Trying to be practical

In truth, I was already beginning to suspect that given the state of my body at present (yes, still open to all offers of a cybernetically enhanced body, ideally in chrome), trying to do a 5 day week at work wasnt doing me any good. First sign was last Monday, when basically the body hadnt recovered from 4 working days in a row, by Monday morning, even with painkillers and stuff, and so it proved, I didnt get through the day, or more correctly my back didnt! I somehow managed to make it far enough through the day to get to halfway, so it didnt count as a sick day, but even that was hard work! Of course that gave me a day and a bit to recover, so I got through Wednesday fine, and Thursday OK, but then came Friday, and…

Yes, the body was sore, and tender, but I got into work, and managed to stay there, at least. But yes, it was a struggle. So anyway, trying to be practical as to my capabilities, I decided to do justice to work, and to myself, something had to give. So yes, I’ve asked if I can cut back to 4 days a week for now, hopefully only until the bone density scans are done, the results are known, and the medication kicks in. But given the former is still nearly 4 weeks away, and it will be about 3 weeks after that before the results are known, and I can be given something to hopefully cure the issue, its going to be a while before that happens, and the body just cant cope with that at the moment.

Yes, I can afford it for a short period of time (I’m guessing about 10-12 weeks), and could even afford it full time, if I cut back on my holiday trips to US! Yes, I know, ouch, but one 10 day trip would be cheaper than 2 single week trips, because of one less set of flights. Yes, a 14 night stay would still be cheaper, but there are very few places where I believe I could have enough to keep me amused for a fortnight!

Seattle could, San Francisco could, and I suspect Chicago, or Washington probably could. But some of the smaller cities I want to go back to, nope! 7 days would be fine, 10 maybe, but after that…? But yes, I’m hoping I can get back to a normal regime in a few months, but at the same time, I’m not getting younger, and my back isnt my only issue, so…?

My plan is to work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday, which gives me the other 3 days off. Yes, I know, 2 days in a row, but I can seemingly cope with that, but no more. But yes, its me, I’d rather do a work routine I can manage, for less money, than let my firm down, by pretending I can do a 5 day week. Just waiting for confirmation of approval now.

So there it is, unless someone wants to provide me with a nice, new strengthened body…? 😉

Video time, what my body needs in terms of support. Martin Cooper might be handy, but given he has back issues himself…So no, thinking more of that back brace that needs to be ordered lol!

I will take all the memories home with me

So this is it, the last blog from LA for a considerable period of time at least, if ever again. I know, I could come back again, and may even need to come back again sooner than that, but being practical, I have many other places to see, some for the first time, some for repeat visits, so its going to be a while, if ever again. And yes, at my age, with the distance involved, and I’m sure the deterioration of my physical health, which is far from perfect even now, I’m sure I wont be able to do as much then, as I can now, anyway. I’m already suspecting that delights like walking up the long hill at Forest Lawn might be beyond me by then at least, but we will see.

To be fair, if you’d told me back in October ’15, that my next holiday would be back here, I would have laughed at you, but its happened. I guess I just wanted to show this city that I’d battled through everything that life had thrown at me, and got here again. But now thats done…?

In some ways today has been a light day, I havent actually left Hollywood. However, I spent a lot of the day on my feet, walking, so maybe not as light as all that? It was actually interesting going on a guided walking tour of Hollywood, where I knew the guide! I know, end of holiday, but in truth, it didnt matter, as I got to visit lots of old buildings that I’d never have got into myself. Oh fine, the one that amused me the most, has to be Musso and Frank’s! Yes, I finally got to go in there, if only for coffee, but at least I now know what it actually looks like from the inside. Of course, for works of fiction, thats a mere technicality, but at least I’ve made it there now. Yes, its every bit as impressive as I’d been led to believe. So if I ever want to use it in a story again lol…?

