Fade to silver

Before we get to the amusing part of tonight’s blog, a brief piece with other health news for me. Yes, all is going positively with me so far, you might be glad to hear. So much so that as from my new stock tomorrow, my daily steroid count is being cut from 2 mg daily, to 1.5 mg, with the plan being, that if I have no issues with that, then to cut to 1 mg daily as from end of next week. I have been told if I do have issues, to immediately up it again, but if the nurse was expecting that, she wouldnt be cutting me in first place. Hard to believe, not so long ago, it was 16 mg daily!

Tomorrow is the halfway treatment, by the way, 15 down, 15 to go, quite a landmark.

Today, at the end of my treatment, I was asked if I was planning on taking my face mask home with me, when all treatments had been completed. Yes, of course I am, lol, might be the closest I ever get to a robot mask in my life, lets face it! I know, its plastic, its white, and though its hard to turn it into metal, I dont know if giving it a silver paint job would be so hard? Of course I would lack the fixing things that are on the machine, but wearing it on my face, all the same would have to be fun, especially if painted silver. Its also not quite full face (they let me breathe), but pretty good, all the same. So yes, I might be looking to see if it can be painted, and if so, to get someone to do it for me, because my hands certainly couldnt before, let alone now! Any offers? Something fitted so that it stayed around my head too?

Yes, my excuse was that I write science fiction, but lets face it, the real reason…

OK, the video. If you want a version of Steve Strange singing this, they arent hard to find. But finding Midge Ure (part writer/producer) providing a live version, well…

Crackling Harlean?

But no, before anyone thinks this is going to be about my health matters, you’re wrong!

One of the things I’m now in a position to catch up on, and get inspired by, is the Blackpool film festival next year, which is a bit later next year, not in March, but in May, weekend starting on the 22nd to be exact, and seemingly going on to the 25th, given its a Bank Holiday weekend, so that will be fun.

One of the suggested themes for the weekend is the old dance based musicals, though I think its safe to say that as I will then be 62, I wont be wearing anything quite as revealing as anything young Clara Johnson, and the other dancers did, lol. Something fun, and a dancer type outfit, but crazily revealing, not without very large amounts of personal sponsorship, lol.

However, one of the other considerations involves science fiction films, and one film got included in the discussion, Metropolis. Just think about, and even ignoring my less than subtle robot kink, what could be better for a recovering cancer patient than wearing a full robot bodysuit outfit, able to sit down for recovery periods in the seat that was designed for the Metropolis robot to sit in? And lets face it, if a robot feels the need to walk slowly, well again, its what she’s meant to do? And besides, if me hair, or anything else is in less than perfect condition, even by then, who is going to know? Oh, and yes, fine, I’d love every moment of wearing it, anyway.

Of course, if I needed an absolute incentive to make sure I was fit enough to work at the Festival in May, that would definitely be it!

Mind, I might get some early practice of living as a robot over this weekend anyway. The hair hasnt been cut since March, just before the health issues all started, but all (or pretty much all) is coming off tomorrow morning. Oh, should I mention that at the moment, the only wig that has turned up is the silver one? The 2 redhead ones (a bob and a just longer than shoulder one), the email says will be delivered by Monday, but in the interim, its either the almost bald (or actually bald) robot look, or a silver wig, so well…? I have some old (and I mean as in over 10 years old) silver Lycra type suits that might also get used at weekend, assuming I can still get into them of course? No, as far as I know, I’m not going out at the weekend, and Lycra isnt going to work for outdoor wear at my age, but indoors…

As far as I know, after tomorrow the next time I need to venture out is a week today, for the meet the team get together in Leeds hospital. It was also going to be meet the blonde wig day, but that is now on 29th, as its a day that suits the team providing it, after a phone call this morning. Oh, we got there on call 3, they’d been given the wrong Christian name, so twice said Julie, but she eventually worked out it was me, rang me back, and then… Fine, I’ll settle for one of the redhead wigs on the 24th, lol, unless someone wants to dare me, with a sponsorship payment?

