Are we happy? Are we scared?

Or a mixture of both, maybe?

Well, today saw the first of a planned 32 visits to St James Hospital in Leeds over the next 7 weeks, so… Today was actually one of the more straightforward ones, Thursday will probably be even more so, but then we get to the 30 more serious ones, involving radiotherapy, chemotherapy tablets and everything else involved in getting me better, in the long run at least.

And yes, apart from overtaxing the voice/mouth a bit too much by talking too much to various people, it was indeed pretty straightforward. The letter I needed for work, sorted. All the paperwork I thought I might have to do to get all the benefits I need/am entitled to, someone far more knowledgeable of such matters will be dealing with for me. The knowledge confirmed that said mouth issue is probably related to the issue with the growth on my temporal lobe, most of which is now gone, gained.

So yes, now I can start to focus on events starting on Monday, and stop worrying about everything else, thank goodness. And yes, I will be happy to get started with that, I must admit. Am I scared about said events? At the moment the answer would be no, but ask me again next week, lol. Though I was told today that I’m more likely to get tired out by stuff as the 6 weeks go on, rather than in the early stages. There is the possibility of staying over in Leeds for up to 4 nights a week if it does, but I rather gather they work on ‘does she need it’ option, rather than pushing it on me early, which seems the wisest route to go down. As much for all the travel I will be doing, as well as the treatments, but we will see.

But yes, I have to admit it, if you’d told me 2 months ago that I’d be where I am now, whether I would have believed you, who knows? But we are, so…

I have one more trip to Leeds before Monday, on Thursday for the ‘meet the team, and I gather one of the radiotherapy machines (non working)’ but then down to business! The one thing I’m sure of, is that after these 7 weeks, anyone offering to drive me to Leeds will not be met with the most enthusiastic response, lol, for a few months at least! So yes, tomorrow, no travel, and same on Friday, but after that, for 6 weeks, on weekdays at least, that trip to Leeds could become very familiar! Beneficial, but boring, lol.

After that, 4 – 6 weeks of not overdoing it, then lets see how I feel? I have been told I need some short term targets to get me through the treatments, and I already have 2. One is the obvious Christmas/New Year holiday period, and the other, before then, the works Christmas dinner (yes, Medical retirement is coming soon, but not official yet, so…) the first week after treatments should end, so… Fine, we shall see after those, lol!

Oh, Thursday. Well yes, I might be considering wearing the silver wig, and silver Lycra bodysuit under clothing, but we will see how I feel then, lol!

OK, the video. Well the blog title is mentioned in the song, and the song title might be what I need someone to say to me at some point, but other than that, this video is pretty crazy, I guess?

Talking about a bad girl

One of the things I guess I’ve developed from my ‘dice with death’ cancer moment is the fact that I’ve decided I might as well have a bit more fun with my life, which is probably shown by yesterday’s picture, with the silver wig, silver bodysuit, and everything else. Yes, the temptation to wear the silver look on Thursday for the ‘medical team meeting’ on Thursday is definitely growing, even if the bodysuit will have to be under standard clothing, and the wig will only be worn for the actual team thing, not the whole visit, but anyway…

And certainly, due to a few politicians, and other people, my tendency to put up with idiots levels have gone down too. In this case, a spammer, as no, I doubt I’d have the cheek to actually do it to a politician, but dont call me out on that, lol.

So this morning, when I opened my email box, I had one of those emails, supposedly from a guy named Magnus in Sweden, offering me a half share of $6.2Million if I helped him with his ‘project’. Thing is, it came from a guy named Juvencio, with a Brazilian email address, so… Now normally in the past, with me, this would have been instantly deleted, and taken no further, but in my current mood, and because he’s made such an awful job of covering up who he really was, well, I decided 2 could play at that game, so I sent back a reply, though not the one he was hoping for, but this one…

Dear Juvencio,

My name is Dominatrix Queen of Pluto, writing to you from my home planet. I have a vacancy in my dungeon for a human slave or two from planet Earth, in need of severe punishment, and you sound an ideal candidate. I certainly trust your pussy eating skills are up to my demands, if not, I suggest you learn soon. In the meanwhile, send me promptly a silver latex catsuit as a tribute, size 16 UK. When you inform me this has been purchased, I will provide the address to send it to, where my teleporting unit is stored.

Given you might find Pluto a little chilly for your feeble human body, and I am capable of teleporting my dungeon to a suitable building on your feeble planet, I suggest you use some of that money on the purchase of a mansion in the area known as Hollywood, in Los Angeles, and let me know when you have completed this task, by sending me a set of pictures of my new Earth home.

I demand to hear that you have completed my demands within the next 30 days.

Your new powerful Dominatrix,

H, though I advise you to call me Mistress H

No, I’m not expecting a reply of course, but the thought of him seeing an email in his box when he got up this morning, thinking he had scammed someone, and then opened it, giggle… Of course, if you find in the future a blog written by me, from Hollywood, while wearing a silver latex catsuit, well…

OK, video. Well, I guess sending an email to someone, even a very poor scammer would make me a bad girl, so why not this one? Yes, I’d love that purple outfit Donna Summer is wearing, of course I would. So…?

