but one of his more poignant ones that I really took to heart. And given how things are in the US at present, even more poignant, I guess?

Wouldnt it be good?

Wouldn’t it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day

Well, that is a massive hint to tonights video at least, though the blog, in truth, only relates to the first few words of that. But looking at that quote, I’d truly love to spend just one day in the shoes, and body, of Clara Elaine Johnson, and find out what life was like as a dancer in the 1930’s, all the same.

But no, this blog isnt about that, though I might come back to that at some point in the future, who knows? No, tonight’s subject is corsets!

One issue I personally have with corset ownership, is that its not an item I can get myself into, without assistance. Even before the back issue (more shortly), the arthritis in my fingers would make tying a corset behind my back, nigh on impossible, or in truth, just impossible. And being a single woman (no one is crazy enough to want me lol), I have no one else to tie me into one, either. Great shame, because I’d love to be tied into this, for certain.

Yes, supposedly a corset, though hard to tell from that angle. But yes, metallic silver, and all that…

Wouldnt it be good (see I knew I could fit the song title in here) if you could put on a corset, push a button on it, or turn a device so that it could tighten around you, without all that tying issue, which I cant do? I’m only amazed with all this modern technology that no one has ever designed one, ah well… Or maybe they have, but at such a silly price? Though in truth, I suspect for many (with partners, or supple hands), the tying up is part of the, err, fun.

What I found today, while looking for a back brace, to support me through the wedding, as standing still unsupported is going to be an issue for a while, was this

http://www.ebay.co.uk/itm/291246878042

Now in truth, I have no idea how much actual waist reduction this will do, as I cant see zips being able to pull in that tightly, simply because zips tend to just ease open, if you pull them too tightly? But yes, fine, my main aim with this is the back support, and I just see the corset side of it as an added bonus. Lets face it, my face would put potential admirers off, even if I had the perfect hourglass figure! But yes, at that price, I’ve bought one, to see how it goes. I have also bought a more straightforward back brace, which has magnets in it, which are supposedly good for you, but we will see. Thats just one of those velcro fitting things, but that should be fine, fingers crossed.

Yes, we will see…

Right, video time. Yes, you must have worked out the song by now, but this version gives you not just one 80’s legend, but two!

Trying to be practical

In truth, I was already beginning to suspect that given the state of my body at present (yes, still open to all offers of a cybernetically enhanced body, ideally in chrome), trying to do a 5 day week at work wasnt doing me any good. First sign was last Monday, when basically the body hadnt recovered from 4 working days in a row, by Monday morning, even with painkillers and stuff, and so it proved, I didnt get through the day, or more correctly my back didnt! I somehow managed to make it far enough through the day to get to halfway, so it didnt count as a sick day, but even that was hard work! Of course that gave me a day and a bit to recover, so I got through Wednesday fine, and Thursday OK, but then came Friday, and…

Yes, the body was sore, and tender, but I got into work, and managed to stay there, at least. But yes, it was a struggle. So anyway, trying to be practical as to my capabilities, I decided to do justice to work, and to myself, something had to give. So yes, I’ve asked if I can cut back to 4 days a week for now, hopefully only until the bone density scans are done, the results are known, and the medication kicks in. But given the former is still nearly 4 weeks away, and it will be about 3 weeks after that before the results are known, and I can be given something to hopefully cure the issue, its going to be a while before that happens, and the body just cant cope with that at the moment.

Yes, I can afford it for a short period of time (I’m guessing about 10-12 weeks), and could even afford it full time, if I cut back on my holiday trips to US! Yes, I know, ouch, but one 10 day trip would be cheaper than 2 single week trips, because of one less set of flights. Yes, a 14 night stay would still be cheaper, but there are very few places where I believe I could have enough to keep me amused for a fortnight!

Seattle could, San Francisco could, and I suspect Chicago, or Washington probably could. But some of the smaller cities I want to go back to, nope! 7 days would be fine, 10 maybe, but after that…? But yes, I’m hoping I can get back to a normal regime in a few months, but at the same time, I’m not getting younger, and my back isnt my only issue, so…?

My plan is to work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday, which gives me the other 3 days off. Yes, I know, 2 days in a row, but I can seemingly cope with that, but no more. But yes, its me, I’d rather do a work routine I can manage, for less money, than let my firm down, by pretending I can do a 5 day week. Just waiting for confirmation of approval now.