The other thing I’d already decided was where my last big meal in town would be, and though its not bargain basement, its cheaper than that legendary place. So I settled for the 50’s feel of Mels Diner, for one last time. After that, a couple of final, final goodbyes, at the star, and prints of Jean Harlow, before heading back to base. I do wish there was a star to the uncredited chorus girls/bit part actresses of the world, but no, there isnt, so I just said goodbye to Clara Johnson generally, as I turned off the Boulevard for the last time, on foot at least.

What can I say? You can take a woman out of Yorkshire, but you cant take Yorkshire out of a woman? Yes, I stopped off at a gorgeous, quirky, vintage clothing store on the way back, and saw the most gorgeous, silver flapper dress, really looked the part. Had my size too, but I didnt get it. Why? Because I cant justify spending $65 (plus tax, I’m sure) on a dress I have no idea when, or where I would ever wear it. So yes, I know I’ll regret it, but it stayed in the shop. I could get it in the morning (shop opens at 11, I have to be ready to go at 12.30, and its about 5 minutes walk), but I know I wont.

The only walk I’m planning at present to do in the morning, is a short trip around the block, so that I can walk a little way up Beachwood Drive, looking at the Hollywood sign, one more time. No, I’m not going as far as Verbena though, thats far too far for the short period of time I have left ‘in the sun’ of LA.

Yes, thats it for here. Pretty sure you’ll have to wait until Monday for the next blog, I’ll have too much catching up to do on Sunday for that.

The video. I’m surprised I havent used this Elaine Paige classic before, but seemingly I havent (well, on 1 blog at least), so lets use it now

Tell me that you’ll wait for me

I would add, “Babe, I hate to have to go.”, but I’d be lying, badly! Yes, to add to the corniness of all this, and give away the song in tonights video, then yes, tomorrow, I will be leaving on a jet plane.

And yes, after 19 months without flying anywhere, I’m returning to the same area that I flew back from, all that time ago. In fact, I’ll be staying in an apartment less than a mile from where I stayed last time! I only wish that place on Verbena Drive was still available, but the place I’ve got looks as good, for sure, and maybe even a little larger?

I know, I really must go somewhere other than Hollywood sometime soon, and in fact, in September, I will, heading for New England, New York State and that area. Thats going to be fun, not only going to a wedding, but being a bridesmaid for the first time in my long life! Yes, cant wait! And no, even if I do catch the bouquet, I doubt anyone would be crazy enough to want to marry me lol!

I know I said it last time I was there, and I probably did just over 2 years ago, when I was there before that, that I suspect this will be my last trip to LA for a long while, unless a miracle happens. And hey, this isnt the Golden Age of Hollywood, when women were plucked off the streets, and into the movies, lets face it. So yes, I’m pretty sure, unless…?

I’m not saying I will never be back again, I suspect that just before my ancient old body tells me that I can no longer travel that far, that I will do one last trip to that crazy town. Of course, in the interim, something could happen to me, and I wont get back. But yes, that would be the plan, at least. But fine, just in case, I have a few places to visit this trip, and say goodbye, just in case. There is one place I’d love to go, if only I knew where ‘she’ was buried. Regular readers will know who ‘she’ is, and if you dont, look back a couple of blogs to a very big clue!

The thing that worries me in a sense tomorrow, is the length of the flight, nearly 11 hours! Yes, its lovely getting a direct flight, but I’m certain its the longest flight I’ve ever done, though whether London to Seattle direct, 14 years ago, was just under 10 hours, or more, no idea? Just hope the joints havent seized up too much by the time I get to LA!

Right, I’m not expecting a kiss, but if you want to smile for me, feel free. Regardless, tomorrow I’ll be leaving on a jet plane, though I do know when I’ll be back again. Until then, for those who read both blogs, they are very likely to be exactly the same, just saying…

Gimme, gimme, gimme, a different apartment to stay in

So yes, firstly to confirm, I do have somewhere to stay in Hollywood, its just not where I expected it to be! Landlord greed, which backfired on him badly. What would you rather have, £747 for a booking 4 months in advance, or nothing because seeing someone wanted to book your place, you hike up your rates 15%!

