No more guilty feelings

No, sadly I havent been brainwashed, or mind controlled into accepting that its fine for me to use a wheelchair, when I need one, much though I would enjoy it if I was! No, the reason I can officially accept it now, without having personal issues over the matter, is that I have been given the news for real, I count as disabled. So yes, absolutely, go for it girl, use that wheelchair with freedom when offered one!

I might add, that for now at least, I dont plan to use one, unless I really need it, which pretty much means it is going to come down to travelling matters, principally airports, though I suspect that major railway stations may become a place where its now all too tempting to use one. I did decline one at Boston recently, though I suspect Kate thought I probably should have done, and fine, it was one of those matters you could make a case out for, either way. But as I didnt have to worry about the case, and I was only walking to the train seat, not stood in one place, it was fine.

Equally, already, if I have to stand in one place, unsupported, for more than a couple of minutes, its a problem! Thankfully, with a bit of planning, most places I can avoid that situation. And for example, things like the wedding, with my brace on, I can survive a fair bit longer, but yes, Immigration, or Security, at an airport, no chance! Especially as I have discovered that wearing a brace through airport security, you have to prove what it is, lol! So maybe next time I’ll take it off post handing over case, but before going through security, just slip it in hand luggage! Ah well…

The main blessing for me, now its been recognized as such, is that I can get a special design chair at work, to help support my back in a way it needs. Standard office chairs are fine for most folk, but when you have a bad back, they’re not sympathetic lol!

Yes, I hope my disability doesnt get worse, as most of the time I can get by under my own steam. It has slowed me down, that 20 minute gap between finishing work, and getting to the bus bay has got more of a challenge! Still doable at present, but…

But yes, now, next May in Manchester Airport, if not sooner, I will have no need to feel guilty about needing a wheelchair to get me through any more, I have disability status! Thats not to say that if someone wants to ‘convince’ me that its fine, that I’d say no, but… 😉

The video, something I dont need to feel any more about this requirement

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The need for enhancement

Oh fine, the updates on my personal health that not many will worry about, but hey, you have to be told, I guess, from time to time? OK, I’ve included some ‘more interesting’ stuff, for those so inclined as well.

To keep the details brief, the results of the scan have shown that my bone density reading is low, though I havent been told how low, but judging by the issues I’ve been having, I doubt its anywhere close to good! End result of that, I’ve got to go up the hospital on Tuesday, where they’re going to try and find some blood they can take for testing, pretty much every standard test going, judging by the list on the packages!

Of course, hopefully, this is just their secret plan, and they are just checking my suitability for a full cybernetic/robot upgrade? 😉 Oh fine, I wish, but not likely to happen! Would I accept if it was, you bet I would! 😀

Oh fine, something equally unrealistic to actually happen, but which I would love to have done, is the neural transfer of information. Just imagine, if only for a short while, I could be made to think just like Clara Johnson, it would be fascinating to see life through her eyes, and think like her. And yes, I’d love it if it was all done like this. Unbelievable to think this was from nearly 50 years ago, when I was a young child lol. But yes, Harlean 90, oh please!

Oh, Doctor, Doctor?

Right, lets go from the sublime, political matter of the US National Anthem, and various sports people, to the ridiculous, and talk about the state of my back!

Yes, its an actual fact, I’ve been told today that the results of the bone density scan are in, but unfortunately, the nurse dealing with the matter wasnt in today, and the receptionist admitted to me that the results were in ‘medical speak’, and that therefore she preferred that the nurse discuss them with me, rather than her, as they probably wouldnt have meant a lot to me, or her, in truth. Given I’m working tomorrow, it will be Thursday before I get the results now, but so be it.

Seeing as how, despite the painkillers, and various anti inflammatory gels and creams that I’ve been given to deal with matters, that I still have some degree of latent pain from it, I doubt the results are great, but we will see. But given that so far, I havent actually been given any pills, potions, or other delights to actually cure it, I will just have to wait and see the end results now. But at least the wait is nearly over!

No, I dont expect to be ‘put down’ or anything because of it, mainly because they dont do that sort of thing to people, only poor unfortunate animals, its fair to say. Equally, I dont really expect to be offered a new cybernetically enhanced back, or full body makeover, though yes, I cant deny I would love that! I’m sure they would if they could, but yes, unless some mad scientist knows otherwise, I dont think they’re actually available at present! 😦 If someone does know otherwise, then yes, please, as soon as possible, if not sooner!

Being more realistic, I expect its going to be pills, of some kind, and some strength, to be honest. The 2 obvious ones (and it could be both), are estrogen (menopausal aged woman), and/or calcium. I hope its not too much of the latter, as it can lead to, err, bowel issues, of a delicate kind, as I have already discovered, after taking some voluntarily, and then stopping because of the results!

