Where’s your hearing gone?

Its funny, when I decided to go with a wig look, for my hair, I quickly realised that 7 months of hair growth had to go pretty quickly, and did so. Snag is, as I have now discovered, its not the only physical issue that I hadnt noticed that is now giving me issues. But yes, this one is a bit more gruesome, or at least dirty at least, my ears. No, I havent cleaned them out since well, before all this started, and to say my hearing quality is down, is to put it mildly. Snag is, at the moment my physical state is hardly in a way to do much about it, but unlike a haircut, not so easy to get someone to deal with for me. But hopefully…?

As for the rest of the health stuff today, it all seems to have gone fine, first session of radiotherapy down, only another 29 to go, lol. It all seemed fine, though whether I will stick it through to my normal bedtime tonight, who knows, I might just be beginning to feel it, in which case it will be an early night for sure, I’m sensible enough to do that at least. It felt fine at the time, though a metal mask might have been more fun than a plastic one, I only realised the session was over when they started to remove the mask from me! As for a metal bodysuit, oh please… Back tomorrow, and got another meeting too, this time with a wig department, so must remember to take the letter with me to show I’m on benefits, so will get it for free. Yes, I plan to have the blonde bob option again, though ironically the one look I havent tried yet of the ones I bought is the red bob! Tomorrow, maybe, to the hospital, sounds an idea? Or maybe I should go back to my teen years, do a ‘Sally Carr’ as per the video, and go for a longer blonde style with the NHS wig, hmm? Not that I can sing now, as voice is even more gone than the hearing at present!

But seriously, my one issue with all these treatments is my sweet tooth one. Like today, given that I’m not allowed to eat in the 4 hours prior to the treatment, I was screaming for coffee, and cake after it was over, and had to have my fix, snag is, 30 times of that isnt going to be cheap, lol. And on those mornings with early appointments, even more of an issue I suspect?

And no, neither Lon Chaney, or Rotwang were treating me today, sadly.

OK, the video. Some might have worked out its Middle Of The Road, from a previous comment, and yes, Sally is definitely miming. In fact, in truth, I dont think I’ve ever seen a video of her actually singing, as opposed to miming. But anyway… And yes, I’d love that dress

 

 

 

 

 

Even more of a medicine head

Well, recently I’ve been taking 7 pills for various issues for a while, but from tomorrow onwards for a while, that number is going up, as I have to take the chemotherapy pill daily, and a few others as well, to combat any possible nausea issues, as well as antibiotics to keep me healthy, as everything I will need to take for next 6 weeks will lower my ability to resist various illnesses and stuff, because it will all be affected by the radiotherapy, and chemo stuff.

Yes, why they cant just give me the full robot makeover, I know…Oh, I wish! I dont know how much more hair I can lose, given I got most of it chopped off so the wigs work better, but maybe my hair will see that as a challenge, but other than that…

It has been suggested that I should do at least 1 session (I suspect some think I should do all 30) wearing the silver Lycra bodysuit, and the silver wig, and I suspect it will happen on a day when I have time to plan it out, and no other appointments, which means you can accept its not going to happen before Thursday this week, as see above, due to 2 appointments, and a very early start. Sadly the chances of getting a full face metal mask to match is less than slim.

Hopefully, if nothing else, I can come up with something apt blog wise for Halloween, though if I dont, dont sue me, as its a lunchtime radiotherapy session that day, so how things will work out time wise, I really have no idea. I have no plans to dress up anyway, though I now have my Christmas Day outfit on the settee besides me, as it arrived earlier today, thanks to Amazon Prime, the last day I will have that service available to me. Beyond Eric’s birthday (4 weeks today) present, I dont know of anything I need to buy soon, as anything for Christmas presents (definitely online buying this year) can wait until after all the treatments end on 6th December, and I start my 4 week recovery period. Not that many to get thankfully, but the few I do need to get, well…

Oh Father Christmas, a full body robot suit, ideally quite solid in design, oh please, lol. No, wont happen, but a woman can dream!

