Still ‘normal’ after all these years?

I know, doesnt sound like me, does it, lol? Well, apparently one part of me is still normal after all these years, my blood! Probably is the only part of me that is normal, but besides all that…

Yes, I rang up and got my blood test results today, and it seems they’ve all come back fine. So, if you want to look at it positively, the only thing wrong with me at present is the fracture in my back, which is of course down to osteoporosis, and old age. Of course, given the related pain due to that, its only a mixed blessing, I guess? Thankfully, today hasnt been too bad, I’ve spent most of the day in my brace corset, and probably because I’ve been taking it relatively easy, the pain has been pretty minimal, but I’m sure that work on the next 2 days might change that lol! 😛

And yes, I only wear the brace corset as a back support, and nothing to do with the sensation of having my waist pulled in, which I enjoy far too much! 😉

No, despite everything, even though I probably should at this point, I’m determined not to believe I’ve acted in public for the last time. In truth, I probably have, not only because my part options would now be a lot more limited, but also the fact its been a few years now, and in terms of seriously competing for roles, no I havent done much of late! Well, beyond writing about the dream, pretty much nothing! So yes, it probably is over, but I’m not going to officially retire just yet!

As to me being normal, oh fine, I fail on most counts! Have done that for a long, long time, in truth. I mean, its perfectly normal to want to be turned into a robot, fly in an alien spacecraft, and have ECT (mild, ideally) as research for a book! And lets face it, they are just 3 of the weirdest things, in a pretty crazy lifestyle attitude! Oh, and as for the dream of time travelling, and finding out what Clara Johnson’s lifestyle was like, well…rolls eyes…

So yes, lets face it, I’m probably right when I say that the only thing normal about me, is my blood! The rest of me, still crazy after all these years, and still dreaming of more craziness, however unlikely that is now.

Which leads me to the video, the obvious one, a live version…

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This weeks hotshot, an acting star?

So yes, fine, who wants to be my agent lol? I’ll even promote you on my Women In Media page, hows that for a deal? Yes, this one

https://womennmedia.com/profile/harlean-carpenter/

Oh fine, strictly because its for people mainly working behind the scenes, my main section there is for writing, but yes, the acting definitely gets a mention there as well. In truth, given the current state of my body, the writing might be the better option to take up on, but fine, once an actress, always an actress, as they say. Let me also say that if anyone is looking for any other women for roles they deserve to get the opportunity for, within the media industry, just go here https://womennmedia.com/ and start checking them out!

I’ll be honest, I dont think I’m in any danger of over stretching any agent of mine, but who knows lol? Yes, I know, I might be limited to sitting down roles, or wheelchair roles at present, but hey, there must be a few of those about, surely? And hey, folks, giving those roles to people who actually need that sort of work might be nice. Who me, militant, oh surely not?

No, at my age, I’m not expecting my acting career to even match Clara (Elaine) Johnson, let alone become a star, but just one nice role, before officially retiring (or is that giving up?) on the acting career would be nice. Equally, if someone wants an ‘interesting’ sci fi/sci fact script written, then hey, equally give me a try!

And yeah, if you want me to wear something weird/interesting, then dont think I’d be scared off, believe me, I’ve seen, and worn a few interesting outfits over the years.

The video. Well, I did use this a couple of years ago, so if you’ve been around that long, apologies. But I suspect most havent, or dont look at the videos anyway, so…

Acting crossover stuff

Right, before I get back to the reality of work tomorrow, lets have a non holiday piece about the crazy world of casting patterns in the acting world.

Back in the early days of movies, ethnicity issues produced some, err, interesting developments from the movie studios. Though a small number of oriental actors, and actresses did break into the movie industry, the emphasis is on a small number. And the situation was little better for African-American actors and actresses as well, beyond a few token parts, generally as servants, or slaves.

