Last cut is the deepest

Its hard to believe that its nearly time for the NFL season to start seriously again, but this time next week, we’ll be looking at the opening game, and Kate and I will be gently teasing each other, as its Kansas City, against New England, so that will be fun! Its just a shame that its 2 days before we could have watched it together, and stirred each other up together, but such is life. The likely possibility, given New England wont be playing on the Sunday, is that I will get to see the Buffalo Bills, play the New York Jets, 2 teams that pretty much seem to be throwing away their seasons before they even get started. Yes, strictly the Bills are my team, but I’ve seen so much awful right wing, racist stuff written by their fans on social media of late (mostly about the anthem stuff), that I find it hard to get involved with them, in truth. Oh, and not to forget, the Monday night game, and my one chance this autumn to see the gorgeousness that is Jon Gruden! Swoon!

But why now, why the blog title, you ask? Well, tonight marks the last round of pre season games (other than the one in Texas, cancelled for obvious reasons), and after that, the huge squads that the teams currently carry, have to be trimmed back drastically. Most of those getting the chop will be players we’ve never heard of, but some of whom will either be plucked up for practice squads, or selected when injuries start to take their toll on teams. There will also be a number of relatively ‘more famous’ players who will be cut, for salary reasons. Again some will be plucked by other teams, some will get picked when injuries strike, but for a few, that will be it.

Before I sound too sorry for them, lets just remember what crazy salaries these people earn! In some cases, cutting 1 player cuts $6 million from a wage bill! But yes, for those young men, its still a tough time, if you’re the one thats cut. And thats on top of those who should have, but never got called to a team this summer…whistles innocently…

No, I’d have made a lousy cheerleader, even when I was young, lol! 😛

The video, you could say, as so often, there is a clue in the title. This is pretty much the original version of the song, Cat Stevens, from 1967! Yes, I really am that old, I was 9 then!

Do you know the way to JFK?

Its a fact that I’m now coming up on 30 years since my first trip to the USA. Back then, we had to apply for visas, send off our passports to the US Embassy, and nervously wait for approval. Yes, not an issue, and never has been since for me, I’m delighted to say. Of course, nowadays its all done online, and your passport goes nowhere! But back then… And yes, we flew with TWA, who are equally long gone by now!

My first US point of entry was Boston, and of course, in just over a weeks time, my entry point into the US will be Boston! I’ve only actually done that once since, and I didnt have to go through Immigration on that trip, as I flew through Shannon, in Ireland, and cleared it there. Have been to Boston other than that, but entered the US elsewhere, before flying on to Boston.

My point of exit on that trip was New York, having spent a few days there in the interim. The difference, beyond a couple of transits through JFK, I havent returned there in 30 years. Why, you might ask? Does it sound weird for someone who loves LA to say that I found it too loud for me! I know, I probably would have found LA loud back then, I’ve definitely changed since then.

So, that moment of deja vu? Yes, this time around I will be travelling to/around NYC to get to JFK for my flight home. Not quite sure how it all relates to NYC in all honesty, probably depends how I get there, I guess? But no, I’m not planning on doing any sightseeing, given the state of my back at present, regardless. Plus the fact I will have a large case, and hand luggage, and…little time, hopefully. One day I will get back there, hopefully when I’m in better health, and see whether it was me, as I was back then, or if its NYC. My money is on, it was me!

Ah well…

The video, well it rhymes with the blog title at least. No, not the expected version, from Dionne Warwick, but one from a Yorkshire lass, who has never had the fame she deserved. Yes, I might be biased lol!

Nobody loves a robot when she’s sixty!

Alright, having done a sadly serious piece over on the other blog, lets do something very silly here, just to try and cheer me up!

One of the things about all the various forums I’m on, is that there are an awful lot of regulars, who have been there a while, like me, but every so often, someone new arrives, and makes themselves known. Quite often, they stay for a short period of time, then never show up again. Well, some stay, but you get my drift…?

