Under your control?

OK, if you want the serious look at the fact that, finally, I’m only 3 weeks away from being checked over by a neurologist, go find the other blog, its there. On the other hand, if you want the more suitable, mind controlled/brainwashing blog for this sort of site, you’re in the right place, so please read on.

The one thing I really dont need to be told by the neurologist (though I’m sure they will) is that my brain is no longer going to function as a normal brain would. 2 hospitals, and 2 other sets of medical staff have already made that very clear to me, and the fact I wont be going back to work has been settled too. So really, all I’m waiting for now is the official confirmation of these facts, and hopefully get a bit more clue as to what caused the seizures in the first place.

No, sadly, I’m not expecting to be offered any of an AI interface with whats left of my brain, a full AI brain replacement, or even a full body robot/android replacement given that my knees, back, and wrist are in less than perfect condition. Yes, I’d love any, or all of those being offered, but being practical, they’re not really available at present. But who knows, maybe they’re just waiting for a willing guinea pig, but I doubt it.

But as a mind control story writer, there were a couple of related things I wondered about, related to the state of my brain. Firstly, the practical one, hypnosis. Does the fact my brain has been messed up make me easier, or harder to hypnotise? I can see a case for both, in truth.

Easier, well, lets face it, my brain has taken a bit of a bashing, and therefore should be less resisting than a normal brain, therefore making me easier to hypnotise, as I’m less in a position to resist commands. Inversely, does it make me harder to hypnotise, because my brain no longer follows all the standard patterns into trance as naturally as before?

Anyone got any ideas? Anyone want to hypnotise me for free, and see what I think, or not think, as the case may be.

The other (less practical) thing I was thinking about, in relation to this, was brainwashing. Would it now be easier to erase my mind completely, because there is less there than before, and its been bashed around, or is it the opposite, harder, because my brain doesnt work as a human mind should?

Given that as far as I know (sadly), thorough and complete brainwashing isnt yet possible in that sense, this can probably only be considered theoretically. If anyone actually believes they can do this, and just need a guinea pig, let me know.

I do vaguely remember someone, when I first got into writing mind control stories claiming that he could actually brainwash someone by hypnosis, but I never heard any more about it, from him, or any victim, so I assume it was just bragging. Or maybe he just made a couple of young, attractive, brainwashed female slaves for himself, and did a runner, but I doubt the latter!

But I suppose in the sense of this thesis, again, if anyone has any thoughts, or proof, let me know.

I must admit, having an EEG, and having my brain wired up like that is probably going to give me a fit of the giggles for all the wrong reasons. Similarly, the MRI tube, is probably going to be much the same, in pure brainwashing tube sense. I know, not going to happen, but an old woman can dream?

OK, video time. Would it be possible to have me under Master’s, or Mistresses’s thumb? Yes, I would love it, but anyway… No, I was never going to find a live performance of this, the sort of multi layer stuff that Godley & Creme (and previously 10 cc) produced could never truly be replicated live, so this will have to do!

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And freeze!

A few years ago, there was a mannequin challenge thing that became a rage for a few weeks, and then soon after that, went away again. Sadly I never got the chance to take part in any of those, mainly because a lot of them were in the US, and even the ones over here, I was never seemingly in the right place, at the right time. Yes, I would have loved to have done that, goes without saying really.

Of course, what would have been even better would have been to have been frozen, for real, as a mannequin. Unmoving, unthinking, just frozen in one place, would be an amazing sensation. Sadly, as far as I know, to do it for real cant be done, though a few authors have developed the technique in fiction, and I’d love it done for real. But just to do the mannequin challenge, yes, I’d still love to.

So when I saw this story last week, I knew I was looking forward to it

https://mcstories.com/AndFreeze/index.html

And as you can guess from the fact I’m doing this, the story is pretty good too. Am I jealous of the girls (even without the whole pleasure thing), you bet I am! I know, its a modelling thing, and I’m not young, pretty, slim, and several other things models are needed to be, but a woman can dream! And anyway, if anyone knows how to do that, and doesnt care how awful the model looks, I’d love it done to me. Maybe I could wear a hood, or something, pretty please?

I know, I know, but as I say, if anyone doesnt care about looks, and is doing the mannequin thing in the UK, I’d love to.

OK, video time. Long before the mannequin challenge was even conceived, this happened in Grand Station, New York. Yes, the signs to 42nd Street amuse me for the obvious reason!

Put a controlling collar on her?

OK, before any feminists have a hissy fit, the same effect would work with men, and I’m only suggesting the idea for submissive women who would enjoy it, like me, so hush, OK?

On one of the Mind Control Forums I inhabit, as a writer, and reviewer of such stories, we also have one board for those who sell their wares, both in a written sense, and in a movie sense. In truth, even if I wasnt far too old (30-40 years or so), given that most involve the ladies wearing very little clothing (or less), I’m not sure I would feel like doing that thing, even if I got the chance. I enjoy performing, dont get me wrong, but I havent (or ever had) the body to do that sort of stuff anyway. Though I suppose being hypnotised to do that sort of stuff might be fine. Yes, you cant do what you dont want to under hypnosis, other than in fiction, but anyway…

What someone suggested as an idea, was a hypno-collar, worn by a woman (hey, most sales are to men), and I said that would be a fun idea, if done for real. So he asked me if I would, if it was for real, and of course I said yes, darlings! Oh please, no contest! I did comment I would prefer a more technological form of control, but if all that was on offer was a collar that controlled me by hypnosis, of course I’d wear it! If it did its job, I’m sure I’d be like a robot anyway! No, I havent been back yet to see if he’s willing to provide me with one, for real, lol.

