Now you’re not hair any more

OK, the title is an awful pun, guilty as charged. And as you will find out shortly, I might be exaggerating the issue some what, but hey, if Prince Andrew can remember (supposedly) a Pizza Express in Woking that he was in 18 years ago, when all the evidence suggests he was somewhere else, anyway…

Currently, given a lot of it has been shorn off, and what is left is generally hidden under a wig, shampooing, and washing my hair once a week is fine at present. But yes, I’ve looked each week for hair loss, and first 2 weeks, hardly any more than the few dead ends that might fall out, but then today… Yes, I noticed it, definitely. To be fair, as stated, it is literally just around the area of treatment, but that fell out heavily today, but such is life.

Yes, at least in that area now, the wig will fit better, so swings and roundabouts. But there are mornings when I’m getting ready to go to treatment where it stubbornly refuses to fit over the rest of the hair, so now, do I just carry on as before, or do I get the lot taken off? The latter would solve the wig issue, I think its fair to say, but do I really want to remove the lot? I know, the whole robot look I love is bald (a la Metropolis) but its still a big thing to do. Mind, if someone wants to provide me with the rest of a Metropolis robot bodysuit in a nice, or suitable material, deal, hair all gone!

Well, I dont know if its still ‘Forever Autumn’ as it felt more like Winter when I had to go out the back earlier today, but anyway…

Where’s your hearing gone?

Its funny, when I decided to go with a wig look, for my hair, I quickly realised that 7 months of hair growth had to go pretty quickly, and did so. Snag is, as I have now discovered, its not the only physical issue that I hadnt noticed that is now giving me issues. But yes, this one is a bit more gruesome, or at least dirty at least, my ears. No, I havent cleaned them out since well, before all this started, and to say my hearing quality is down, is to put it mildly. Snag is, at the moment my physical state is hardly in a way to do much about it, but unlike a haircut, not so easy to get someone to deal with for me. But hopefully…?

As for the rest of the health stuff today, it all seems to have gone fine, first session of radiotherapy down, only another 29 to go, lol. It all seemed fine, though whether I will stick it through to my normal bedtime tonight, who knows, I might just be beginning to feel it, in which case it will be an early night for sure, I’m sensible enough to do that at least. It felt fine at the time, though a metal mask might have been more fun than a plastic one, I only realised the session was over when they started to remove the mask from me! As for a metal bodysuit, oh please… Back tomorrow, and got another meeting too, this time with a wig department, so must remember to take the letter with me to show I’m on benefits, so will get it for free. Yes, I plan to have the blonde bob option again, though ironically the one look I havent tried yet of the ones I bought is the red bob! Tomorrow, maybe, to the hospital, sounds an idea? Or maybe I should go back to my teen years, do a ‘Sally Carr’ as per the video, and go for a longer blonde style with the NHS wig, hmm? Not that I can sing now, as voice is even more gone than the hearing at present!

But seriously, my one issue with all these treatments is my sweet tooth one. Like today, given that I’m not allowed to eat in the 4 hours prior to the treatment, I was screaming for coffee, and cake after it was over, and had to have my fix, snag is, 30 times of that isnt going to be cheap, lol. And on those mornings with early appointments, even more of an issue I suspect?

And no, neither Lon Chaney, or Rotwang were treating me today, sadly.

OK, the video. Some might have worked out its Middle Of The Road, from a previous comment, and yes, Sally is definitely miming. In fact, in truth, I dont think I’ve ever seen a video of her actually singing, as opposed to miming. But anyway… And yes, I’d love that dress

 

 

 

 

 

Colours of my hair

My hair colour originally was dark, though anyone would have to have known me for a very long time by now to remember that. Yes, in truth, I’ve been a blonde for quite a while now, but not at the moment. Its funny, I’d been planning to go redhead before everything happened with the brain issues, so in that sense, the only thing thats happened is that its taken me a bit longer to change colour than I had originally planned to. Oh, and of course, I’d planned on it being a change of colour at the hairdressers, not by the use of a wig. Mind, the wig I plan to pick up next week care of the NHS service for cancer patients will be a blonde bob one anyway.

But besides all that, if anyone had told me (as I am as I type this) that I’d happily be wearing a silver bob wig, I might have said, in my dreams, but nothing more, but yes, thats what I’m doing! And yes, I did wear the silver Lycra bodysuit under my clothes today, for the last visit to the hospital before all the treatments start on Monday. Never did get to match it with the silver wig today, but probably would have done if circumstances had permitted it.

Still had the amusement of a member of hospital staff who saw me in hospital as a blonde, doing a double take about this redhead sat in the waiting room, but anyway…

I must admit it, I have no idea at this moment which is going to be my preferred colour, especially when outside (silver, seriously?), but I must admit that being a redhead is great fun, even if I’ve only worn the longer wig so far, and yes, that length is taking a bit of getting used to, having hair that long to deal with, and look after, well?

