Its nice to know how you feel!

Let me say that this post is meant in jest, but given I was lacking subject material tonight (feel free to send ideas), I thought I’d roll with this, and hope Betsy doesnt kill me for doing it. In truth, the story is really good, and if you love well written, sharply done enslavement stories, with a dose of dry humor, this could well be for you. I will warn you, she does have a thing for including ‘body matters’ in her story, so if that sort of thing might put you off, consider yourself warned. The link for the whole story is but its Chapter 3 I’m focusing on tonight.

No, the last thing I expect from Betsy is forewarning of any element relating to myself, I think we both prefer it when I only find out when I get to that point in the story. So, when I came across this point today…

The two girls, presumably trainees or there for work experience, were talking softly to each other but stopped at our entrance and checked the animals for deviations. Not one of the animals was talking or even making a sound when we entered. In fact, they never made a sound the whole time we were there.

I didnt think any more of it, other than as info for the story. But then, a few paragraphs later, I found this…

Everything calmed down for a second or two, during which time Abbey the cunt ordered Steph the cunt and Clara the cunt to set up the emergency stall. The girls ran off to obey, taking the long way round in order to stay well away from their new charge.

Dont take the cunt stuff too seriously, Gillian, the lady in the story seems to call most people by that term of endearment lol!

But yes, to many, Steph is my name (and is still my middle name), and Clara is of course my well known past life name, both of which she knows, so the chances of that being coincidence, pretty slim! Yes, I roared with laughter, in case you were wondering! We have a wonderful online relationship, which tends to involve winding each other up at times, and this was seemingly one of them. As to this

Those girls were competent and worked as a team. I remembered that. If I got out here Iā€™d have to kill them quickly.

Well, its nice to have some warning lol, not that I can move at any speed at present, anyway!

In truth, I always find it fun when I get these unexpected moments in stories, especially from Betsy, probably because they are less than respectful, I love them more!

Right, video time, a witty response to that lovely lady, with a song nearly as old as me!


How would it feel?

As someone definitely more into the technological side of mind control, rather than the relatively ‘tamer’ version applied through hypnosis, I’ve always wondered how it would actually feel to be mind controlled, or brainwashed, in reality. Of course, let me say, that as its all fictional, and impossible in real life, this is purely hypothetical, but…?

Strictly the mind control side of things depends on what is done to the lucky person, sorry, victim of the mind control. Some are taken over so totally that not only do they think that their new thoughts are their own, they may not even realize they’re being controlled! Of course there are others, where they know they are being controlled, but are hopeless to resist it, to any degree. And yes, you get a few where resistance does happen, for a while at least, but in the end…the inevitable happens.

But the one I’m going to look into more tonight, is the actual brainwashing stuff. Usually, thankfully in stories, if someone is brainwashed, they tend to get reprogrammed with new thoughts, so unless you’re turning them into an actual robot, or robot like machine, why not just tamper with the thoughts in the first place, rather than making all that effort? Well, I suppose if you want to create a whole new identity, or person, its easier that way, to wipe clean, then start again, but if you just want control over someone…?

But lets say you brainwash someone, or more ideally in my case, are thoroughly brainwashed, what does it feel like for the recipient? Are you literally blank minded, incapable of doing anything, or recognizing anyone around you, without being commanded to do so? Is there actually any point in brainwashing someone, and not actually reprogramming them to obey commands anyway? And if brainwashed, is it simply a blank minded state of blissfulness, or something more? You cant think surely, if your mind has been erased, or does something else kick in, to counteract that fact?

A question I’m going to ask of any hypnotist reading this, though I guess none will answer, regardless, is could you actually ‘brainwash’ a willing victim through hypnosis? I only ask because I’m curious to know what its actually like to feel like you’ve been brainwashed, even temporarily like this, just to discover what it actually feels like. And if literally brainwashed, in that way, and unable to think for themselves, could you then override the practice that the subject has to be willing to do things suggested to him. Because normally, anyone could react, and stop anything happening to them (despite fictional hypnosis stories that suggest otherwise), but if your mind has been wiped clean, in theory at least…? Hmm?