Yes, one of these moments struck at Fembot Central in the last week or so, some guy arrived ‘loudly’, announcing he was looking to own a fembot, and all that sort of stuff. No, before you get any ideas, he doesnt mean it for real, all he is looking for is probably a one off role play, and that will almost certainly be that. Given that under normal circumstances, time for myself is pretty much zero, and the fact that I did all of that sort of thing 10-15 years ago, I passed it by.

So anyway, the next day, I have one of those ‘private message’ things from him, asking if I was interested in his offer. It may be something to do with the fact that there are very few females active on there, other than those who charge ‘considerable sums’ for their services, movies, or phone line wise, so he decided to try his luck.

Basically I replied, saying that if it was just for role-play, then no, I wouldnt be interested. If he really wanted me to live as a fembot, or he was actually going to transform me into one, to sell himself accordingly. To be fair to him, he said that maybe that was an idea, and could we chat on Skype, or something? Yes, that wasnt the answer I was expecting.

So anyway, fair is fair, at this point, before he got ‘over excited’, I thought I’d better point out one thing to him, my age. Lets be fair, its not fair for a guy to expect a pretty young thing, as a fembot in his life, and then get an old maid like me, even just on text chat. Yes, got a message back, which wasnt actually ageist, but made it very clear I didnt fit the perfect fembot image of his dreams! Not that I blame him, unless he was going to actually transform me, but besides all that…

Before you ask, no, he hasnt logged into Fembot Central since then, anyway! Whether it was me, and the situation, or just the lack of nubile, non professional (paying) young fembots, who knows? All I know is, seemingly a fembot who is nearly 60 isnt going to get love!

Tonights video. Well I knew this song, but had no idea what I would find for it on You Tube, but this seemed a good option!

Everyday Hurts

Regardless of my current physical issues, one thing I’ve always tried to do whenever I see anyone in a wheelchair is acknowledge them, even if its only a quick glance with the eyes, I always try to do something, just to show my support. Even more so now, in the sense that in a couple of weeks time, proverbially at least, I’ll be in their place. Fortunately for me, at the end of it all, I will be able to get out of the wheelchair, and walk away, to some degree at least, even if my back ensures it wont be that smooth an event. But of course, for most people in a wheelchair, thats not an option. Probably why, to some degree, I feel guilty about requesting a wheelchair, but being practical, I cant stand long enough in one place to join the standard Immigration queue, into the US, and in truth, getting through security might be challenging too, if I dont time it right! So fine, it needs to be done, but even so…

Yes, thankfully, I’ve got to the point where I can accept that as a fact, so I’m finding it easier to live with it, even if its not the perfect situation. I see one gentleman reasonably regularly, using the same bus service as me, to and from Bradford, and we’ve now acknowledged each other so often, I quite often get a wave, rather than a nod! But no, it wasnt him yesterday that made me think about my scenario in a fortnights time.

I was walking back from work yesterday, into town, and saw a woman in one of those motorized wheelchairs approaching at as much speed as I’ve ever seen one go! I tried to acknowledge her, but I think she was more focused on setting a qualifying time for a Grand Prix lol! No, I wont get a motorized wheelchair at the airport, I’m pretty sure, just being pushed along, I’m sure. To be honest, I have to, at some point look up what the etiquette is for these matters, as I suspect one of the places I might need assistance is in the check in area, but how does anything get sorted out before I check in? If anyone knows, and is prepared to comment, I’d love to know. If not, I’ll have to try and find out online, hazard of being a solo traveler.

To be fair, I should point out that it wont be my first time being pushed in a wheelchair, but the last time was nearly 50 years ago, and for a few weeks at least, I couldnt walk, as it was after both my knees were surgically operated on at the same time. Since then, no, never been in one. Well, not until a fortnights time, at least!

