Its only make believe?

One thing I not so secretly enjoy, that Eric loves are the driver view train journeys of numerous long distance trips. Tonight, I was so enjoying the journey from Brussels to St Pancras that I got him to leave it on when he went upstairs to his room. There is a lot more on the reasons for that on the other blog, for those who know about it, lol.

But thinking things through, wouldnt it be fun for someone more into lines sadly no longer with us, wouldnt it be interesting if it was possibly to make a virtual video of some of the more scenic lines that are no longer with us? I mean, seriously, if someone offered me a video of a journey of the Princetown branch, I’d probably bite their hand off! As for the Shropshire and Montgomery line, or the Bishops Castle one, name your price, seriously! But fine, given the last 2 closed in the 1930’s, not going to happen!

The best I can do, is next week, see the site now of Fenay Bridge and Lepton station, which closed to passengers in 1930, and is now known as Station Court, yes, a housing area. Looking forward to it, but a virtual journey on the Kirkburton branch, wouldnt that be fascinating?

Yes, I know, no health issues, mainly because I will know a lot more about future plans for me after tomorrow, when I have the end of treatment meeting, so keep your eyes open for that information.

OK, video time. Huge hint in the title of the blog, lol. This is the Glen Campbell version, though there are numerous famous ones to choose from

Who me, a pilgrim girl? Dont remember being one, but…?

Let me add that the ‘again’ in the title of the blog is only technical, as I never remember playing a pilgrim girl in any of my acting parts, and refers more to the video tonight than any part I might have played. Doesnt mean I havent (if I remembered every role I’ve played, I’d be stunned), mind.

But what I have done, just once before, is celebrate Thanksgiving Day in America, a few years ago in Albany, New York (well, technically it was that place across the river, beginning with R, but I’d never spell that right, and my hotel was in Albany, so…), though I intend to add to that number now, if possible, now I’m retired.

I dont actually remember when the snow started, so whether it was the Thursday, or the Friday, when I went to a nearby (to my hotel) shopping centre for my first experience of ‘Black Friday’, long before it spread like it has over here in UK. Beyond the fact that even if my second Thanksgiving experience was with the same wonderful host, it wouldnt now be in Albany, as he now works, and lives some way south of there. Any details he wants to give away (including which year it was!), I will let him decide how much to say!

Its fair to say that my second experience is not going to be as a hostess, just saying before anyone suggests it! I know of others who are happy to host me, and previous host will be among them, I’m sure, but we will see who gets the ‘honour’ of that. Only way it will be LA is if Musso & Frank offer to host me for free, lol!!! Not going to happen, I’m certain. Well, I’m open to LA offers, but know of few there who would want me at a family gathering, so…?

But yes, next year, might be that year, or might need to be 2021, as Eric is 80 on 24th next year, and looking at calendar, Thanksgiving will be 26th, so possibly doable, but tricky, and probably pricey, so…? Maybe I need to find that Pilgrim girl outfit, lol?

So to all my American friends celebrating Thanksgiving day today, have a wonderful day. Well, assuming you read it on the right day, lol? If not, I hope you had a good one!

Video, well my favourite ‘suitable’ singer recorded a song called ‘I’m Going To Be A Country Girl Again’, hence the twist for the blog title. Just to say for those seeing both, the blogs will be same tonight, with one omission which some might work out. This is the Sesame Street version of the video, which is standard entertainment value for that show. This is edited version of blog, by the way

4 out of 6 ain’t bad

OK, I’m cheating with the video a bit, but the fraction is strictly the same, lol. Yes, its fair to say at this point I’m 2/3rd of the way through the radiotherapy treatments, in other words, 4 weeks down, 2 more weeks to go. Fine, there is a 4 week recovery period after that before I’m allowed to consider much, and in the last few days its caught up to me why they say that, as I was warned the tiredness would be cumulative near the end, and yes, they’re right, I’m needing those afternoon naps more now than I did a couple of weeks ago, so what its going to be like by the time I get closer to the end, dont ask.