Indeed, to take one famous name, Myrna Loy, before she finally got her big break, seemed to only play orientals, generally of the evil kind, or mysterious foreigners, despite having been born in Montana! Thankfully her chance to act as ‘herself’ came eventually, and a star was born! Other famous roles, such as Charlie Chan, Fu Man Chu, and others, yes, you get my drift, white actors in makeup! Thankfully, eventually things changed for the better, but seriously…

One area of personal interest, that sadly doesnt seem to have changed, is disabled roles, most specifically in my case at present, roles involving actors, and actresses, in wheelchairs. Have you noticed, even now, nearly all, if not pretty much all those roles are played by people that dont actually need a wheelchair to get around? Now, thats not to denigrate some, like Patrick Stewart, and Raymond Burr, who were really good in their roles, who just maybe genuinely disabled actors couldnt have matched, but all those smaller roles, where…yes, I know, I might be biased at present lol!

Firstly, let me say, its fair to say that at present, I’m not strictly a disabled actress of the kind I’m talking about. I, thankfully, as I proved at the airports, and the like, can get out of a wheelchair, as long as I dont have to stand in 1 spot for too long. I’m lucky, others arent, but if with this rant, I can help them too, then all the better! But equally, at present, especially on stage (which is in truth, probably more my field level), I couldnt perform out of a wheelchair for very long, so count me in, for now at least. In truth, I suspect that over time, my back will probably get worse, not better, so…

Put it this way, my dream role would be a female equivalent of Magneto, Davros (Dr Who & Daleks) or something equally sci-fi, but in truth, any challenge of a suitable role, for a 60(ish) actress, in a wheelchair would be good. No, I dont want a Tony/Oscar winning type role, my acting skills arent that great, I suspect. But a smaller role would be nice, in more senses than one.

And much though my dream is to act in the US, in the sense of that type of role, I’ll consider anything, almost anywhere! So, if you want to give me a chance to prove it (ha, ha), or know someone that might, then you can either email me at stephmajor8@hotmail.com , or contact @cgemLLC on Twitter, or at cgem-llc.com and mention the name Stephanie Carpenter, and they would probably be as thrilled as me if you did.

I know, I know, wont hold my breath!

Video time, going back to the old days, and in this case, a Scottish woman, pretending to be Japanese! One hit wonder time, btw.

Dont let me out of here! Unless…?

Yes, work related blog, so if that doesnt interest…?

One year ago today, I walked into my new place of work for the first time as an employee. The rest, as they say, is history! Its ironic, all that time it took me to find work, and then I struck gold! I knew they would never know, but I said to myself at the time that I wanted to show all those firms that had passed on me, that they were wrong to do so, but now I’m glad they did.

Even more so, as they have been so supportive of the ‘old crock’ who has (temporarily, I hope) had to cut back to a 4 day week, because of her back issues, and everything else related to it.

Given that under the current rules, I am due to take retirement in just over 6 and a half years, its fair to say that unless they push me out of the door, or my physical health gives up completely, I’m planning on being there until the end. Unless…?

I know, I know, its an actress, and the dream thing. I still dream that by some strange miracle, I’m going to get plucked from anonymity by some director, producer, or whoever, and get offered a dream role. Lets face it, I havent done anything for a few years now, I’m fast approaching 60, and the body is in less than perfect condition, so yeah, who’s going to do that? in truth, no one will, but no, I dont want to, just yet, quite give up on that dream! Mind, currently I’m only good for roles that require someone to be sat down for the whole performance, or in a wheelchair! Hopefully not for long, but…

But yes, in hindsight, with all those mental bruises gone, about finding a job at my age, thanks for that. Because in the end, I’m grateful to you, even if I didnt feel so at the time.

Video time. The blog title isnt the song title, but its a well used line of lyrics.

To the Pacific, and back, via public transport

Oh fine, I know, a lot of catching up to be done, so lets get things nicely up to date here.

