To help you walk this way?

I guess its fair to say I’ve always been into diversity, and inclusion issues, given I’ve fallen under the LGBT banner for, err, a while. Nowadays I can also qualify under age, and disability too, it seems.

One thing I have discovered since my back started deteriorating, is just how much difference it all makes to my mobility. A few decades ago, I could go for a walk on a Sunday (betting shops never opened on Sunday’s back then), and quite literally walk miles. Now I’m finding the 3/4 of a mile or so from the Bus Station, to work, a major challenge! And a distance that not so long ago I could cover in just over 10 minutes, if I had to push it, now takes a minimum of 15! And yes, I’m quite literally killed for a few minutes if I try that!

But still I have one blessing that not all have, for now at least. I can walk, even if its getting more painful, and more difficult by the month. There are many others who are far less fortunate than me. Anyway, when trawling through Twitter this morning, 1 of my science connections had a post up about this.

https://lifeboat.com/blog/2019/01/can-nanotechnology-rewire-an-injured-spinal-cord

Yes, if you’re on Twitter, go track down Lifeboat Foundation (@LifeboatHQ) and tell him Harlean sent you, I’m sure he’d be thrilled for the publicity. Yes, my spinal cord is damaged, though thankfully at present, I still am able to walk. And yes, I’m a robot fetishist, so the idea of nanotechnology improving my ability to walk impresses me no end. If this does work, and allows those who cannot currently walk, to be able to have some mobility, wouldnt that be marvellous? But at the same time, I want to say to them, why not try it first on a less damaged spine, and see how it all plays out. Yes, me, as the guinea pig!

Oh fine, I’d love nanotechnology that transformed my body completely, into a nice new cybernetic one, but this could make for an interesting start. Yes, at least part of me would actually be machine, lol. In truth, I’ve seen similar articles for a few years now, and nothing practical has come of it, so far. But fingers crossed, this might be the one. It could definitely help me, but it could help others far more, and that has to be a good thing?

OK, video time. This is where Rap met Rock, and the collision was an interesting one.

Can I get some money back?

Its ironic, isnt it? I wasnt thrilled at the idea of waiting until I was 65 to get my state pension, instead of 60, as it was when I was growing older, but fine, we want equality, so equalising it to the men’s retirement age, fair enough. But to say the matter was planned badly, would be to put it mildly. Then they kicked me again, by raising the retirement age to 66, though again I could see the logic of it, as most people seem to be living longer, and more healthily, but…

Yes, says the woman who had confirmation yesterday that she qualifies as disabled, due to the deterioration in the state of my spine, plus a few other issues (knees, wrists, shoulder to name a few), and in theory has to work for just over another 5 years. Yeah, thats as likely as me replacing Trump as US President, and before anyone says it could happen, no, it cant, you have to be born in the US to do that, lol!

I have now just read that Labour are proposing to reduce the pension age back to 64, but I’d believe political promises when I see it, and besides, 3 more years might still be a challenge for me?

Seems there is now going to be a judicial review on the matter, but how much it will change, not sure? https://davidhencke.com/2019/01/08/date-set-for-judicial-review-of-state-pensions-for-50s-born-women/

Well yes, I’m going to give it a go, and see if I can get some disability benefits at least, to ease the workload on my body. Before anyone says anything, yes, I know I’m now disabled, but on the basis of all I’ve heard, thats only part of the battle! But strictly, my mobility is getting more limited quite quickly (a few months ago, I could just about do the walk to work without issue from bus station, now its tough to do), and with my wrist gone, I also tick the box for things like preparing, and cooking a proper meal from scratch, no chance! We will see on that, will probably battle with the paperwork involved the week after next, when I’m on holiday. Then the battle with the disability benefit people, and with all I here, they dont like giving out money, even to deserving cases!

But yes, fingers crossed… Even if it meant I could afford to cut back to a 3 day week, so I could always get a rest day, between work days, it would help. Equally, if they want to offer me a new, cybernetic body, I’ll take it!

Anyway, hopefully I can get some of my money back, to help me get by, as a disabled old lady, at least to whatever my pension age ends up being, fingers crossed, sooner the better!

OK, video time. Dont blink or you’ll miss it, lol. This predates Baker Street, literally the first solo Gerry Rafferty album released.

Free will, or free from pain

Oh fine, I posted about this story last Sunday, but at the time I hadnt read the last few chapters, and seen the interesting way that the story culminated. Oh, the link for those unable to scroll back one week…

https://mcstories.com/OutOfMindControl/index.html

Given it can hardly be too much of a spoiler, for those who bothered to read it, Lilly might have got turned into a mindlessly obedient robot (which lets face it, I’d love, but most wouldnt), but events led to Trish getting a new robot body, but getting a pretty decent degree of sentience, even if I’m suspect that if someone wanted to control her mind, they probably could.