No, despite the subject matter, its not a certain Queen video. Yes, there is a big clue in the blog title though.

 

 

So robot?

OK, lets start off with the amusing moment today, the first of my wig ‘collection’ arrived today, the cheapest I’m buying (though NHS backed one will be free, as on benefits), the silver bob wig. In truth, its what you would expect for £7, or there about, it will do fine as a fun wig, but its not going to win any prizes for quality, thats for sure. I was actually going to put it on today, and see if Eric (the landlord) even noticed, but because my hair hasnt been cut for just over 7 months, its now too long for a bob length wig, and too full for a wig to sit over it, so never mind… But yes, I will have to wait for the better quality redhead wigs to arrive in next few days, before getting shorn of hair, for sure. The last, the blonde bob wig, care of NHS/McMillan Cancer service, not until the 24th, when next on a definite visit to Leeds hospital before radiotherapy begins, as meeting team treating me that day. In theory I have a Occupational Therapy session before then, but as I dont yet have the rearranged date for that, taken the safe option on date.

I could go to my usual hairdresser round the corner, and get my hair done by her, but in truth, the weather around here recently has been wetter than what Noah faced aboard the Ark, and also, despite my mobility improving slightly lately, its not perfect, and is about 400-600 yards each way, so probably beyond me at the moment. 100-200 yards to the post box, yes, can now manage, but hairdresser far…?

The thing is, I was thinking that I was only likely to do the full robot look indoors with the wig, in which case a new (all my current ones are old, and in less than perfect condition) shiny Zentai/Lycra suit would have been fine, as figure hugging wouldnt matter all that much, but then someone suggested I should go outside, a la robot, and fine, that sort of challenge to an actress like me, oh please…how can I resist?

Snag is, at 61, with a bit of middle aged tummy, going out, even to the front gate, let alone further, in a figure hugging outfit, well…? Oh fine, I joke about wearing a latex catsuit, and would in private, given the chance, but winter is coming, and that would be in public, so… Dont get me wrong, I’ll do it, in the right robot suit, but something like that needs something not figure hugging, and at this time of year, probably with some lining too, all of which is going to be far more complex to get, to put it mildly. But if I can find, or be provided with such an item, oh yes, would be great fun to do.

I have to admit it, my friend Angie posted a great picture of a 6 ft tall beaver suit this morning, full body enclosing, which looked great fun. Now, if that had been a similar suit, in robot look, I might have been tempted, even at a price I really, really cant afford, but anyway… Still, if anyone knows of such a robot suit, in the UK, then please, an old lady, even if just to wear it once, well…?

Right, video time. I actually have a Police (pop group) story I can tell, that might amuse some. Back around 1979 (judging by singles discography) some friends of mine at the time were asked to be the band for one of those singers (cant remember who) who could sing, but had no touring band to do a few little concerts, which they did. The thing is, for reasons best known to the promoters, the last concert was an outdoor one in Inverness, so they were looking for a band to play a short set before the star turn, and my friends were asked if they knew anyone who might be interested in doing so. Well, they’d worked with this group who had released 2 or 3 singles previously, with little to no chart success (highest reached 42), called, yes, you’ve guessed it, Police.

Concert was done, Roxanne was re-released, got to number 12 in the charts second time round, and the rest was history! This isnt Roxanne, but one of those other early singles, with a one word tweak for the blog title, lol

 

 

Robot girls writing in their blog

Right, given their is going to be no further health news before Monday (probably Tuesday), and this blog is supposed to be all about a woman who wants to be a robot, lets get silly, shall we? Even more so given I’ve had surgery done on the brain, even if it wasnt of the robot type.