Right, video time. Unless you are about my age, or older, you arent likely to remember this, but anyway. Yes, its mimed, as you cant hear all the clapping because its all on a tape, but never mind…

Mustn’t stop believing

I have jokingly said to my followers on Social Media that by the end of the next 6 weeks, they might all be sick of this song, or maybe not for various reasons. Hopefully I wont need it too often, and even if I do, hopefully I find enough different versions of it not to drive everyone crazy anyway. Sadly, or luckily for you, I doubt very much I can find any version of me singing this, either at Dodgers Stadium, or other baseball stadiums (Kansas City, and San Francisco for sure) for which you should be grateful, as I’m not really that good a singer, but anyway…

Yes, I love this song, and I suspect I might need it over the next 6 weeks if things get to me with all the radiotherapy and stuff. But equally, if they provide me with a metal face mask instead of the plastic one, and I’m a ‘naughty’ girl, and wear a silver Lycra bodysuit under the clothing for a session or more, I might actually love the whole experience, but we will see?

The one thing that is for sure is the fact I need to learn to listen to the needs of my body, even if logic says otherwise. Like today, I didnt think I should be that worn out, but it seems I was, as 2 hours of sleep this afternoon did wonders for me, even if neither yesterday, or this morning had seemed that hard a period, but fine, my body was right, or I wouldnt be typing this now, lol.

Will there be blogs tomorrow? No idea, I’ll see how the mood takes me, but probably, as I’m not sure how many will appear over the next 6 weeks, as even allowing for weekends, this issue of weariness is going to play into things, clearly. No, I wont be dressing for Halloween, but as I’ve just ordered something to wear at Christmas, which is due tomorrow, on my last day of Amazon Prime free trial period (not paying for more), looks like I will be dressing up then, though I’m sure hair will be a wig, but as to colour, and style, we will have to wait and see!

In truth, I have no idea how the next 6 weeks will affect me, just got to get through it, and find out, I guess? I do know I’ll have seen more than enough of Leeds by then, for sure, lol. But equally I know I’m very lucky. Not that many decades ago, this sort of cancer would have been a death sentence, but now, far less so, maybe not at all. I’d love to think that if I needed it, I might be able to get the Metropolis treatment, but only in my dreams, I’m sure.

Right, the video. Yes, tonight the original group version live, but maybe in the future…?

Are we happy? Are we scared?

Or a mixture of both, maybe?

Well, today saw the first of a planned 32 visits to St James Hospital in Leeds over the next 7 weeks, so… Today was actually one of the more straightforward ones, Thursday will probably be even more so, but then we get to the 30 more serious ones, involving radiotherapy, chemotherapy tablets and everything else involved in getting me better, in the long run at least.

And yes, apart from overtaxing the voice/mouth a bit too much by talking too much to various people, it was indeed pretty straightforward. The letter I needed for work, sorted. All the paperwork I thought I might have to do to get all the benefits I need/am entitled to, someone far more knowledgeable of such matters will be dealing with for me. The knowledge confirmed that said mouth issue is probably related to the issue with the growth on my temporal lobe, most of which is now gone, gained.

So yes, now I can start to focus on events starting on Monday, and stop worrying about everything else, thank goodness. And yes, I will be happy to get started with that, I must admit. Am I scared about said events? At the moment the answer would be no, but ask me again next week, lol. Though I was told today that I’m more likely to get tired out by stuff as the 6 weeks go on, rather than in the early stages. There is the possibility of staying over in Leeds for up to 4 nights a week if it does, but I rather gather they work on ‘does she need it’ option, rather than pushing it on me early, which seems the wisest route to go down. As much for all the travel I will be doing, as well as the treatments, but we will see.

But yes, I have to admit it, if you’d told me 2 months ago that I’d be where I am now, whether I would have believed you, who knows? But we are, so…

I have one more trip to Leeds before Monday, on Thursday for the ‘meet the team, and I gather one of the radiotherapy machines (non working)’ but then down to business! The one thing I’m sure of, is that after these 7 weeks, anyone offering to drive me to Leeds will not be met with the most enthusiastic response, lol, for a few months at least! So yes, tomorrow, no travel, and same on Friday, but after that, for 6 weeks, on weekdays at least, that trip to Leeds could become very familiar! Beneficial, but boring, lol.