Tomorrow I will definitely need a good nap, as I’m out tomorrow evening for someone’s birthday do, and though I wont be the centre of attention, he will be, I know questions are going to be asked about me, so… But yes, it has to be done at some point, and this is as gentle a way to do it as I  can think of, as all know at least. No, I havent come to a decision about how dressed up I want to get yet. Part of me wants to do it properly, part of me is asking whether I’m up to that, so will rank as late call, I’m sure.

The other slight connection to the blog title concerns golf. A lovely guy runs a couple of fantasy golf contests during the season, and yes, my absence from the mens one while everything was going on, means I’m well down the field (aided by some less than brilliant picks), but incredibly the ladies, with 1 tournament to go (currently in 3rd round of 4), despite all that, I’m in 5th place! No, there arent a million entries, but a lot more than 5, lol. The fact the ladies dont play every week has probably helped!

Mind, not for the first time, my player doing the best, is my reserve, who I dont need! If she counted, I’d have 1-2 at present, lol. Ah well… my reserve picking on the ladies has been quite something this season.

OK, video time. A bit of Meatloaf, which I’m sure I wont be eating tomorrow night, lol

Suspicious Mind

OK, I know, I’m old school, and all that, but I managed to amuse my lady contact at the benefits office on the phone yesterday by querying the back payment figure they were offering me for my cancer status, because I thought it was…too high! Yes, I’m not saying its the first time in her work she’s had that query, but I would imagine its fairly unique. But yes, it was right. Cancer diagnosis might only have been in September, but I’ve been off with that issue since March, and providing sick notes, so dated all the way back! Means I can pay back a lovely man who has been helping me since then financially, but beyond that, my financial sanity has gone up amazingly with that news!

Yes, thats all the health news you’re getting, other than all continues fine for now, and hopefully will do so for sometime yet!

The other thing I got suspicious about today, actually relates to railways. Yes, that branch to Kirkburton that closed to passengers in 1930, though it lasted till 1965 for goods. Well, today, after picking me up, my transport driver headed off to Kirkburton for the next pick up! At that end of the route, there were 2 stations that came to my mind, whats left of it, lol. The obvious terminus station, but it was obvious to me that the route was also taking me close to the previous station on route, Fenay Bridge and Lepton.

Sadly, as Google maps proved to me when I got home, and checked, I saw neither, as neither was on the main road that the vehicle was travelling along. Not that as far as I can tell, there is any extant evidence of either station now according to facts I could find online, but anyway…

In fact, I have been closer to Fenay Bridge and Lepton station site in my time, as apparent it was only about 400 yards from Aromatic Beauty, further down the road (Station Road, and Station Court being big giveaways), though I’ve never been beyond Linda’s place when going down that road, up to now. Maybe once I’ve recovered, well… not that I’m going to find anything but street names, it seems?

Kirkburton station is also now seemingly just a housing estate area, but hey, its over 50 years, so all in all… So that suspicious was crushed, lol.

OK, video time. Yes, the obvious song, and yes, the Elvis version, live. Its ironic to think that 50 years ago, women swooned at this behaviour, whereas now it looks horribly sexist. Ah well, the change in times, and attitudes…

Now you’re not hair any more

OK, the title is an awful pun, guilty as charged. And as you will find out shortly, I might be exaggerating the issue some what, but hey, if Prince Andrew can remember (supposedly) a Pizza Express in Woking that he was in 18 years ago, when all the evidence suggests he was somewhere else, anyway…

Currently, given a lot of it has been shorn off, and what is left is generally hidden under a wig, shampooing, and washing my hair once a week is fine at present. But yes, I’ve looked each week for hair loss, and first 2 weeks, hardly any more than the few dead ends that might fall out, but then today… Yes, I noticed it, definitely. To be fair, as stated, it is literally just around the area of treatment, but that fell out heavily today, but such is life.