Actually, in truth, currently my mobility is probably less than a lot of these so called robot builds out of the far east, and there are days like yesterday when the brain runs slower than one of those old Sinclair type computers, let alone modern ones, but besides that…

So yes, even if they have rebuilt me (fine, the brain) a bit, there is still any amount of improvement that could be done, believe me. And yes, despite it all, I still have to admit, the idea of a full robot body look appeals as much, if not more. Alright, lets be practical, the likelihood of a full robot rebuild with current technology isnt going to happen for me, much though I’d love it.

But a full body suit, with my acting skills, and my current levels of mobility might be a fun way to cheer up an old lady looking forward to 6 weeks or so of radiotherapy, and the like might be fun. I’m not thinking in terms of anything amazing, though that might be fun, and indeed, if its just something I could have a bit of fun with, between radiotherapy sessions, to keep the mind amused, when the hair is gone, and all that, why not? I’m not going to just post too many details here, but I’m 5 ft 9 in tall, of medium build if anyone wants an idea? No point posting much more, as I know its not going to really happen, but if anyone wants more details, ask here, or email at robotunit8@hotmail.com and happy to provide. No, I’m not looking for a masterful Metropolis look (though that would be fun), just something definitely full body robot look to get me through radiotherapy and the like at this time.

I will say, money, I havent worked for 6 months because of this cancer stuff, and seizures, I’ve got at least 2 more months of limited funds, hence the comment about something basic, and no more.

But yes, if anyone wants to put something basic together, or knows someone who can, just for some silly moments between radiotherapy sessions, I’d love it.

OK, video time. A bit of old OMD for you. I’m looking for something more than the standard Tesla Girl look, but nothing excessive, so…

 

Shuffle off to…?

Well, but for events of about 5 months ago, I’d now be thinking about a holiday in the US  next month, teaming up with Kate for a week or so. As to where it would have been, we will never know. At the time, prior to the first seizure, it was safe to say it was down to 2 options, New England, or possibly Oklahoma, for one very obvious reason. Yes, it might strictly be Kate’s home state, but it was someone else that I would have been going there for, also from that state, Clara Johnson! I suspect New England might have won out anyway, but we will never know for sure.

Mind, if someone has his way, I might be retiring to Oklahoma as Clara Johnson! No, I cant afford Los Angeles, which is where I’m certain her life ended, but anyway…But yes, I might (if even possible) retire as Clara Johnson, but somewhere slightly warmer in winter, lol! Someone might suggest Oregon, lol?

Its funny, I was watching a video on You Tube last week, the 50 cheapest cities to retire to in the US, and both the big cities in Oklahoma made the list. Mind, a lot of them were either in the ‘frozen’ north, or in that Deep South area which wouldnt be suitable for an LGBT lady like me! Yes, a reason why they are the cheapest areas, not the loveliest to live in.

The funny thing is, assuming I get cleared to fly to the US is now where my next trip will be? If it is later this year with Kate, a lot of the US, including New England is going to be a ‘bit’ chilly by then (given its not going to be September, and October is doubtful), but whether she will think something through, who knows? Otherwise I think Oregon might be possible, and I might end up a whole new woman, though doubtful that will be a robot one. Oh, I wish! Mind, I’d settle for an AI brain replacement for starters, lol. Now wouldnt that be fun? Even more so if it came complete with young, Clara Johnson body!

In truth, actual holiday plans now are more likely to be next year, but who knows? Getting back to the retirement list, as a link to the video, and to Clara Johnson, one from the frozen north list, Buffalo. I’ve got to be honest, this is one of very few sections of film that I’ve seen her in where she’s not dancing, once the musicals kicked in. Yes, its 42nd Street, she did dance in the film, a lot, but all she gets to do here is a little singing, and to look cute in a rail sleeper carriage, with another girl, little minx! Mind, I did once, a very long time ago shuffle off to Buffalo, but in a car, with my partner at the time. No, we split 20 years ago, and I have no idea where she is, if even still alive, as she was a bit older than me!