Yes, if anyone quite literally wants to show me, or let me experience it, I’d love to. Whether you then leave me as a mindless, obedient robot, hmm? šŸ˜‰

Right, video time. One of those Slade songs that even if you’re old enough to remember them, unless you were a big fan like me, you probably dont know it, but you should!

And so I must travel to Wakefield

Slightly more low brow a place than Rio, and no, its not that Mike Nesmith video, though I do love it, all the same. Its just that I used the other obvious title on the other blog, so wanted a different title here, in case they get comments, or likes (ha ha), so that I know which version it relates to.

I have (online at least) known Betsy for a little while now, though in truth, beyond her writings, our messages to each other online, and the odd blog comments, I really dont know her that well. No, never met her, probably never will, but all the same…

To be fair, she asked my approval before posting this

by sending me a section of it, and my only objection was the name of ‘my’ character. So, Seraphina became Maria, and after last night, the rest is history. And no, most of what she writes about my character are stuff she’s gauged from our ‘mail’ to each other, and what I write on the forums, both in words, and reviews. But to say she’s hit the mark, is putting it mildly!

Before you ask, no, I doubt we will ever actually meet. She probably enjoys her privacy way too much, and besides, there is always the risk of letdown when you meet someone you think you know, but probably dont. Its possible, we are both in the North of England, but thats probably as close as it will ever get, online.

Yes, she’s got me to a tee, and I suspect she bears a resemblance to Rhia, in attitude at least, from the little that I know about her. Though I might add, I have no evidence that Betsy can actually control minds lol!

So yes, even though in all reality, I will never meet Betsy, she will always have a special place in my heart, all the same.

OK, the video. I used the Fugees version over on the other blog, so lets use the original artist for this one, Roberta Flack.

Thats what I like!

Its fair to say that more than a few stories on the EMCSA attract my attention, because they are well written, cleverly done, and have great characters. Then, fine I admit it, you get stories that push my buttons for just so many reasons, and today happened to provide one of those! I have no idea if the use of the name Stephanie was an actual tribute to me, or just coincidence, but fine, dropping a character named Stephanie (its the name I’m known as, on the forums) into a situation where she can choose to become part of a hive mind, then yes, I’m impressed. The fact that the story is well written, and includes latex drone outfits are a handy bonus as well, mind.

Oh, you want the link? Well…?

Before you ask, no, I’ve never been to a hypnosis convention, so have no idea if the portrayal of such is accurate, or not? I have been hypnotized of course, more than once, but always on a one to one basis, nothing like a convention. But yes, if I was met by a latex clad drone, asking me if I wanted to become part of a hive mind, there is only one possible answer, yes please! Oh, and if you’re wondering, no, my, sorry, Stephanie’s transformation isnt just by simple hypnosis! And yes, there is a bit of a twist at the end too!

Oh fine, a chrome coating would be even better, but…

So no, I have no idea if it was written for me, or not, but regardless, I could very much fancy the thought that it was. Now, if that could really happen…

The logic of pop music over the years really is, that there is nothing logical to it. So, if anyone now said that this act, mixing old songs into a record/video, the latter of which would include a bunny, well…But yes, 3 number 1’s in a row in the UK, with first 3 records! So, yes, being turned into a hive mind, latex clad drone, thats what I would like!

A challenge for the submissive mind

Given that I really havent got any logical blog material for tonight (feel free to suggest in comments, or email me at if you have any), lets go with that good old faithful back up, a side look at a story I read earlier. Today, the fascinating subject matter relates to a story by that writing genius named Jukebox, and his story, Divide And Conquer. Link?

So fine, the intriguing question for a submissive like me, with this story, is do I just let myself be brainwashed, which I would enjoy, lets face it, and run the risk of being Domme to another woman, or do I plot, try to ignore the pleasure of being brainwashed, and resist, just long enough to be guaranteed to be submissive to a Mistress, as well as a Master? I know, hopefully she would be weaker than me, last even less time, and I get to be thoroughly submissive, or should I try and resist, at least until I know she’s been broken, and then give in, and just enjoy the thorough brainwashing? Hmm?