After that, 4 – 6 weeks of not overdoing it, then lets see how I feel? I have been told I need some short term targets to get me through the treatments, and I already have 2. One is the obvious Christmas/New Year holiday period, and the other, before then, the works Christmas dinner (yes, Medical retirement is coming soon, but not official yet, so…) the first week after treatments should end, so… Fine, we shall see after those, lol!

Oh, Thursday. Well yes, I might be considering wearing the silver wig, and silver Lycra bodysuit under clothing, but we will see how I feel then, lol!

OK, the video. Well the blog title is mentioned in the song, and the song title might be what I need someone to say to me at some point, but other than that, this video is pretty crazy, I guess?

Talking about a bad girl

One of the things I guess I’ve developed from my ‘dice with death’ cancer moment is the fact that I’ve decided I might as well have a bit more fun with my life, which is probably shown by yesterday’s picture, with the silver wig, silver bodysuit, and everything else. Yes, the temptation to wear the silver look on Thursday for the ‘medical team meeting’ on Thursday is definitely growing, even if the bodysuit will have to be under standard clothing, and the wig will only be worn for the actual team thing, not the whole visit, but anyway…

And certainly, due to a few politicians, and other people, my tendency to put up with idiots levels have gone down too. In this case, a spammer, as no, I doubt I’d have the cheek to actually do it to a politician, but dont call me out on that, lol.

So this morning, when I opened my email box, I had one of those emails, supposedly from a guy named Magnus in Sweden, offering me a half share of $6.2Million if I helped him with his ‘project’. Thing is, it came from a guy named Juvencio, with a Brazilian email address, so… Now normally in the past, with me, this would have been instantly deleted, and taken no further, but in my current mood, and because he’s made such an awful job of covering up who he really was, well, I decided 2 could play at that game, so I sent back a reply, though not the one he was hoping for, but this one…

Dear Juvencio,

My name is Dominatrix Queen of Pluto, writing to you from my home planet. I have a vacancy in my dungeon for a human slave or two from planet Earth, in need of severe punishment, and you sound an ideal candidate. I certainly trust your pussy eating skills are up to my demands, if not, I suggest you learn soon. In the meanwhile, send me promptly a silver latex catsuit as a tribute, size 16 UK. When you inform me this has been purchased, I will provide the address to send it to, where my teleporting unit is stored.

Given you might find Pluto a little chilly for your feeble human body, and I am capable of teleporting my dungeon to a suitable building on your feeble planet, I suggest you use some of that money on the purchase of a mansion in the area known as Hollywood, in Los Angeles, and let me know when you have completed this task, by sending me a set of pictures of my new Earth home.

I demand to hear that you have completed my demands within the next 30 days.

Your new powerful Dominatrix,

H, though I advise you to call me Mistress H

No, I’m not expecting a reply of course, but the thought of him seeing an email in his box when he got up this morning, thinking he had scammed someone, and then opened it, giggle… Of course, if you find in the future a blog written by me, from Hollywood, while wearing a silver latex catsuit, well…

OK, video. Well, I guess sending an email to someone, even a very poor scammer would make me a bad girl, so why not this one? Yes, I’d love that purple outfit Donna Summer is wearing, of course I would. So…?

 

Part of the robot union

(To say, for those who do both blogs, this is pretty similar to the other one, though not identical. To those who dont, just read on)

Given that I’m going to lose some/most/all of my hair soon, when the radiotherapy begins, I decided to beat the process, by getting most of my hair removed now, and going over to wigs. Yes, I couldnt resist one cheap silver bob wig, and match it up to a silver Lycra bodysuit I have, which is now about 15 years old for a robot moment, or six. Sadly the zip hasnt lasted the years, so I needed a top to keep warm, especially for a picture taken outside today. This one in fact!

robot me

Yes, its a cheap wig, so not the perfect look, but it works pretty well, anyway. To be honest, the suit is very comfortable, and supporting, so if anyone wants to sponsor me for some more (6 weeks of treatment, plus travel time isnt going to leave much laundry time, so up to 30), email me at stephmajor8@hotmail.com for details of how to do so. I need to get in UK, as radiotherapy starts on 28th, and machine isnt comfortable on a damaged spine, but anyway…

Yes, shot in our front area, though thats not our house behind me.