 

Rotwang, someone still loves you

Its fair to say that outside of Metropolis, and a certain Queen video (yes, its coming), its fair to say that Rotwang’s moment of fame is probably quite limited. I’m probably one of few who have used him in more than one story in their career, and in a positive way, I’m possibly the only one! But yes, fine, he made the perfect foil for Belinda Nicholson/ Frazier, along with Maria in a way that never happened in the film for sure. Some might say I made him a far more entertaining character than he ever was in the film, for sure. To be fair, I did the same for Maria, but anyway…

Sadly (even if it was truly practical), I’d have to now pass on visiting him in September anyway, let alone be turned into a robot, but for a positive reason. Yes I’ve already got the new date for my MRI, 7th September. I will have to use a modern day taxi (probably) to get to and from the appointment, as the others are away at that point (Linda will be working), and I was never really going to get to see Rotwang anyway, but such is life.

I’ve also got a lovely lady trying to set up the medical to confirm I’m unable to work again too. I know, formality, but it has to be done all the same.

Still, hopefully get all this out of the way, then get turned into a robot, yes, I only wish! Could jokingly get turned into a Stepford Wife, I guess, again I only wish!

So anyway, fingers crossed I can get on with the rest of my retired life after 7th September at least.

OK, yes, the video, as suggested, is the obvious one, so just enjoy, and imagine me in Miss Helm’s place, oh please! And if you want to read about Belinda, and Rotwang, and help a poor author

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/406177

Tearing at that brain of mine

Oh, to those who know about both blogs, these arent the same word for word,  just the same subject, as I only felt it fair all should know. And hey, its a different video too, so stop complaining!

Saturday I had another seizure, thats the reason for the delay between blogs. If you want to call it a system failure (more apt for a robot?) then fine, but more strictly, just another brain malfunction. This time I didnt need to go to hospital at the time, as I came round (sort of) after a short while, but still went up there yesterday,  when semi aware again, just to make sure, but got cleared after checks.

Yes, seriously, my organic body, especially the brain is thoroughly busted, but I live at least. But yes, seriously, if anyone has a robot body they want to test out, oh please…! Sadly it means the MRI (Sunday) and follow up EEG (yesterday) never happened, and will need to be sorted out before someone whisks me off to Oregon regardless (love you, Kiefer) to get me sorted out that way. He knows I’ll do as I’m commanded (as a good robot should) once these tests are done, but anyway…

I know, I keep hoping they will stop, but seemingly not to be. Anyway, I’ve officially given up the thought of getting back to work, only have about a month less of half sick pay, so lets face it, organic repair isnt go to happen in time.

Ironic, isnt is, I wanted something weird to be done to my brain, but this wasnt quiet what I had in mind! Still, its been ‘tampered’ with, so I guess I cant complain too much?

OK, video time. Two golden oldies tonight, and yes, I suspect I wanted to be Polly Brown as a child?

Brainwaves computed, human now ready for robotisation chamber

OK, for those here purely for the serious details, the EEG went fine on Friday, nothing major traced, if anything too boring, I may need to do a sleep deprivation version before the MRI on the 28th, just to see if they can get the brain to give up a few more clues. But yes, this is the ‘weird blog’, you dont want a straightforward description do you? If you do, go to my other blog, its there. So…(reality ends here)

Given that I was volunteering for brain processing, and robotisation, they didnt bother with the boring things like sedation, and restraints, though I wouldn’t have minded if they had! So they did the boring stuff, like attaching the electrodes, and wiring my brain up thoroughly to the system. A couple more electrodes on my shoulders, just to check the nanite progress was satisfactory, then onto the sofa, for the process to begin.

I dont know what voltage they were using on my brain, but in truth, I never felt a thing. Well, maybe a little tingle, but otherwise… Initially I just closed my eyes, laid back, and they started to record, and presumably override my brain waves. After 10-15 minutes of this, we moved on to the next stage, the robotic deep breathing stuff, presumably to prepare my body for the different system I will soon be using for that process.

After that, they started with the flashing light, and the brainwashing stuff, by means of getting me to open, then close my eyes, so that the hypnotic patterns appeared in front of my eyes.