But black/blackish, oh, I dont think so, lol!

OK, video time. Well, I guess its fair to say my hair has been (with help of wigs) a few colours in my life, so…

 

Are we happy? Are we scared?

Or a mixture of both, maybe?

Well, today saw the first of a planned 32 visits to St James Hospital in Leeds over the next 7 weeks, so… Today was actually one of the more straightforward ones, Thursday will probably be even more so, but then we get to the 30 more serious ones, involving radiotherapy, chemotherapy tablets and everything else involved in getting me better, in the long run at least.

And yes, apart from overtaxing the voice/mouth a bit too much by talking too much to various people, it was indeed pretty straightforward. The letter I needed for work, sorted. All the paperwork I thought I might have to do to get all the benefits I need/am entitled to, someone far more knowledgeable of such matters will be dealing with for me. The knowledge confirmed that said mouth issue is probably related to the issue with the growth on my temporal lobe, most of which is now gone, gained.

So yes, now I can start to focus on events starting on Monday, and stop worrying about everything else, thank goodness. And yes, I will be happy to get started with that, I must admit. Am I scared about said events? At the moment the answer would be no, but ask me again next week, lol. Though I was told today that I’m more likely to get tired out by stuff as the 6 weeks go on, rather than in the early stages. There is the possibility of staying over in Leeds for up to 4 nights a week if it does, but I rather gather they work on ‘does she need it’ option, rather than pushing it on me early, which seems the wisest route to go down. As much for all the travel I will be doing, as well as the treatments, but we will see.

But yes, I have to admit it, if you’d told me 2 months ago that I’d be where I am now, whether I would have believed you, who knows? But we are, so…

I have one more trip to Leeds before Monday, on Thursday for the ‘meet the team, and I gather one of the radiotherapy machines (non working)’ but then down to business! The one thing I’m sure of, is that after these 7 weeks, anyone offering to drive me to Leeds will not be met with the most enthusiastic response, lol, for a few months at least! So yes, tomorrow, no travel, and same on Friday, but after that, for 6 weeks, on weekdays at least, that trip to Leeds could become very familiar! Beneficial, but boring, lol.

After that, 4 – 6 weeks of not overdoing it, then lets see how I feel? I have been told I need some short term targets to get me through the treatments, and I already have 2. One is the obvious Christmas/New Year holiday period, and the other, before then, the works Christmas dinner (yes, Medical retirement is coming soon, but not official yet, so…) the first week after treatments should end, so… Fine, we shall see after those, lol!

Oh, Thursday. Well yes, I might be considering wearing the silver wig, and silver Lycra bodysuit under clothing, but we will see how I feel then, lol!

OK, the video. Well the blog title is mentioned in the song, and the song title might be what I need someone to say to me at some point, but other than that, this video is pretty crazy, I guess?

Crackling Harlean?

But no, before anyone thinks this is going to be about my health matters, you’re wrong!

One of the things I’m now in a position to catch up on, and get inspired by, is the Blackpool film festival next year, which is a bit later next year, not in March, but in May, weekend starting on the 22nd to be exact, and seemingly going on to the 25th, given its a Bank Holiday weekend, so that will be fun.

One of the suggested themes for the weekend is the old dance based musicals, though I think its safe to say that as I will then be 62, I wont be wearing anything quite as revealing as anything young Clara Johnson, and the other dancers did, lol. Something fun, and a dancer type outfit, but crazily revealing, not without very large amounts of personal sponsorship, lol.

However, one of the other considerations involves science fiction films, and one film got included in the discussion, Metropolis. Just think about, and even ignoring my less than subtle robot kink, what could be better for a recovering cancer patient than wearing a full robot bodysuit outfit, able to sit down for recovery periods in the seat that was designed for the Metropolis robot to sit in? And lets face it, if a robot feels the need to walk slowly, well again, its what she’s meant to do? And besides, if me hair, or anything else is in less than perfect condition, even by then, who is going to know? Oh, and yes, fine, I’d love every moment of wearing it, anyway.

Of course, if I needed an absolute incentive to make sure I was fit enough to work at the Festival in May, that would definitely be it!

Mind, I might get some early practice of living as a robot over this weekend anyway. The hair hasnt been cut since March, just before the health issues all started, but all (or pretty much all) is coming off tomorrow morning. Oh, should I mention that at the moment, the only wig that has turned up is the silver one? The 2 redhead ones (a bob and a just longer than shoulder one), the email says will be delivered by Monday, but in the interim, its either the almost bald (or actually bald) robot look, or a silver wig, so well…? I have some old (and I mean as in over 10 years old) silver Lycra type suits that might also get used at weekend, assuming I can still get into them of course? No, as far as I know, I’m not going out at the weekend, and Lycra isnt going to work for outdoor wear at my age, but indoors…

As far as I know, after tomorrow the next time I need to venture out is a week today, for the meet the team get together in Leeds hospital. It was also going to be meet the blonde wig day, but that is now on 29th, as its a day that suits the team providing it, after a phone call this morning. Oh, we got there on call 3, they’d been given the wrong Christian name, so twice said Julie, but she eventually worked out it was me, rang me back, and then… Fine, I’ll settle for one of the redhead wigs on the 24th, lol, unless someone wants to dare me, with a sponsorship payment?