What I do pretty much know already, without even hearing the medical views, is that my days of working a 5 day week are numbered, if not already over. At present, its all the body can do to do 2 days in a row, let alone more! It will mean cutting back on the delights of life, like travelling twice a year to the US (pretty sure I can still manage one, and maybe 2 next year, due to funds already saved?), and it will mean that I will be doing the wheelchair through the airport thing again, probably for the rest of my travelling life.

One thing I will need to work out on that, is that both times, this trip, I was being met at the other end. Further trips, that might not always be happening, and I guess they would have to let me do it, but it might be more fun! In fact, at Manchester, I did the last bit from baggage carousel, to meeting point on foot, as it was easier for the wheelchair to stay that side of the building, and the helper just dealt with my cases for me, but anyway…

But yes, if anyone wants to provide me with a nice new, young, frisky, cybernetically upgraded body before my next planned flight in May, I would love that. In theory, I could have need to fly next month, but funds dont permit at present. But yes, NYC, for the reading of a musical, for an actress, well, I’d love to be there, but…

Right, video. I suspect this is as close as you’re ever going to get to a live Thompson Twins performance, though I’m not convinced all the keyboard work was live, all the same.

Wouldnt it be good?

Wouldn’t it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day

Well, that is a massive hint to tonights video at least, though the blog, in truth, only relates to the first few words of that. But looking at that quote, I’d truly love to spend just one day in the shoes, and body, of Clara Elaine Johnson, and find out what life was like as a dancer in the 1930’s, all the same.

But no, this blog isnt about that, though I might come back to that at some point in the future, who knows? No, tonight’s subject is corsets!

One issue I personally have with corset ownership, is that its not an item I can get myself into, without assistance. Even before the back issue (more shortly), the arthritis in my fingers would make tying a corset behind my back, nigh on impossible, or in truth, just impossible. And being a single woman (no one is crazy enough to want me lol), I have no one else to tie me into one, either. Great shame, because I’d love to be tied into this, for certain.

Yes, supposedly a corset, though hard to tell from that angle. But yes, metallic silver, and all that…

Wouldnt it be good (see I knew I could fit the song title in here) if you could put on a corset, push a button on it, or turn a device so that it could tighten around you, without all that tying issue, which I cant do? I’m only amazed with all this modern technology that no one has ever designed one, ah well… Or maybe they have, but at such a silly price? Though in truth, I suspect for many (with partners, or supple hands), the tying up is part of the, err, fun.

What I found today, while looking for a back brace, to support me through the wedding, as standing still unsupported is going to be an issue for a while, was this

http://www.ebay.co.uk/itm/291246878042

Now in truth, I have no idea how much actual waist reduction this will do, as I cant see zips being able to pull in that tightly, simply because zips tend to just ease open, if you pull them too tightly? But yes, fine, my main aim with this is the back support, and I just see the corset side of it as an added bonus. Lets face it, my face would put potential admirers off, even if I had the perfect hourglass figure! But yes, at that price, I’ve bought one, to see how it goes. I have also bought a more straightforward back brace, which has magnets in it, which are supposedly good for you, but we will see. Thats just one of those velcro fitting things, but that should be fine, fingers crossed.

Yes, we will see…

Right, video time. Yes, you must have worked out the song by now, but this version gives you not just one 80’s legend, but two!

Trying to be practical

In truth, I was already beginning to suspect that given the state of my body at present (yes, still open to all offers of a cybernetically enhanced body, ideally in chrome), trying to do a 5 day week at work wasnt doing me any good. First sign was last Monday, when basically the body hadnt recovered from 4 working days in a row, by Monday morning, even with painkillers and stuff, and so it proved, I didnt get through the day, or more correctly my back didnt! I somehow managed to make it far enough through the day to get to halfway, so it didnt count as a sick day, but even that was hard work! Of course that gave me a day and a bit to recover, so I got through Wednesday fine, and Thursday OK, but then came Friday, and…

Yes, the body was sore, and tender, but I got into work, and managed to stay there, at least. But yes, it was a struggle. So anyway, trying to be practical as to my capabilities, I decided to do justice to work, and to myself, something had to give. So yes, I’ve asked if I can cut back to 4 days a week for now, hopefully only until the bone density scans are done, the results are known, and the medication kicks in. But given the former is still nearly 4 weeks away, and it will be about 3 weeks after that before the results are known, and I can be given something to hopefully cure the issue, its going to be a while before that happens, and the body just cant cope with that at the moment.