The hypothetical question for people like me (or even more disabled than me), is, given the choice, which would you prefer to choose? Pain free life, but in a ‘robot’ body, technically with sentience, though open to being controlled, or to have a free mind, and have to live with the pain?

I know, I’m not the best person to make a call on this, because lets face it, to get rid of all my pain, I’d take the Lilly option, lets face it, but hey, the Trish option would be absolute heaven! But would others do the same, or would they prefer their pain, but keep their free will, and a human body, hmm?

I know that for most of my readers, you have to try and imagine how painful, or limiting life is for some, but even then, if something happened to you, what level of disability would it take for you to take the Trish option (I’m assuming no one other than me would take the Lilly option), rather than carry on in pain, or is it just a total no go?

Comments here, on Facebook, Twitter, or to robotunit8@hotmail.com if you want to keep it private, or cant find the middle two, would be lovely, just saying. Not going to hold my breath for replies, but someone new might surprise me!

Video time. What you will need to do, in this theoretical exercise.

Might not just be my back thats a problem?

Yesterday, here at home, most of the windows here got replaced for more modern ones, and unfortunately I discovered that it might not just be my back thats my health issue.

Given they arrived slightly early, we had a bit of a panic, and had to, more hastily than planned, get the curtains down from in front of the old windows, so they could change them over. Now, fortunately, by this time, I already had my back brace on, which helped. Unfortunately, trying to unclip the curtains from the curtain rail, and get the pelmet down, set off the arthritis in my fingers pretty badly, but I got there in the end. Not a problem as such, as they didnt get to my room until after I’d left for work, but I’d already sort of got the room ready for the work to be done, so yes, things werent in their normal places as I went out the door, so…

The one thing that unsurprisingly I quickly realized was that I’d left my wrong glasses on, was when I walked out the door, and peered in front of me. So hasty return, long distance glasses on, short distance glasses in handbag, fine. What wasnt fine, is that in moving stuff around, I left my painkillers, and my back gel (both strong, darlings) where I’d moved them to, and it wasnt in my bag!

The funny thing was, my back wasnt too bad, until near the end of the day, and just as I was looking forward to getting out at the end of my shift, and get some beloved pills in me, the phone rang (2 minutes before end of shift), and 12 minutes later, bus missed! Fine, get next one, but then I got to Huddersfield, back up bus never showed, and I was about 35 minutes late home, and extremely sore by then! 3 pills (legal, just about?), and 2 bouts of gel later, yes, I slept well, lol, probably knocked out.

The irony was, the arthritis in my fingers, and hands was painful all day, and I was having plenty of issues with my legs too. So yes, I’m now wondering if they’ve been bad for a while, just been hidden by painkillers for my back, but I sure found out about them yesterday! So yes, I joke about needing a new cybernetic back, seems I might have a genuine claim for a full new cybernetic body, lol. Yes, dont I wish!

But if anyone should have one, just laying around, looking for a guinea pig willing to try it out, give me a call, urgently!

Right, video time. Once windows came into the equation, I thought of this. Hard to believe its over 50 years old, but anyway… Oh, minor trivia, Hollies were first group I ever saw live, at the age of about 5, at Chessington Zoo. No idea what they were doing there, but anyway…

Oh, Doctor, Doctor?

Right, lets go from the sublime, political matter of the US National Anthem, and various sports people, to the ridiculous, and talk about the state of my back!

Yes, its an actual fact, I’ve been told today that the results of the bone density scan are in, but unfortunately, the nurse dealing with the matter wasnt in today, and the receptionist admitted to me that the results were in ‘medical speak’, and that therefore she preferred that the nurse discuss them with me, rather than her, as they probably wouldnt have meant a lot to me, or her, in truth. Given I’m working tomorrow, it will be Thursday before I get the results now, but so be it.

Seeing as how, despite the painkillers, and various anti inflammatory gels and creams that I’ve been given to deal with matters, that I still have some degree of latent pain from it, I doubt the results are great, but we will see. But given that so far, I havent actually been given any pills, potions, or other delights to actually cure it, I will just have to wait and see the end results now. But at least the wait is nearly over!

No, I dont expect to be ‘put down’ or anything because of it, mainly because they dont do that sort of thing to people, only poor unfortunate animals, its fair to say. Equally, I dont really expect to be offered a new cybernetically enhanced back, or full body makeover, though yes, I cant deny I would love that! I’m sure they would if they could, but yes, unless some mad scientist knows otherwise, I dont think they’re actually available at present! 😦 If someone does know otherwise, then yes, please, as soon as possible, if not sooner!

Being more realistic, I expect its going to be pills, of some kind, and some strength, to be honest. The 2 obvious ones (and it could be both), are estrogen (menopausal aged woman), and/or calcium. I hope its not too much of the latter, as it can lead to, err, bowel issues, of a delicate kind, as I have already discovered, after taking some voluntarily, and then stopping because of the results!