No, despite the subject matter, its not a certain Queen video. Yes, there is a big clue in the blog title though.

 

 

So robot?

OK, lets start off with the amusing moment today, the first of my wig ‘collection’ arrived today, the cheapest I’m buying (though NHS backed one will be free, as on benefits), the silver bob wig. In truth, its what you would expect for £7, or there about, it will do fine as a fun wig, but its not going to win any prizes for quality, thats for sure. I was actually going to put it on today, and see if Eric (the landlord) even noticed, but because my hair hasnt been cut for just over 7 months, its now too long for a bob length wig, and too full for a wig to sit over it, so never mind… But yes, I will have to wait for the better quality redhead wigs to arrive in next few days, before getting shorn of hair, for sure. The last, the blonde bob wig, care of NHS/McMillan Cancer service, not until the 24th, when next on a definite visit to Leeds hospital before radiotherapy begins, as meeting team treating me that day. In theory I have a Occupational Therapy session before then, but as I dont yet have the rearranged date for that, taken the safe option on date.

I could go to my usual hairdresser round the corner, and get my hair done by her, but in truth, the weather around here recently has been wetter than what Noah faced aboard the Ark, and also, despite my mobility improving slightly lately, its not perfect, and is about 400-600 yards each way, so probably beyond me at the moment. 100-200 yards to the post box, yes, can now manage, but hairdresser far…?

The thing is, I was thinking that I was only likely to do the full robot look indoors with the wig, in which case a new (all my current ones are old, and in less than perfect condition) shiny Zentai/Lycra suit would have been fine, as figure hugging wouldnt matter all that much, but then someone suggested I should go outside, a la robot, and fine, that sort of challenge to an actress like me, oh please…how can I resist?

Snag is, at 61, with a bit of middle aged tummy, going out, even to the front gate, let alone further, in a figure hugging outfit, well…? Oh fine, I joke about wearing a latex catsuit, and would in private, given the chance, but winter is coming, and that would be in public, so… Dont get me wrong, I’ll do it, in the right robot suit, but something like that needs something not figure hugging, and at this time of year, probably with some lining too, all of which is going to be far more complex to get, to put it mildly. But if I can find, or be provided with such an item, oh yes, would be great fun to do.

I have to admit it, my friend Angie posted a great picture of a 6 ft tall beaver suit this morning, full body enclosing, which looked great fun. Now, if that had been a similar suit, in robot look, I might have been tempted, even at a price I really, really cant afford, but anyway… Still, if anyone knows of such a robot suit, in the UK, then please, an old lady, even if just to wear it once, well…?

Right, video time. I actually have a Police (pop group) story I can tell, that might amuse some. Back around 1979 (judging by singles discography) some friends of mine at the time were asked to be the band for one of those singers (cant remember who) who could sing, but had no touring band to do a few little concerts, which they did. The thing is, for reasons best known to the promoters, the last concert was an outdoor one in Inverness, so they were looking for a band to play a short set before the star turn, and my friends were asked if they knew anyone who might be interested in doing so. Well, they’d worked with this group who had released 2 or 3 singles previously, with little to no chart success (highest reached 42), called, yes, you’ve guessed it, Police.

Concert was done, Roxanne was re-released, got to number 12 in the charts second time round, and the rest was history! This isnt Roxanne, but one of those other early singles, with a one word tweak for the blog title, lol

 

 

One way, or another

I’m going to get that black bob, Louise Brooks look! Well, close enough anyway.

lets face it, as I’ve mentioned before, I could never get that famous fringe naturally nowadays, I’m too old, the hair is a bit gone in the front, and besides which, nowadays I’m blonde! I do actually have my hair styled as a bob, but its slightly longer than hers, and the fringe…forget it!

But there is one way of getting it, even if it is a bit of a cheat, a wig! And guess what, I actually bought one yesterday, though again, its a longer style than she was generally seen with, simply because I have to cover up my own hair! But yes, its got that fringe 😀

No, I dont honestly know when I will wear it, beyond the Christmas do, and if that is the only time, then it counts as a silly purchase. I may well do it again at some other point, and the odds are good that it may well reappear at next years do, and might even get to travel to Kansas in the interim.

In a sense, I want to wear it sooner, but I know that like the dress, it really should wait its turn, shouldnt it? 😉

But yes, I can finally pull off the Brooksie look, even if it is cheating. Who cares?

The video, well, as is so often the case, the clue is in the title!