Sunday

The main event of note on Sunday was a trip along Sunset Boulevard, to a lovely bookshop serving the acting industry, for a series of short pieces written, and directed by women. No, before the men reading this start muttering about rabid feminists, a number of the actors reading were men! Though fine, one of the funniest was a spoof about make up just for lesbians, and if you werent one already, and you wore it, well, you might soon be one! Met up again with some delightful ladies I met just over 2 years ago, had a great time.

Monday

Due to some good news, I had to start changing plans on my days out, more on the news, probably in next blog. So I headed out to one of my favorite coastal places around here, Pacific Palisades. Its funny, I’d normally groan at the thought of nearly 90 minutes on a bus, without comfy seats, but for this route, especially the last part, I can make an exception. Had a nice stroll around, though I passed on walking down the canyon to the beach, because I knew I’d see the ocean again, plus you limit your bus options back, if you do that. But yes, I’m going to miss that place.

Tuesday

Known now as the day that if anything could go wrong, it would. A lovely man I know purchased me a nice seat for the Dodgers game that evening, snag was, I had to get the ticket printed off, and obviously my apartment doesnt have a printer, and I dont have a smart phone, so…I walked to a Fedex office in town, got on their internet, to grab the email, print off the ticket, and… Hotmail decided it was suspicious activity, and so wanted me to get a code sent to another email address. Fine, except that when I tried to get into that box, to get the code, it wouldnt let me in, and wanted to send a code to the other address it wouldnt let me into!
Fortunately, he’d sent a copy of it to my Facebook messenger page, assuming I could save it on my smart phone which I dont have, but I printed that off, and it got me into the game. Snag was, I didnt notice at the time, it didnt give all the details of my seat number! More on that later…

Finally, about an hour later than planned, I headed to Venice, the California one! You know, with the beach, and the muscles, and…a certain statue! Back in 1922, a shy(?) student named Myrna Williams posed for a statue that was to stand outside the high school. Oh, you might know her by her acting name, Myrna Loy! Unfortunately, with everything, I arrived in the school lunch hour, which made getting to her trickier that it might have been if the students had been in class. Anyway, having given my regards to her, I set off back to the bus stop, to get a bus to the beach, and waited…and waited…and waited. In the end, 2 buses more or less came along together!
After a stroll along the boardwalk, I set off to find the muscle, on the beach. Yes, it might be lively at weekends, but on a Tuesday afternoon, grand total of 3 guys doing their thing! Fine, it was something, but…I suspect a weekend visit is more, err, fruitful in that sense?

Given that I needed to get back at a reasonable hour to get to the Dodgers game, I set off to get home, which should have taken 90 minutes max! Actually took just over 2 hours. Not traffic mainly, just crazy passengers delaying things! Which meant I ended up leaving here late, hitting the crowds trying to get into the stadium, and then…

I normally sit up ‘in the Gods’ at baseball games. Yes, your view is limited, but the seats are cheap! And when you’re on a budget… Last night, I was down at field level, which is a long way down from the entry area at Dodgers stadium. No idea where I was going, took the wrong turn, got there eventually, though I missed the first half of the first innings, ah well…Yes, thats when I found out my ticket didnt actually give seat details. Anyway, at the second attempt, I found a seat no one else wanted, and watched most of the game.

Yes, one of those games that goes on forever, I left at the 11th innings mark, and headed for the buses back into town, to head home. Unfortunately, despite the bus being very full, the driver wasnt keen on leaving while the game was still going on. Eventually he did, before the Dodgers finally won, after 13 innings! Snag was, there were a lot of very drunk, very loud youngsters on the bus, screaming and shouting at regular intervals, but eventually we arrived at Union Station, and… There is meant to be a train at that time of night, every 20 minutes. 25 minutes after arriving on the platform, a train finally turned up! Given there were already people waiting, I would guess, at least 30 minutes, if not more, after the previous one.

I’ll save today, as this is far too long already! I need to thank Sarah for finding this apt video for me. Looks like Madonna was trying to portray a few golden age actresses, but warning, it is Madonna, and some of it might not be suitable for children, just saying…

Only in my imagination?