 

Crackling Harlean?

But no, before anyone thinks this is going to be about my health matters, you’re wrong!

One of the things I’m now in a position to catch up on, and get inspired by, is the Blackpool film festival next year, which is a bit later next year, not in March, but in May, weekend starting on the 22nd to be exact, and seemingly going on to the 25th, given its a Bank Holiday weekend, so that will be fun.

One of the suggested themes for the weekend is the old dance based musicals, though I think its safe to say that as I will then be 62, I wont be wearing anything quite as revealing as anything young Clara Johnson, and the other dancers did, lol. Something fun, and a dancer type outfit, but crazily revealing, not without very large amounts of personal sponsorship, lol.

However, one of the other considerations involves science fiction films, and one film got included in the discussion, Metropolis. Just think about, and even ignoring my less than subtle robot kink, what could be better for a recovering cancer patient than wearing a full robot bodysuit outfit, able to sit down for recovery periods in the seat that was designed for the Metropolis robot to sit in? And lets face it, if a robot feels the need to walk slowly, well again, its what she’s meant to do? And besides, if me hair, or anything else is in less than perfect condition, even by then, who is going to know? Oh, and yes, fine, I’d love every moment of wearing it, anyway.

Of course, if I needed an absolute incentive to make sure I was fit enough to work at the Festival in May, that would definitely be it!

Mind, I might get some early practice of living as a robot over this weekend anyway. The hair hasnt been cut since March, just before the health issues all started, but all (or pretty much all) is coming off tomorrow morning. Oh, should I mention that at the moment, the only wig that has turned up is the silver one? The 2 redhead ones (a bob and a just longer than shoulder one), the email says will be delivered by Monday, but in the interim, its either the almost bald (or actually bald) robot look, or a silver wig, so well…? I have some old (and I mean as in over 10 years old) silver Lycra type suits that might also get used at weekend, assuming I can still get into them of course? No, as far as I know, I’m not going out at the weekend, and Lycra isnt going to work for outdoor wear at my age, but indoors…

As far as I know, after tomorrow the next time I need to venture out is a week today, for the meet the team get together in Leeds hospital. It was also going to be meet the blonde wig day, but that is now on 29th, as its a day that suits the team providing it, after a phone call this morning. Oh, we got there on call 3, they’d been given the wrong Christian name, so twice said Julie, but she eventually worked out it was me, rang me back, and then… Fine, I’ll settle for one of the redhead wigs on the 24th, lol, unless someone wants to dare me, with a sponsorship payment?

No, despite the subject matter, its not a certain Queen video. Yes, there is a big clue in the blog title though.

 

 

Das Robotermodell

That will probably get a few dashing to Google Translate, or whichever Translate engine you wish, though seriously, its not that hard to work out, is it?

Given that you cant wear anything metal within a MRI scanner, even zips, I’ve started to try and work out what I can actually wear for the scan, as my slacks all tended to have a buckle on them, even if the slacks are elasticated waists. Most of my skirts have got a metal zip on them too. So I’m sort of coming down to a summer dress, or one of my strapless ones to get over the issue.

But I must admit, the one amusing idea that has crossed my mind, though I suspect its now too late to get one, would be to have it done wearing a silver spandex bodysuit, including ideally a hood. Seriously, can you imagine the fit of giggles I could have, sliding into the MRI chamber wearing that? Even if I had to do it, under a summer dress, for sake of demureness? As I say, not sure I could even get one in time, especially given we’ve now hit the weekend, though that seems to count for less, nowadays. I have actually got the old one (no hood), which if I wore it under said dress, well…? Yes, I have got a hood, but I believe its glittery, so no go, sadly.

I suppose its struck me that said MRI chamber is about as close as I’m likely to get to a robot processing moment in my life now, lets face it. No, I probably wont, but I’m not saying I wont, especially with a full body suit, including hood, could I resist, probably not? What me, strip down to the spandex suit only, before getting in the chamber, well…? I suspect the zip on the commercial ones are probably metal, anyway. And no, I’m not going to find a velcro seal one, in a week, am I?

Right, the video. Kraftwerk, and the vocals are definitely live, though pretty sure the music isnt. Oh, and the German version of the song too, as the blog title might have given away

No More I Love You’s

Confused by the title? Well, fine, I picked it to fit in with a simply brilliant video that I discovered while writing my other blog. I was going to do something silly, but having seen Annie, and this…

Yes, we’ve had a bit of snow overnight, and today, here in the UK. So much so that unsurprisingly all turf horse racing was abandoned for the day, and indeed has been for tomorrow already!

To be honest, apart from that legendary race, the Grand National, I havent had a bet in some years now. In truth, I’m not sure if I’m even going to bother with the National this year, or not. I suspect I will, but dont quote me on that. Why? Because I still do free to enter horse racing competitions on a website called Betfair, and one of those will involve picking 2 horses, plus a reserve for said race. So having picked those, I might feel the urge to take my chance, and…lose £6 probably!