Yes, at least in that area now, the wig will fit better, so swings and roundabouts. But there are mornings when I’m getting ready to go to treatment where it stubbornly refuses to fit over the rest of the hair, so now, do I just carry on as before, or do I get the lot taken off? The latter would solve the wig issue, I think its fair to say, but do I really want to remove the lot? I know, the whole robot look I love is bald (a la Metropolis) but its still a big thing to do. Mind, if someone wants to provide me with the rest of a Metropolis robot bodysuit in a nice, or suitable material, deal, hair all gone!

Well, I dont know if its still ‘Forever Autumn’ as it felt more like Winter when I had to go out the back earlier today, but anyway…

It kills the depression, honey

Musicals did help to kill the depression for some at least, and kept a certain Oklahoma lady in work too. And besides, if I did have any depression, the goodies, and the money news this weekend would have killed it anyway.

This week, as mentioned a couple of blogs back, the golf contest I do generously ran the Fantasy side of the contest as a benefit for some old cancer patient (me, for those not reading), and that, combined with a couple of generous donations on top, enabled me to treat myself a bit. Who me, chocolate, as if I would, lol?

So on Thursday, after the money had arrived, I spent some on that lovely treat. To keep delivery costs down, I took the 3-5 day delivery option, the cheapest available. So fine, delivery was made this morning, less than 2 literal days after order was placed (Thursday afternoon to Saturday morning), ooh! No, I’ve been good, none yet, though tomorrow might be a different matter.

The other thing that helped my mood today (if it needed it), beyond a genuine lay-in in bed this morning, was a letter and online message from various benefit people. Both were formalities, but had to be done, so…Personal Independence (Disability) payments agreed, and back payments seemingly went in bank account yesterday, a nice bonus. Well, it will be when the cash machine is working again at the hospital, but anyway…

The other was disability acceptance, so I can get unemployment pay, without job searching, for the obvious reason I’m incapable of working now, especially in call centres, voice is busted!

Now, if I can only find a way to turn that white, plastic, non full face mask (nose opening, other tiny holes) into a full face silver metal one, lol…? Ideally with matching body suit, but anyway…

OK, video time. For those in the know, yes, its the same video for both blogs. I was going to use a different take for this, but its harder to see Clara Johnson in the other one, to put it mildly. Whereas, in here… Yes, Ginger was in both, no shock.

Fade to silver

Before we get to the amusing part of tonight’s blog, a brief piece with other health news for me. Yes, all is going positively with me so far, you might be glad to hear. So much so that as from my new stock tomorrow, my daily steroid count is being cut from 2 mg daily, to 1.5 mg, with the plan being, that if I have no issues with that, then to cut to 1 mg daily as from end of next week. I have been told if I do have issues, to immediately up it again, but if the nurse was expecting that, she wouldnt be cutting me in first place. Hard to believe, not so long ago, it was 16 mg daily!

Tomorrow is the halfway treatment, by the way, 15 down, 15 to go, quite a landmark.

Today, at the end of my treatment, I was asked if I was planning on taking my face mask home with me, when all treatments had been completed. Yes, of course I am, lol, might be the closest I ever get to a robot mask in my life, lets face it! I know, its plastic, its white, and though its hard to turn it into metal, I dont know if giving it a silver paint job would be so hard? Of course I would lack the fixing things that are on the machine, but wearing it on my face, all the same would have to be fun, especially if painted silver. Its also not quite full face (they let me breathe), but pretty good, all the same. So yes, I might be looking to see if it can be painted, and if so, to get someone to do it for me, because my hands certainly couldnt before, let alone now! Any offers? Something fitted so that it stayed around my head too?

Yes, my excuse was that I write science fiction, but lets face it, the real reason…

OK, the video. If you want a version of Steve Strange singing this, they arent hard to find. But finding Midge Ure (part writer/producer) providing a live version, well…