For those who dont know, when you try to book somewhere on Airbnb, you end up having to request the apartment, and it gives the landlord 24 hours to accept, or reject, or whatever. So yes, given I’d been told which place to book, and that he’d love to have me stay, I thought this would be a formality, but wrong. He just ignored it for the 24 hours, much to my surprise. Until…

Before I went looking elsewhere, under the circumstances, I sent a line to check why he hadnt taken the booking. Back came a reply saying that seeing he was starting to get interest, he wanted to raise the prices slightly. Fine, it was near the top of the range where the apartment option was only slightly cheaper than the budget hotel, but fair enough. A couple of days later, I checked again, to find out the price had gone up by 15%! Despite a request to let me know when he’d done it, I’d heard nothing! So funnily enough, I’ve gone elsewhere! I know, in town, he’ll probably get others who will pay the new rate, but seriously…!

In a matter of irony, I went and looked again. Now, whether this was down before because of a request, or whether he’d taken it down while he did something with his ad, or whether I had just been blonde, but who knows? OK, it doesnt look quite as nice as the other one, but it looks fine, its in an area I know (Just slightly further down towards town in Hollywood Hills area, and quite a bit cheaper! So yes, I applied, got accepted, and am now sorted! The other guy, well fine, serve him right if no one books it, but I doubt that will happen!

Now all I need to sort out, nearer the time, is my ESTA clearance, my travel insurance, and my shuttle. And then, California, here I come!

The video, some live Abba, for which the clue is in the blog title! Mind, if Mike Pence wants to arrange me some ECT as gay conversion therapy, purely for past book research, then maybe I might need a man after midnight too lol! I know, I’m bi, but I’m flexible, if he’s fussy…removes tongue from cheek!

Coming home soon, to make me a star?

Right, firstly, word of warning, its back to normal for the foreseeable future with blogs from now on, so back to twice a week, and all that. At least it gives me a bit more opportunity to use up material at a sane rate, I guess?

Well, I think I’ve resolved my first issue of 2017, my present to myself. Yes, the Hollywood trip is booked, I think. Flight is definitely booked, accommodation, I’ve made my choice, and requested it, but still waiting for confirmation on that. Yes, I’m waiting because I’ve gone for the apartment option, so waiting for that approval email at present. Given I sent a question to the guy, and he answered it, I’m assuming I’m not going to have any issues getting it, but until I get that confirmation, well…?

About one long block from Hollywood Boulevard (near Highland), and it looks fine, and I’m told there is somewhere nearby for provisions, so gone for it. So yes, for 10 days at least, a Hollywood resident again!

Make me a star? No, somehow I have my doubts, but who knows? I will go there with an open mind, and should the chance occur, then yes, I’ll take it. I’ll certainly plan to visit that agency this time around, arrange that appointment a lot further in advance than last time. But no, I wont rush to apply for the working visa just yet lol! Mind, if someone wants to tell me that I should? 😉

Probably only coincidence, but I was watching a documentary of the life of an actress, who won a competition, and became a famous actress because of it, Clara Bow. No, I’m not winning any competition, but if I could start with a small part, then…? Fine, I’m not 16, and its not that Hollywood Era, so… pretty sure I’ll be coming back!

The video, a clue in the title I guess?

2017, some things will, some things wont (probably)!

Yes, I’ve looked back at 2016, which was a pretty unexceptional year, in so many senses, but now, as that year comes to an end, its time to look forward at what 2017 might hold.

The three things, everything permitting, that will happen, are passing probation at the end of February in my new job, returning to Hollywood in May, and returning to New England in September. Passing probation, providing I keep my nose clean, and do my job, all should be fine. Hollywood, well, I will visit that modelling/acting agency this time around, though in my heart, at my age, and having not done a lot in a while, no great expectations. But who knows? Beyond that, meet up again with some old friends, hopefully meet a few new ones, and just see where life takes me. One person I’d love to meet while there? Well, assuming Jean Harlow’s ghost isnt for real, it would have to be Vin Scully. Yes, I have no chance of meeting either lol!