The Betfair site has a forum, and on there this morning was a thread about the amount of snow in your location in the UK. Someone not a million miles for me said he hadnt seen any, but I certainly had by then. It was then I noticed he posted last night, not this morning, and back then, yes, no snow. However, its a site where you cant delete postings, so there it had to stay. Anyway, seemingly he was about 8 miles from me, not a lot older than me, and then someone jokingly said the site had become like match.com lol! Fun ensued, but anyway…including him declaring his feelings for me, and…

In truth, if they knew the state of this 60 year old body of mine, they’d run a mile. Lets face it, with my damaged body, if I was a racehorse, they would probably have put me down. Legs are damaged, back is bust, arthritic joints et al…?

But yes, I guess invisibility on the internet can be a handy thing at times, even if I do own up to all my woes, they still cant see how plain I am, so…?

Just be grateful I thought of this, the only other idea I had was the perfect winter coat for me. Full body, including hood, either thermally lined throughout, or with its own heating system, in a perfect metallic silver color! 😛

Right, video. I’ve given enough clues, so lets just roll with it. And yes, I’d love to wear what Annie’s wearing!

A home suitable for here, or outer space.

Back in the early 1970’s, someone in Finland decided that the current design we were using to live in, had got a bit dull, and needed shaking up. So, he came up with this, and called it the Futuro home

my dream home

In truth, this is either a very old photo, a very well restored one, or someone has created a modern reconstruction of one. Why? Because they werent made of the best possible material, and of the few still surviving now, most arent in a good condition, let alone almost mint condition, like this one!

Yes, I’d love to live in one, at least for a short time, just because they look amazing, and fine, look just like a UFO. Not coincidence in the design, given the name, I’m sure? I suspect that to do so, I’d either need to find a very reconditioned one (maybe like this one is?), or get someone to customize me one from scratch! I know, I havent got any money, so I either need to get someone to buy me one, or even better, get a friendly alien to deliver a proper flying saucer for me to live in!

Sadly, despite looking like they should, as far as I know, they dont fly at all, let alone at fantastic speeds as a UFO would surely do. Yes, I wouldnt mind having an Earthbound one as home, but one that could fly off into outer space might just be better? 😉

Fine, I wouldnt actually need to wear a silver body suit to live there, but it might be a whole lot more fun to do so! Yes, you could just imagine people’s reactions, if you lowered the steps, and walked out of there, in a silver suit! 😀

So please, if someone has one suitable, even as an overnight stay, I’d love to do it. And yes, I would wear silver in there, believe me!

Right, the video. You have a choice of 2 tonight. The original version of the song

Or one that appeals to me far more, as a jazzed up version of said song.

My 3 most popular postings.

Do you know something? Apart from the home page on here, the 3 most popular pages on this blog are at least three and a half years old? And no, I dont just mean in the sense that they’ve been here longer than the rest, I mean in the sense that if I look at my stats for the last year, the last quarter, and even the last month, these 3 postings would either top the list, or be very close to doing so.

Yes, I suppose you’ve guessed it, they’re all related to robots, brainwashing devices, and silver suits that a robot could use! So in that sense, you could say my desire to be brainwashed, or mind controlled, and turned into a robot, or obedient drone seems a popular matter. The only irony of all this for me, no one has ever offered to let me even roleplay such a scenario for real, even if I’ve asked nicely, from time to time.

To save you trying to work out which they might be, and looking for them, and probably boosting their numbers even more, those 3 blogs are

https://robotunit8.wordpress.com/2011/08/09/fantasy-v-reality/
https://robotunit8.wordpress.com/2011/10/15/a-real-silver-bodysuit/
https://robotunit8.wordpress.com/2012/06/14/brainwashing-helmets/

Indeed, in last years review stats, the silver bodysuit one was by the far the most popular for the year, 3 years after I wrote it! And still no one has offered to buy, or design me a really good/kinky silver bodysuit to wear, regardless of whether they, or it is capable of erasing my mind lol!

Yes, as the first one says, if the situation was about to become real, I was about to be brainwashed, and turned into a mindless robot, would I be so keen on the idea? I still suspect the answer would be yes, but as the years pass by, it does seem less likely I’m even going to get the chance to roleplay it, let alone have it happen in reality, to make the choice.

I must admit, I did sort of hope that while I was in Hollywood, some inventive, independent film maker might jump at the chance of playing out such a scene, if I advertised the concept again, but no, the chance never arose. I did ask in the blog, but in vain. Yes, I know its sort of weird, sort of kinky, but if its voluntary, and its not for real…ah well!

Yes, I know, maybe the blog needs a new post on one, or all of these subjects, and in a better way than this. And yes, I will, if someone can give me a fresh way to look at it, other than how I covered it in these 3 postings. So, if its what you want, readers, and seemingly it is, give me that route to write about them again.

Oh, and yes, if anyone wants to roleplay in real life (online just doesnt work for me, no suit, helmet, or electrodes, or other things), I’d still very much love to do it. And if there is some scientific genius out there, who can do it for real, let me know, I probably wouldnt say no!

Fine, the video, a neat piece of mind control stuff, from a film now nearly 50 years old