Next week marks the last week for 6 that I will have less than 5 days travelling to Leeds, though going there twice, which at 15-20 miles each way means I wont want to travel to Leeds for a while once this is all over, lol. Dressing up as part of the robot union, a whole different matter.

Which leads to the video

 

 

 

Das Robotermodell

That will probably get a few dashing to Google Translate, or whichever Translate engine you wish, though seriously, its not that hard to work out, is it?

Given that you cant wear anything metal within a MRI scanner, even zips, I’ve started to try and work out what I can actually wear for the scan, as my slacks all tended to have a buckle on them, even if the slacks are elasticated waists. Most of my skirts have got a metal zip on them too. So I’m sort of coming down to a summer dress, or one of my strapless ones to get over the issue.

But I must admit, the one amusing idea that has crossed my mind, though I suspect its now too late to get one, would be to have it done wearing a silver spandex bodysuit, including ideally a hood. Seriously, can you imagine the fit of giggles I could have, sliding into the MRI chamber wearing that? Even if I had to do it, under a summer dress, for sake of demureness? As I say, not sure I could even get one in time, especially given we’ve now hit the weekend, though that seems to count for less, nowadays. I have actually got the old one (no hood), which if I wore it under said dress, well…? Yes, I have got a hood, but I believe its glittery, so no go, sadly.

I suppose its struck me that said MRI chamber is about as close as I’m likely to get to a robot processing moment in my life now, lets face it. No, I probably wont, but I’m not saying I wont, especially with a full body suit, including hood, could I resist, probably not? What me, strip down to the spandex suit only, before getting in the chamber, well…? I suspect the zip on the commercial ones are probably metal, anyway. And no, I’m not going to find a velcro seal one, in a week, am I?

Right, the video. Kraftwerk, and the vocals are definitely live, though pretty sure the music isnt. Oh, and the German version of the song too, as the blog title might have given away

Put a controlling collar on her?

OK, before any feminists have a hissy fit, the same effect would work with men, and I’m only suggesting the idea for submissive women who would enjoy it, like me, so hush, OK?

On one of the Mind Control Forums I inhabit, as a writer, and reviewer of such stories, we also have one board for those who sell their wares, both in a written sense, and in a movie sense. In truth, even if I wasnt far too old (30-40 years or so), given that most involve the ladies wearing very little clothing (or less), I’m not sure I would feel like doing that thing, even if I got the chance. I enjoy performing, dont get me wrong, but I havent (or ever had) the body to do that sort of stuff anyway. Though I suppose being hypnotised to do that sort of stuff might be fine. Yes, you cant do what you dont want to under hypnosis, other than in fiction, but anyway…

What someone suggested as an idea, was a hypno-collar, worn by a woman (hey, most sales are to men), and I said that would be a fun idea, if done for real. So he asked me if I would, if it was for real, and of course I said yes, darlings! Oh please, no contest! I did comment I would prefer a more technological form of control, but if all that was on offer was a collar that controlled me by hypnosis, of course I’d wear it! If it did its job, I’m sure I’d be like a robot anyway! No, I havent been back yet to see if he’s willing to provide me with one, for real, lol.

But yes, guilty, controlled by a collar I was wearing, or by a headset, I’d love it! Even more so if it came with a metallic silver bodysuit! I know, I’m weird, but I’d love it, for sure, released eventually, or not! 😉

Right, just to let you know, as I will be doing on the other blog too. I’m off the next week (20th is next day I’m working), and with Blackpool, schedule might get a bit erratic during that period. You might get more (if events need it), or, at the end of the week, you might miss out on them too. But tomorrow, and maybe the next 2 days, you suggest suitable material, I’ll write about it, with the obvious exclusion of UK related politics at least! No, I dont expect any suggestions, but…?