Yes, I do feel sorry for those, who unlike me, having got through the rigors of Boston Airport, wont be able to just get out of their wheelchair, and walk away, and know how painful it must be for some, when they see the rest of us walking around them, with too many just ignoring them. But yes, as a social experiment, it will be interesting to see how others react to me, all the same.

The video, an absolute oldie, just hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Always the bridesmaid?

In truth, in over 59 years, for whatever reason, I havent been to that many weddings in my life. Not quite sure of numbers, but a dozen, or less, quite likely. And those I have been to, always as a guest, and nothing more. Never been a bride, cant even remember getting to be a bride on stage, even! Yes, thats right, never been a bridesmaid either! Until now! Well, not quite now, but in 3 weeks, and 2 days time, yes, I will be. My current concern is more about not messing things up, given there will be very limited opportunities for a rehearsal, given I will only arrive in town about 2 days before the big event! I know, all will be fine, but this is me…!

I’m not saying that at 59 years, and 6 months (to the day), that I will be the oldest first time bridesmaid ever, but I suspect I’d be near the top of that list! Before you ask, yes, I’m definitely looking forward to it, and honored to have been asked, as I’d given up on it ever happening by now. No, I dont expect to ever make the oldest first time bride list, I might add! Maybe, who knows, but breath wont be held lol!

To be honest, currently at least, my biggest concern about it all, is my back! Thankfully the back brace corset does seem to be capable of allowing me to stand still for more than a couple of minutes at present, but how long that really will work for, I have no idea. And no, I dont want to be a bridesmaid in a wheelchair lol! I’m sure I wouldnt be the first, but yes, I’d rather be able to pass on that, all the same, given I can walk, and stand, at the moment at least.

But yes, me, the blushing bridesmaid. Never thought it would happen, but really looking forward to it now. Now, if I can catch the bouquet lol…?

The video, very apt for a wedding. I cant believe I havent used this here before, but seemingly not, so…

Dont let me out of here! Unless…?

Yes, work related blog, so if that doesnt interest…?

One year ago today, I walked into my new place of work for the first time as an employee. The rest, as they say, is history! Its ironic, all that time it took me to find work, and then I struck gold! I knew they would never know, but I said to myself at the time that I wanted to show all those firms that had passed on me, that they were wrong to do so, but now I’m glad they did.

Even more so, as they have been so supportive of the ‘old crock’ who has (temporarily, I hope) had to cut back to a 4 day week, because of her back issues, and everything else related to it.

Given that under the current rules, I am due to take retirement in just over 6 and a half years, its fair to say that unless they push me out of the door, or my physical health gives up completely, I’m planning on being there until the end. Unless…?

I know, I know, its an actress, and the dream thing. I still dream that by some strange miracle, I’m going to get plucked from anonymity by some director, producer, or whoever, and get offered a dream role. Lets face it, I havent done anything for a few years now, I’m fast approaching 60, and the body is in less than perfect condition, so yeah, who’s going to do that? in truth, no one will, but no, I dont want to, just yet, quite give up on that dream! Mind, currently I’m only good for roles that require someone to be sat down for the whole performance, or in a wheelchair! Hopefully not for long, but…

But yes, in hindsight, with all those mental bruises gone, about finding a job at my age, thanks for that. Because in the end, I’m grateful to you, even if I didnt feel so at the time.

Video time. The blog title isnt the song title, but its a well used line of lyrics.

A look into the future?

Normally my baseball fix is provided by Major League Players, taking things seriously, usually only on TV, though I do occasionally get to live games, as I did in May, when I managed to see the Dodgers win, which was nice. Mind, seemingly they’ve done plenty of that this season, almost got boring lol! No, seriously, its nice, but yes, if it doesnt happen in the playoffs now, it is going to be a letdown to some degree, for sure. Not that I’m competitive, and normally prefer to support the underdog, but never mind…

But at this time of year, I tend to get my baseball fix from a much younger age group, from people from all over the world, not just the US, though to be fair, half the teams are from the US, but anyway… Yes, its Little League World Series time again. I know, everyone is so competitive, its just me that is so laid back about such matters, or so it seems? Fine, it might help if I had affiliation to one of these teams, but without that, nope.