Yes, I can afford it for a short period of time (I’m guessing about 10-12 weeks), and could even afford it full time, if I cut back on my holiday trips to US! Yes, I know, ouch, but one 10 day trip would be cheaper than 2 single week trips, because of one less set of flights. Yes, a 14 night stay would still be cheaper, but there are very few places where I believe I could have enough to keep me amused for a fortnight!

Seattle could, San Francisco could, and I suspect Chicago, or Washington probably could. But some of the smaller cities I want to go back to, nope! 7 days would be fine, 10 maybe, but after that…? But yes, I’m hoping I can get back to a normal regime in a few months, but at the same time, I’m not getting younger, and my back isnt my only issue, so…?

My plan is to work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday, which gives me the other 3 days off. Yes, I know, 2 days in a row, but I can seemingly cope with that, but no more. But yes, its me, I’d rather do a work routine I can manage, for less money, than let my firm down, by pretending I can do a 5 day week. Just waiting for confirmation of approval now.

So there it is, unless someone wants to provide me with a nice, new strengthened body…? 😉

Video time, what my body needs in terms of support. Martin Cooper might be handy, but given he has back issues himself…So no, thinking more of that back brace that needs to be ordered lol!

Tie me up?

Strictly, this post is a tongue in cheek piece of wishful whimsy, but if anyone wants to provide in the next 4 weeks or so, lol?

Firstly, on a more serious moment, I have arranged wheelchair assistance for the airports on my trip now. Even before todays news (more shortly), I wasnt going to be able to stand long enough for the Immigration queue, and maybe the security queues, so I got it done. Yes, I’m old, and beaten up, and I know it! 😛

Well, for a while, I thought, just maybe, but no. Yesterday, when I got home from work, I found a letter from the NHS requesting me to make a call, and make an appointment for my examination on my back, and the density of my bones. Yes! Maybe I can get something sorted before my holiday? Well…

I rang this morning, and the first date they could offer me, was 8th September, the day before I leave for US. I mean, I wasnt expecting anything immediate, but nearly 5 weeks…? Eek! So now, if I want to be able to stand, and serve as a bridesmaid at the wedding (and I really do, will be a first), I need a way to be able to stand for more than 2-3 minutes!

If anyone knows anything better (cybernetic spine would be handy, yes, tongue in cheek, I assume?) than a back brace, or corset, let me know. No, I havent got the money to go privately, not even close! Reckon it would be 5 days max if I could! In fact, someone has already suggested a back brace that will do the job, but…

I know, I’m a robot wannabee, so…anyone know of anything in metallic silver lol? Back brace would be fine, as that would solve issue, but a corset that could make me think it would turn me into a robot, once tied into it lol…? No, I’m not really looking for waist reduction, just back support, before you ask.

I know, cant be done, certainly not in 4 weeks, but thought it would be fun just to ask? But, if anyone can…? 😉

Video time. Found this purely by chance, and yes its adult, so if you’re too young, and reading this, go away now, if not sooner! But if someone wants to tie me up into a metallic silver corset, for September…?

Falling Apart At The Seams

And in this case, I’ll be very impressed if any readers have heard this song before, but some of us still have long memories lol.

Yes, strictly I am beginning to fall apart at the seams. Not literally just yet, though apparently bone thinning, and osteoporosis is to blame for my back issue. Yes, I’ve got my X-Ray results back already, which was surprisingly quick, but maybe they rush the bad news ones faster than the OK ones, who knows?

But yes, my back issue is actually a wedge fracture at the bottom of my thoracic spine, relating to weakening of the bone there. Yes, because its really just an old age issue, there isnt a lot they can do. So pretty much, they just want to give it a few weeks, see if it improves, stays the same, or gets worse before deciding on the next step to take. In the meantime, stick with the painkillers, use the (mild) steroid cream, and just survive as best I can. Oh, and seemingly I have colon issues which may be related to this, so need to get something to, err, clear them out of the way lol.

But yes, if any surgeon, scientist, or indeed mad scientist (probably most fun) has a new replacement cybernetic back unit they want to try out on a willing human volunteer, let me know. I would have said yes, regardless of this, but definitely will now. No, dont mind if it comes in flesh, chrome metal, or other material either! Though if its chrome metal, lets go the whole hog, and do the full body, OK? 😉

Yes, work know. I rang them shortly after I found out, as I suspect I’m going to need a chair to fit in with my needs, regardless. Ideally something that puts no pressure on the back, but anything better than a standard chair has to be good. No, I dont think First Buses will provide me with one lol!

Irony is, today was my last day of self certification for medical reasons, so plan is to go back tomorrow. Of course, I probably now could get a certificate for my back, but I’m going to see how it goes, subject to how I feel in morning. But yes, nice to know that even before 60 (just), that I’m beginning to fall apart at the seams.

The video is a lesser Marmalade hit from over 40 years ago, that just seems apt