OK, video time. You know those songs you shouldnt love, but do? Yes, this is definitely one for me, only amazed I havent used it previously. Oh, those glittery silver dresses, in an adult woman size, pretty please…

Dreaming in your sleep

Fine, I’ll also post this picture here, because Betsy would never forgive me if I didnt give her the chance to comment on this as the perfect bed for me. Due thanks again to Stacie (used on other blog) for putting this image on my timeline, and inspiring me.

silver bedroom

Yes, regardless of how much this would make the perfect room for a robot (and I’d love it, or a whole apartment similarly styled), the thing here tonight, is the bed. Yes, I really should have a new one (you dont want to know how old mine is!), but I cant afford one, especially one like that, and besides which, the challenge of getting it upstairs, and my old one down again, doesnt bare thinking about!

Oh, and if anyone is feeling generous, I really only need a single robot bed, believe me! And how could I sleep in that in anything less than a metallic silver bodysuit, lol? So I might need at least a couple of them as well… 😉

Anyway, for whatever reason known to itself, this bed, and said bodysuit, with me in it, featured in my dreams overnight. Sadly, as far as I can tell, I was only doing the robot look, not an actual robot, but it amused me, when I woke up (bathroom call) shortly after, and ‘clicked’ as I got out of bed. Sadly that was down to damaged joints, and not a robotic body, I can only wish!

I wonder what it would be like to sleep in a bed like that? It looks quite slippery (in the sense of movement momentum), even more so if you’re in a matching metallic bodysuit, but fine, I’d love to find out, if anyone wants to let me try…? Or if you just want to buy me a metallic silver bodysuit for my birthday next week? 😉 Or that bed…? Doubt that, but the bodysuit would be cheaper!

Yes, I have some weird dreams, dont I?

OK, video time. I did think Crystal Gayle, but then I found this, and lets face it, the women seem more under the influence of mind control, or are robot/mannequins in this, so lets go with this instead

Working in the tech race?

Back when I was job hunting, one of the places I signed up to, was something called LinkedIn. Supposedly a good place to get yourself known to potential employers, and maybe it is for US folk, but the percentage of British people on there, is pretty minimal. Anyway, regardless, it played no part in me ever finding an interview, or potential job, but for some reason, unlike the employment agencies, I never dropped it once I was back in work.

One thing that happens from them, every Tuesday, is what I guess you could call the employment industry equivalent of the news headlines, and I still get all those emails. In truth, over the years, I’ve read numerous interesting articles because of this decision, and even made some comments over the years as well, which have got my profile looked at by numerous US folk, but obviously, no job offers! Too many immigration issues to offer an English woman a job, lol!

The obvious issue that seems to be coming up more of late, is that of AI taking the jobs of workers. Not so awful for those of us 5 years (or more likely less, given state of my spine) from retirement, but for the young workers of today, a pretty major issue. I’m not quite sure how AI, and robotics could do my job at present, too many decisions that have to be made, depending on the nature of the call, but I’m sure it will come in time. In truth, if some computer system can do my job, let me retire gracefully on disability issues, I’d be thrilled. But yes, I’m 61 next month, not 21, so a lot less to lose!

Oh fine, equally, if someone wants to come up with an AI interfacing body suit, ideally in metallic silver, that just needs my mind to make it function, but cuts out all my physical pains, then bring it on, I’ll wear it with pleasure. Fine, as a robot fetishist, I’d love it even more, but in truth, the lack of pain issue would sell it to me, regardless. So, if anyone has one of those, that they just need a willing human guinea pig to be fully interfaced with, contact me urgently, please! Even more so if it can turn me into a brilliant dancer in 4 weeks time, lol, though open to all offers now.

No, I wont expect to get crushed in the rush of offers, lol! I only wish I would!

OK, video time. One of the lesser known hits from the Specials, from the 80’s, hope you enjoy.