What I do pretty much know already, without even hearing the medical views, is that my days of working a 5 day week are numbered, if not already over. At present, its all the body can do to do 2 days in a row, let alone more! It will mean cutting back on the delights of life, like travelling twice a year to the US (pretty sure I can still manage one, and maybe 2 next year, due to funds already saved?), and it will mean that I will be doing the wheelchair through the airport thing again, probably for the rest of my travelling life.

One thing I will need to work out on that, is that both times, this trip, I was being met at the other end. Further trips, that might not always be happening, and I guess they would have to let me do it, but it might be more fun! In fact, at Manchester, I did the last bit from baggage carousel, to meeting point on foot, as it was easier for the wheelchair to stay that side of the building, and the helper just dealt with my cases for me, but anyway…

But yes, if anyone wants to provide me with a nice new, young, frisky, cybernetically upgraded body before my next planned flight in May, I would love that. In theory, I could have need to fly next month, but funds dont permit at present. But yes, NYC, for the reading of a musical, for an actress, well, I’d love to be there, but…

Right, video. I suspect this is as close as you’re ever going to get to a live Thompson Twins performance, though I’m not convinced all the keyboard work was live, all the same.

Falling Apart At The Seams

And in this case, I’ll be very impressed if any readers have heard this song before, but some of us still have long memories lol.

Yes, strictly I am beginning to fall apart at the seams. Not literally just yet, though apparently bone thinning, and osteoporosis is to blame for my back issue. Yes, I’ve got my X-Ray results back already, which was surprisingly quick, but maybe they rush the bad news ones faster than the OK ones, who knows?

But yes, my back issue is actually a wedge fracture at the bottom of my thoracic spine, relating to weakening of the bone there. Yes, because its really just an old age issue, there isnt a lot they can do. So pretty much, they just want to give it a few weeks, see if it improves, stays the same, or gets worse before deciding on the next step to take. In the meantime, stick with the painkillers, use the (mild) steroid cream, and just survive as best I can. Oh, and seemingly I have colon issues which may be related to this, so need to get something to, err, clear them out of the way lol.

But yes, if any surgeon, scientist, or indeed mad scientist (probably most fun) has a new replacement cybernetic back unit they want to try out on a willing human volunteer, let me know. I would have said yes, regardless of this, but definitely will now. No, dont mind if it comes in flesh, chrome metal, or other material either! Though if its chrome metal, lets go the whole hog, and do the full body, OK? 😉

Yes, work know. I rang them shortly after I found out, as I suspect I’m going to need a chair to fit in with my needs, regardless. Ideally something that puts no pressure on the back, but anything better than a standard chair has to be good. No, I dont think First Buses will provide me with one lol!

Irony is, today was my last day of self certification for medical reasons, so plan is to go back tomorrow. Of course, I probably now could get a certificate for my back, but I’m going to see how it goes, subject to how I feel in morning. But yes, nice to know that even before 60 (just), that I’m beginning to fall apart at the seams.

The video is a lesser Marmalade hit from over 40 years ago, that just seems apt

Thats life?

I know, a couple of pieces of real life whimsy, that wont hold much meaning for my mainly US readers on here, but anyway, just for once, you’ll have to live with it. Yes, I know the other blog makes more sense, but they were due the Dr Who, and Huddersfield comments, so…

Put it this way, yes, I know I’m feeling old. Even more so the last week and a half, or so, as the back pains that normally last 1-2 days at top, having been giving me hell since then. Finally, after nearly 12 days, it seems to be easing at long last, as I had managed to go 17 hours since last taking a painkiller, but just given in now, as back is starting to ache a bit more now, but yes, even then, still better than its been in a long while!

But what struck me today, was a friend, and ex work colleague announced it was her 60th birthday today. Incredibly, up to just over 7 years ago, she could retire now, if she wanted to! Now, like me, she’s got another 6 years to go before she reaches pension age. Before anyone says anything, raising the retirement age made sense, people now live a lot longer, so understandably we have to work a bit longer before retirement. Oh, and 5 years of it at least was the equality we wanted, as until that time, for many years, women retired at 60, men at 65! Now, by the time I retire, it will be 66 for both genders!

The people I feel most sorry for, are those, slightly older than me, who for the sake of a month or less, end up working a year more, just while things equal out. That would all be reached by the time I retire, for those wondering.

But yes, the last 10 days or so, I’ve been wondering if my back had decided to retire without telling me! Now, if anyone is doing research on cybernetically designed replacement backs, the answer is yes, I’d love one. Knees too, or even more ideally, a whole new body, but yes, at present, the back is the urgent need. So…?

Right, video time. I have to say that before tonight, I’d never heard of this group. But within an hour or so, I’ve become a huge fan. So no, please dont ask me anything about them, because I dont know. But yes, once in a while I love to try to make someone a star, and this is one of those moments. Their cover songs are brilliant, but this is one of their own. Enjoy!