I suppose its fair to say that however minor an actress you might be, and I am pretty minor, especially nowadays, you always dream of getting that big break. Yes, the one linked to Hollywood is the movies, but in truth, given the way they make movies nowadays, with all that CGI and everything, it appeals to me less than TV, or Theater would, in truth. But yes, if you’re going to Hollywood, the dream that some studio is going to take you off the street, and make you a star, well, it was prevalent in the 20’s, and 30’s at least.

There is a well told story that Jean Harlow got her big break, albeit only in bit parts, was when she was dropping off a friend in her car, and got invited to an audition. The rest, as they say is history, though it was 2 or 3 years before the opportunity to be more than a bit actress came along.

Sadly for me, I have absolutely no idea how my past life self, Clara Johnson took that first step into acting. But given she arrived in LA in 1925, its quite possible she just joined the corp of bit part actors, working where she could, or its possible that she was spotted, invited in to said group, and just never went further than bit part acting, and chorus line dancing. I suspect back then that even that provided a decent, if not excessive lifestyle, hopefully at some point I can find out more, by one means or another.

Lets say I’ve tried twice before to be plucked off the streets of Hollywood, and offered work in small roles, and it hasnt happened. Fine, the fact I’m in my late fifties, and Harlow was 16, and Clara was 20, might play a part in that! But one thing I can try to do again, is at least be on TV, as part of an audience. Both trips previously, I’ve applied for tickets to go to the Jimmy Kimmel recordings, and not had any success. Anyway, nothing ventured, nothing gained, I’ve tried again today, for both him, and the James Corden recordings. Whether I have any more success, who knows, but I’ve tried. Yes, I’d love to be being interviewed about LGBT issues, and my hopefully revived acting career, but not going to happen, lets face it.

But yes, now I know, just once (and ideally more) I’d like to let my inner Clara come out, and appear on stage, or more, just somewhere in the US. Ah well…?

Right, video time. A little glorious bit of 80’s doo wop for you. Sadly for us, and for him, this group arent on the retro circuit, as the lead singer suffers from MS nowadays. Rocky, you are sadly missed from music.

Morality in a mind control world?

Its fair to say that generally in mind control stories, moral scruples are one of the last things that the controller seems to worry about. So yes, its fair to say that when you read a concept where the main rule is that you can only mind control willing victims, off an agreed list, or face the consequences, is quite something. But yes, I found one today, and rather good it is too!

http://192.155.80.152/List/index.html

Oh fine, I’d love to be on that willing submissive list, but I suspect they’re looking for younger, prettier women than me! Oh, and on top of that, its fiction of course, but anyway…its a great idea! Though fine, I might prefer to remember being controlled, than having it all erased as a fond memory, but hey, you cant have everything!

I would imagine the concept of morally needing to clean everything away afterwards might come as strange to some wannabee mind controllers, but hey, I like it! I suppose because both sides get the bit (or lot) of kink that they seek, but then at the end of it, everything is fine! Interesting to explain to potential mind controlled submissives though, but obviously it appeals to more than me. Hmm?

Talking about morality in your actions, reminds me a lot about acting, in that you get to play parts that really arent you! But yes, again, I always enjoyed doing that. Hey, I probably even played dominant type roles, and that definitely isnt me!

Right, video time. I have no idea why I havent used this before, even if the title in no way reflects Jean Harlow, you cant believe I wouldnt have used a song called Platinum Blonde by now! But in a sense, this fits here, as it talks about a young lady, acting in a role that really wasnt her, and though she started off enjoying it, despite what she done, she soon changed her mind. Me, yes, I’ve done some weird stuff in my time, but doesnt mean I wouldnt do it again, given the chance. Oh, and fine, I’m a Platinum Blonde too!

I suspect most of my readers will not have heard of Prelude, but you should have! They are probably most famous for the acapella version of the Neil Young song, After The Goldrush, but this is pretty good too, give it a chance without me needing to mind control you! 😛