Today though, for the youngsters (most are between 10, and 13) brought a different type of fun, meeting up with the ‘big boys’ from the MLB. Yes, tonight, St Louis, and Pittsburgh will play a game, not in the normal stadium in Pittsburgh, but in a stadium close to where the youngsters are playing, and it seems they’ve got a mass invite. What was fun today, was seeing the two groups interacting with each other. Some of the big names have played in the LLWS in the past, and some of this years teams will play in the MLB in the future, for sure.

I know, I know, a lot of it for the MLB players is probably just PR stuff, but its fair to say that everyone seemed to be enjoying it. I just find it all rather delightful, as I cant imagine many of our star soccer/football (depending on where you read this) players doing the same thing, with young 12 year old footballers. Maybe I’m doing them down, who knows, but I suspect not?

Right, video time. Maybe I shouldnt go with this, because time doesnt seem to have been kind to this group, but given I’ve never heard of a music festival at Ullapool, in the north of Scotland before, lets roll with it.

Oh fine, for those of a nervous disposition, an extended version of the original record

On a grey, Scottish morning

Alright, its a day late, but some of us were working yesterday lol. And its too big a landmark to just ignore, lets face it. We all have those places that we know where we were when a big piece of news breaks. The one that has always stuck with me, even after seemingly 40 years, is the death of Elvis Presley.

In those days, when I’d ventured into holidays on my own, but was most definitely on a budget, and long before I ever considered going to the US, I tended to do coach holidays to various parts of the UK. I know, it was, and probably still is mainly a more ‘mature person’ thing, but as a non driver, if I wanted to visit some more remote, and beautiful areas of the country, it was pretty much my only choice. So anyway, in August 1977, I was away in Scotland, probably heading up to the northern end of the highlands, though at this length in time, I cant remember the exact details.

What I do remember is that coach stopped for the night at Arrochar, I believe it was the Loch Long Hotel, but dont quote me on that, after 40 years. I remember nothing about the hotel, good, or bad, beyond the fact that as I woke up in the morning, I heard a woman somewhere, either in a nearby room, or out in the village crying, “Elvis is dead! Elvis is dead!” Back in those pre-internet days (how did we ever survive lol?), the only way of confirming this fact was to turn on the TV, and yes, the news was confirmed for me.

I cant say I was, or ever have been the biggest Presley fan in the world. I liked some of his music, but certainly not in a fan worship sort of fashion. So why has it stuck with me like this? in truth, no idea. Maybe it was that woman, in her despair, more than the death of Elvis that affected me, who knows? Maybe it was being somewhere different, away from home? Before you ask, I have passed through Arrochar a few times since then, both by car, and by train, but have never stopped in the village again, let alone stay at that hotel.

But yes, I guess if its stuck with me until now, for 40 years, its fair to say that that morning, in Arrochar, is going to be with me for the rest of my life, however long that may be?

OK, video time. Yes, you’re right, it is Elvis. Not one of his rock and roll songs, but one of his more poignant ones that I really took to heart. And given how things are in the US at present, even more poignant, I guess?

Wouldnt it be good?

Wouldn’t it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day

Well, that is a massive hint to tonights video at least, though the blog, in truth, only relates to the first few words of that. But looking at that quote, I’d truly love to spend just one day in the shoes, and body, of Clara Elaine Johnson, and find out what life was like as a dancer in the 1930’s, all the same.

But no, this blog isnt about that, though I might come back to that at some point in the future, who knows? No, tonight’s subject is corsets!