So there it is, unless someone wants to provide me with a nice, new strengthened body…? 😉

Video time, what my body needs in terms of support. Martin Cooper might be handy, but given he has back issues himself…So no, thinking more of that back brace that needs to be ordered lol!

Tie me up?

Strictly, this post is a tongue in cheek piece of wishful whimsy, but if anyone wants to provide in the next 4 weeks or so, lol?

Firstly, on a more serious moment, I have arranged wheelchair assistance for the airports on my trip now. Even before todays news (more shortly), I wasnt going to be able to stand long enough for the Immigration queue, and maybe the security queues, so I got it done. Yes, I’m old, and beaten up, and I know it! 😛

Well, for a while, I thought, just maybe, but no. Yesterday, when I got home from work, I found a letter from the NHS requesting me to make a call, and make an appointment for my examination on my back, and the density of my bones. Yes! Maybe I can get something sorted before my holiday? Well…

I rang this morning, and the first date they could offer me, was 8th September, the day before I leave for US. I mean, I wasnt expecting anything immediate, but nearly 5 weeks…? Eek! So now, if I want to be able to stand, and serve as a bridesmaid at the wedding (and I really do, will be a first), I need a way to be able to stand for more than 2-3 minutes!

If anyone knows anything better (cybernetic spine would be handy, yes, tongue in cheek, I assume?) than a back brace, or corset, let me know. No, I havent got the money to go privately, not even close! Reckon it would be 5 days max if I could! In fact, someone has already suggested a back brace that will do the job, but…

I know, I’m a robot wannabee, so…anyone know of anything in metallic silver lol? Back brace would be fine, as that would solve issue, but a corset that could make me think it would turn me into a robot, once tied into it lol…? No, I’m not really looking for waist reduction, just back support, before you ask.

I know, cant be done, certainly not in 4 weeks, but thought it would be fun just to ask? But, if anyone can…? 😉

Video time. Found this purely by chance, and yes its adult, so if you’re too young, and reading this, go away now, if not sooner! But if someone wants to tie me up into a metallic silver corset, for September…?

How would it feel?

As someone definitely more into the technological side of mind control, rather than the relatively ‘tamer’ version applied through hypnosis, I’ve always wondered how it would actually feel to be mind controlled, or brainwashed, in reality. Of course, let me say, that as its all fictional, and impossible in real life, this is purely hypothetical, but…?

Strictly the mind control side of things depends on what is done to the lucky person, sorry, victim of the mind control. Some are taken over so totally that not only do they think that their new thoughts are their own, they may not even realize they’re being controlled! Of course there are others, where they know they are being controlled, but are hopeless to resist it, to any degree. And yes, you get a few where resistance does happen, for a while at least, but in the end…the inevitable happens.

But the one I’m going to look into more tonight, is the actual brainwashing stuff. Usually, thankfully in stories, if someone is brainwashed, they tend to get reprogrammed with new thoughts, so unless you’re turning them into an actual robot, or robot like machine, why not just tamper with the thoughts in the first place, rather than making all that effort? Well, I suppose if you want to create a whole new identity, or person, its easier that way, to wipe clean, then start again, but if you just want control over someone…?

But lets say you brainwash someone, or more ideally in my case, are thoroughly brainwashed, what does it feel like for the recipient? Are you literally blank minded, incapable of doing anything, or recognizing anyone around you, without being commanded to do so? Is there actually any point in brainwashing someone, and not actually reprogramming them to obey commands anyway? And if brainwashed, is it simply a blank minded state of blissfulness, or something more? You cant think surely, if your mind has been erased, or does something else kick in, to counteract that fact?

A question I’m going to ask of any hypnotist reading this, though I guess none will answer, regardless, is could you actually ‘brainwash’ a willing victim through hypnosis? I only ask because I’m curious to know what its actually like to feel like you’ve been brainwashed, even temporarily like this, just to discover what it actually feels like. And if literally brainwashed, in that way, and unable to think for themselves, could you then override the practice that the subject has to be willing to do things suggested to him. Because normally, anyone could react, and stop anything happening to them (despite fictional hypnosis stories that suggest otherwise), but if your mind has been wiped clean, in theory at least…? Hmm?

Yes, if anyone quite literally wants to show me, or let me experience it, I’d love to. Whether you then leave me as a mindless, obedient robot, hmm? 😉

Right, video time. One of those Slade songs that even if you’re old enough to remember them, unless you were a big fan like me, you probably dont know it, but you should!