She is the torch, was I the flame?

Just a thought I had, but only after the event about Tuesday, which I suspect that only an expert in hypnosis can answer, but if one reads this, and is prepared to answer, I’d love to know.

On Tuesday, I thought I’d try a little self hypnosis while in the flotation tank, try and clear my mind, just blank things out, and enjoy the sensation, which I did. Initially I thought I’d see if I could create a robot frame of mind while in self trance, but failed completely. No idea if it was me, the surroundings, or just that the concept wouldnt take?

So, Plan B, I tried to do a self regression, and see if I could call up Clara Johnson, my past life self. Much to my surprise, and delight, that worked! As also reported, she wasnt very keen, to put it mildly, on this weird modern, new age stuff, and panicked accordingly! Again, as mentioned before, by the time I just calmed her down a bit, I got the musical signal that the session was coming to an end, so I cut her off, and brought myself back in control.

But in hindsight, if I hadnt been able to calm her down, would I have been able to take back control so easily? I’m assuming, my mind, I must have ultimate control, but if I’ve passed the mental baton to her, is that really the case? And if ‘I’d’ come out of the pod, and she was still in charge, what could have happened? Could it even happen?

I must admit, in truth, I’d rather a hypnotist was in control of that scene, not only because things would definitely get done properly, but it might be a more successful way of getting answers out of Clara than me, trying to ask ‘her’ myself! Which, lets face it, is the main thing I want to do anyway, learn more about her.

Is it even a smart move me trying to regress myself like this, when I have no great hypnotic skills? Could a hypnotist get me to think I was really a robot, or brainwashed in one of those pods?

All intriguing thoughts, that I really have no answers to, but would love to get some. Anyone want to help me with a tape/download or something? Well, if you’re in West Yorkshire, could do more, but otherwise…? Yes, going back in the ‘brainwashing pod’, fine, flotation tank twice next month, so…

Right, video time. A bit of Soft Cell, featuring Cindy Ecstasy, who was actually providing the guys with Ecstasy at the time, hence the surname. The mystery is, a few years after this, she vanished without trace. Might be related to the drug dealing, might be related to fame, who knows? Is she still alive, or not, no one seems to know? But yes, here she was the Torch. Question is, am I Clara’s torch, or is she mine?