No, I’m not saying what happens, you need to go read it, if you want to find out, but fine, it sounds like that helmet is quite something, and I’d love to be enslaved/brainwashed like that, I must say. Snag is, at my age, not an attractive target lol! But yes, I’m pretty sure ***** will be glad she, err, lost the battle to be the Domme, somehow? šŸ˜‰

OK, the video. What ***** may have been hiding from her Master to be, when it came to whether she wanted to be Domme, or Sub to another woman, just maybe? One of those seemingly forgotten songs of Mud, no idea why?

You make me feel so frisky.

Yes, fine, has anyone got a brooch like this one, that I can borrow for September, and the wedding?

Oh fine, maybe I could live without the enhanced libido? Though who knows, if I looked that good, maybe it would be fun having the natural urges to match? Some would say its been far too long, and maybe it has been, though I cant say I’ve missed it. But if I looked that glamorous, and had that perfect a transformed body, then fine, it might be fun, putting it in action! Alright, given the supposed limit on the transformation period, I’d have to be careful when I used it, though seemingly, there is a hint at the end of what we have now, that maybe if you use it often enough…? šŸ˜‰

OK, once, just to look good for my friend’s big day might be fine, but if that meant I caught the eye of someone, well…maybe once, or twice more, just to get a healthy sex drive again… ? šŸ˜‰ Oh, and the fact it cleans up your blemishes too, given the state of my knees, I could wear a short dress again too, hmm?

Oh fine, sadly its only fictional, but if anyone knows differently, or thinks they can give me a makeover by creating one, or by other means, let me know! I know someone would love to see me get, and wear that flapper dress, but given those generally are above the knee in length, and the state of my knees, a ‘blemish removal system’ down there might be handy! Do they do flesh colored knee ‘stockings’, a la the body stockings, lol?

Mind, if I got said flapper dress, and knee covers, I’d probably want to time travel back to the 20’s lol! I know, I know…but…In truth, I probably just need someone to convince me to buy one, ideally by tampering with my mind, though being submissive, being told to buy one might work lol! No, I havent seen one like the LA one on Ebay, but have seen ones (admittedly from China, so not sure of quality?) that certainly look the part, but…I know I wont do it on my own, just saying…

But yes, if anyone knows of one of those brooches, or has a nice transformation chamber they want to try out, well…? šŸ˜‰

The video. Found this, think it works?

Morality in a mind control world?

Its fair to say that generally in mind control stories, moral scruples are one of the last things that the controller seems to worry about. So yes, its fair to say that when you read a concept where the main rule is that you can only mind control willing victims, off an agreed list, or face the consequences, is quite something. But yes, I found one today, and rather good it is too!

Oh fine, I’d love to be on that willing submissive list, but I suspect they’re looking for younger, prettier women than me! Oh, and on top of that, its fiction of course, but anyway…its a great idea! Though fine, I might prefer to remember being controlled, than having it all erased as a fond memory, but hey, you cant have everything!

I would imagine the concept of morally needing to clean everything away afterwards might come as strange to some wannabee mind controllers, but hey, I like it! I suppose because both sides get the bit (or lot) of kink that they seek, but then at the end of it, everything is fine! Interesting to explain to potential mind controlled submissives though, but obviously it appeals to more than me. Hmm?

Talking about morality in your actions, reminds me a lot about acting, in that you get to play parts that really arent you! But yes, again, I always enjoyed doing that. Hey, I probably even played dominant type roles, and that definitely isnt me!

Right, video time. I have no idea why I havent used this before, even if the title in no way reflects Jean Harlow, you cant believe I wouldnt have used a song called Platinum Blonde by now! But in a sense, this fits here, as it talks about a young lady, acting in a role that really wasnt her, and though she started off enjoying it, despite what she done, she soon changed her mind. Me, yes, I’ve done some weird stuff in my time, but doesnt mean I wouldnt do it again, given the chance. Oh, and fine, I’m a Platinum Blonde too!

I suspect most of my readers will not have heard of Prelude, but you should have! They are probably most famous for the acapella version of the Neil Young song, After The Goldrush, but this is pretty good too, give it a chance without me needing to mind control you! šŸ˜›