Then that was it. If they have got enough brain data, the next stage will be the robotisation chamber, on the 28th, to complete the process. If not, they’ll call me back, put me to sleep for a couple of hours, and do the full works on me. I’d love that, but I must do as my Masters/Mistresses decide is the best course.

Either way, on 28th, I’ll slide into the chamber, and 30 minutes or so later, out will pop Clara-Bot, totally obedient to every command given to her.

(Reality again)

OK, seriously, yes, the MRI scanner awaits me 3 weeks today, on a Sunday morning. I wouldnt mind in the slightest if Clara-Bot came out, but I wont put good money on it. But should be an interesting experience. I have got to lose earrings that I’ve had in for about 10 years removed before then, that might be fun!

But other than that, I’ll just be glad to get it sorted, and get on with whatever awaits me in life. Mind, if anyone does actually want to turn me into Clara-Bot, before, or after that date, oh please! I might see if I can get into the flotation pod again before then, help me to relax, as I’m told its quite an experience. Oh, and if Donna wants to bring out Clara with some crystal magic, and some spine treatment before that, why not? But I will have to speak with her on that, as I will need transport help to get there.

OK, video time. Kylie Minogue has once or twice given a clue that she might have a robot fetish herself, and this was one of them. I cant imagine Clara having had one, but who knows?

We just need to scan her brain, pre robotisation

OK, if you want the entirely serious, and more informative details of how today went at the hospital, you’ll need to go find the other blog. You’ll get most of the critical details here, with a little bit of tongue in cheek, but other than that… oh, and this has the more amusing video.

Firstly, before we get to the ‘me’ news, I have to post pictures of a couple of outfits related to my dear friend, Angie. The first was one she was wearing at Manchester Airport for a job, the second is from a previous role, which she currently has for sale, and I love

I think I’d rather do the rabbit, but both would be fun.

Right, to the more serious stuff, hospital visit. My epilepsy medications have been doubled, in an attempt to stop the seizures. I was on the lowest level, so probably not a bad move. One week of transition at an intermediate level, then double level from there on. I’ve also been put on appointment lists for both EEG, and MRI scans in near future, so my brain will be ‘tampered with’ a bit at least. Hopefully just to see if my brain is suitable for full robot upgrade, but I suspect that is just wishful thinking? So it will be about 4 weeks or so before I know exactly what it is, and whether I can get approval to fly to US, and stuff. But if its ‘just’ epilepsy, that would be fine.

As for fitting for the fully interfacing, tight fitting robot bodysuit, I guess I might have to wait a while, but a woman can only hope! Mind, if anyone has one, for which they need wearer research? 😉 But fine, I cant wait too have my brain scanned, even if it isnt for anything robotic. But yes, its something pretty serious, so…

OK, the video. All this talk of robots screams Kraftwerk, right? Well, its sort of… No, seriously, its a British comic genius named Bill Bailey, along with a few friends, and an amusing tribute to said band

Oh what a lady, what an act

To be fair, this was written as a tribute to me, so it was going to play on my love of acting, and of my love of robots, but to say this is an acting troupe I wouldnt mind being part of, would be a major understatement!

https://mcstories.com/PerformanceUpgrade/index.html

Its short (under 2000 words), so though I’m not going to say you have to go and read it, why not?

But yes, lets admit it, even if I was in a position to be able to leave this acting troupe, why would I want to do so? Yes, oh to sit in that chair, be turned into the perfect robot actress, oh heaven! Would never have the worry of forgetting my lines ever again too! And thats after that amazing transformation process too. And fine, if the Professor insisted on my showing my gratitude in that manner, why would I ever want to refuse? Oh fine, programmed robot and all that, but besides that…

Oh please, double dream in one! So, if anyone is looking for an actress, to turn into a robot, I’m most definitely free.

Sadly, that transformation didnt happen in December 1963 (I would only have been 5 at time), but December 2019, oh please, if not sooner.