One issue I personally have with corset ownership, is that its not an item I can get myself into, without assistance. Even before the back issue (more shortly), the arthritis in my fingers would make tying a corset behind my back, nigh on impossible, or in truth, just impossible. And being a single woman (no one is crazy enough to want me lol), I have no one else to tie me into one, either. Great shame, because I’d love to be tied into this, for certain.

Yes, supposedly a corset, though hard to tell from that angle. But yes, metallic silver, and all that…

Wouldnt it be good (see I knew I could fit the song title in here) if you could put on a corset, push a button on it, or turn a device so that it could tighten around you, without all that tying issue, which I cant do? I’m only amazed with all this modern technology that no one has ever designed one, ah well… Or maybe they have, but at such a silly price? Though in truth, I suspect for many (with partners, or supple hands), the tying up is part of the, err, fun.

What I found today, while looking for a back brace, to support me through the wedding, as standing still unsupported is going to be an issue for a while, was this

http://www.ebay.co.uk/itm/291246878042

Now in truth, I have no idea how much actual waist reduction this will do, as I cant see zips being able to pull in that tightly, simply because zips tend to just ease open, if you pull them too tightly? But yes, fine, my main aim with this is the back support, and I just see the corset side of it as an added bonus. Lets face it, my face would put potential admirers off, even if I had the perfect hourglass figure! But yes, at that price, I’ve bought one, to see how it goes. I have also bought a more straightforward back brace, which has magnets in it, which are supposedly good for you, but we will see. Thats just one of those velcro fitting things, but that should be fine, fingers crossed.

Yes, we will see…

Right, video time. Yes, you must have worked out the song by now, but this version gives you not just one 80’s legend, but two!

Trying to be practical

In truth, I was already beginning to suspect that given the state of my body at present (yes, still open to all offers of a cybernetically enhanced body, ideally in chrome), trying to do a 5 day week at work wasnt doing me any good. First sign was last Monday, when basically the body hadnt recovered from 4 working days in a row, by Monday morning, even with painkillers and stuff, and so it proved, I didnt get through the day, or more correctly my back didnt! I somehow managed to make it far enough through the day to get to halfway, so it didnt count as a sick day, but even that was hard work! Of course that gave me a day and a bit to recover, so I got through Wednesday fine, and Thursday OK, but then came Friday, and…

Yes, the body was sore, and tender, but I got into work, and managed to stay there, at least. But yes, it was a struggle. So anyway, trying to be practical as to my capabilities, I decided to do justice to work, and to myself, something had to give. So yes, I’ve asked if I can cut back to 4 days a week for now, hopefully only until the bone density scans are done, the results are known, and the medication kicks in. But given the former is still nearly 4 weeks away, and it will be about 3 weeks after that before the results are known, and I can be given something to hopefully cure the issue, its going to be a while before that happens, and the body just cant cope with that at the moment.

Yes, I can afford it for a short period of time (I’m guessing about 10-12 weeks), and could even afford it full time, if I cut back on my holiday trips to US! Yes, I know, ouch, but one 10 day trip would be cheaper than 2 single week trips, because of one less set of flights. Yes, a 14 night stay would still be cheaper, but there are very few places where I believe I could have enough to keep me amused for a fortnight!

Seattle could, San Francisco could, and I suspect Chicago, or Washington probably could. But some of the smaller cities I want to go back to, nope! 7 days would be fine, 10 maybe, but after that…? But yes, I’m hoping I can get back to a normal regime in a few months, but at the same time, I’m not getting younger, and my back isnt my only issue, so…?

My plan is to work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday, which gives me the other 3 days off. Yes, I know, 2 days in a row, but I can seemingly cope with that, but no more. But yes, its me, I’d rather do a work routine I can manage, for less money, than let my firm down, by pretending I can do a 5 day week. Just waiting for confirmation of approval now.

So there it is, unless someone wants to provide me with a nice, new strengthened body…? 😉

Video time, what my body needs in terms of support. Martin Cooper might be handy, but given he has back issues himself…So no, thinking more of that back brace that needs to be ordered lol!