New England, will be nice to go back, and see Kate again, after a couple of years, and again hopefully meet a couple of new people I’ve talked to online as well. The other person I’m hoping to meet is the hypnotist who ‘discovered’ Clara Johnson, and get her to give up a lot more secrets about herself. Unfortunately, as I suspect she’s probably buried in LA, is that if I do discover where she rests, it will be too late to take action on it, but all the same…will be nice to know! Given I’m planning on this trip to LA being the last one for a while, as it will be 3 visits in a row on US trips, I might get back there some day, assuming the body, and health holds up, but…

Talking of which, as I approach my 59th Birthday in March, my body, most critically, my knees! I have a horrible feeling that my right knee joint is just about gone, its what 50 years or so of little, or no cartilage in the joint will do for it. And fine, the left knee isnt a whole lot better. So I’m suspecting that come the Autumn, I might have to give in, and put myself in the hands of a surgeon, but I’m not looking forward to it. I dont like pain, I dont like incapacity, so all in all, I probably dont make a good patient. But fine, I’ve got to that point where putting it off much longer isnt going to happen.

What I’d love to happen, but I’m 99.9% certain wont, but a girl can dream. Yes, the arrival of a flying saucer/ space craft I can jet about in, would be handy. Equally, the arrival of a fully functional robot suit, or enveloping alien suit would be nice, but none of those are really likely to happen. Equally unlikely to happen, I’m sure, is finding a partner who is prepared to love me, or a Master/Mistress who fancies dominating me! But yes, for 365 days, I can hope!

OK, video time. Totally out of left field, other than that the lady concerned has recently joined the flood of people who have died this year. One of those songs I probably shouldnt love, but secretly do.

Have I the right?

No, I’m not demanding too much, just the right to survive until 2017! Seriously, 2016 seems to have been a terrible year for famous people dying, but I’m sure that if you were to look back at previous years, the numbers really arent that much more significant than before, or even more of the same. The facts are though, that through social media, we have more people grieving in public nowadays than before, and also, just maybe its more noticeable for people of my age, because its my generation that is starting to die off at this rate.

Yes, I havent had as wild a life as some of these celebrities, nor the stress of fame they have to put up with, but yes, I still suspect that maybe my time is a bit more limited than would be ideal. Fine, there are times when I might be glad when it is all over, but for now at least, I have a few things I’d like to do, and a few places I’d like to see, but if my time is nearly up, not a lot I can do!

I’m not going to mention a whole list of names, because someone will object to someone I name, or someone I leave out, so…Oh fine, I’m going to mention Carrie Fisher, not because of Star Wars, but because she was one of few famous people prepared to come out and admit to having ECT treatments, and doing so in a positive way. Yes, she admits there are issues, but at the same time, she calls it a positive thing. Yes, I know, my book was my own humble attempt to get people to think about it, though judging by sales, success was limited. Oh fine, part of me definitely regrets not being able to do personal research on the matter, though equally, maybe a little less than standard might have been wise, but I guess its not going to happen now, regardless. Yes, part of me says shame to that!

Beyond all that, 2016 has been a funny year for me. First year in a long time that I havent left the UK, even longer since I havent even left England. I believe the former is 1995, the latter is 1967, or 1968! Yes, I know, I’ll try and make up for it next year. More of that on Saturday, when I do the forward looking stuff.

The other big event this year was the marvelous moment when I got offered a job, after about 15 months of trying. The biggest irony was being offered a short term job the day before that, but in truth, it was no contest as to which one I took. Yes, I definitely did the right thing, has to be said, and its going to take quite an offer to get me to move on from here, willingly.

Fine, if I get offered a nice acting run in a theater, or in a movie, or more jokingly (I think?) someone offers to turn me into a robot type being, then I might reconsider, but otherwise… Yes, I wish on the latter, but hardly likely to happen, shame! Or someone will crazily fall in love with me, or wish to turn me into their submissive… Oh fine, the robot concept is as likely!

Yes, fine, can somebody give me the right to live, and work in the US for a while, if not longer, pretty please!

The video, an absolute golden oldie, but I wanted to use it, so…