But yes, guilty, controlled by a collar I was wearing, or by a headset, I’d love it! Even more so if it came with a metallic silver bodysuit! I know, I’m weird, but I’d love it, for sure, released eventually, or not! 😉

Right, just to let you know, as I will be doing on the other blog too. I’m off the next week (20th is next day I’m working), and with Blackpool, schedule might get a bit erratic during that period. You might get more (if events need it), or, at the end of the week, you might miss out on them too. But tomorrow, and maybe the next 2 days, you suggest suitable material, I’ll write about it, with the obvious exclusion of UK related politics at least! No, I dont expect any suggestions, but…?

OK, video time. You know those songs you shouldnt love, but do? Yes, this is definitely one for me, only amazed I havent used it previously. Oh, those glittery silver dresses, in an adult woman size, pretty please…

She is the torch, was I the flame?

Just a thought I had, but only after the event about Tuesday, which I suspect that only an expert in hypnosis can answer, but if one reads this, and is prepared to answer, I’d love to know.

On Tuesday, I thought I’d try a little self hypnosis while in the flotation tank, try and clear my mind, just blank things out, and enjoy the sensation, which I did. Initially I thought I’d see if I could create a robot frame of mind while in self trance, but failed completely. No idea if it was me, the surroundings, or just that the concept wouldnt take?

So, Plan B, I tried to do a self regression, and see if I could call up Clara Johnson, my past life self. Much to my surprise, and delight, that worked! As also reported, she wasnt very keen, to put it mildly, on this weird modern, new age stuff, and panicked accordingly! Again, as mentioned before, by the time I just calmed her down a bit, I got the musical signal that the session was coming to an end, so I cut her off, and brought myself back in control.

But in hindsight, if I hadnt been able to calm her down, would I have been able to take back control so easily? I’m assuming, my mind, I must have ultimate control, but if I’ve passed the mental baton to her, is that really the case? And if ‘I’d’ come out of the pod, and she was still in charge, what could have happened? Could it even happen?

I must admit, in truth, I’d rather a hypnotist was in control of that scene, not only because things would definitely get done properly, but it might be a more successful way of getting answers out of Clara than me, trying to ask ‘her’ myself! Which, lets face it, is the main thing I want to do anyway, learn more about her.

Is it even a smart move me trying to regress myself like this, when I have no great hypnotic skills? Could a hypnotist get me to think I was really a robot, or brainwashed in one of those pods?

All intriguing thoughts, that I really have no answers to, but would love to get some. Anyone want to help me with a tape/download or something? Well, if you’re in West Yorkshire, could do more, but otherwise…? Yes, going back in the ‘brainwashing pod’, fine, flotation tank twice next month, so…

Right, video time. A bit of Soft Cell, featuring Cindy Ecstasy, who was actually providing the guys with Ecstasy at the time, hence the surname. The mystery is, a few years after this, she vanished without trace. Might be related to the drug dealing, might be related to fame, who knows? Is she still alive, or not, no one seems to know? But yes, here she was the Torch. Question is, am I Clara’s torch, or is she mine?

In a silent world

Oh fine, I hope I know what everyone wants to hear about, so lets have a duplicate blog tonight, so I can cover all events.

OK, the flotation tank experience. I did check, and double check directions on Google Maps before leaving, but still managed to turn the wrong way when I got off the bus, but realised that in seconds, so no great issue.

The owner of the business quickly made me feel at home, and after the necessary form filling, I was soon in the room with the flotation tank. A shower, then in I went, and ‘laid’ down. If the roof was meant to come down to seal you in the pod, I never worked out how to do it. I’ve certainly seen enclosed pods, but whether this isnt set up for that, or was just me being blonde, no idea? Would have loved that, but in truth, once I turned out the lights, it was very dark, and apart from the whole enclosed sensation, would have been hard to tell the difference.

Yes, I relaxed easily, and just lay there enjoying the whole sensation, and loving the lack of any pressure on my fragile back. Anyway, once comfortable, settled, and everything else good, I decided to do a little experiment with self hypnosis, try to empty my mind a little (or ideally a lot) and see what developed from there.

It took me a while to get there (about 5-10 minutes too long, as I was to discover), but when I did, I tried to get a little bit of robot into my mind and body, but couldnt really get it to work, probably because robots dont generally float in water, lol.

So I went to Plan B, this time with startling success. Having emptied my mind of myself, I tried to self regress myself back to Clara Johnson. Incredibly, it worked. Snag was, Clara wasnt quite certain where she was, as these new age things werent around in the 1930’s, and panicked a bit finding herself seemingly floating in a dark room. I did set to trying to calm her down, and had just succeeded, and was just beginning to let her take control when I heard something I didnt want to hear, the music starting up again, which meant I had only 5 minutes left. So unfortunately, I had to say ‘goodbye’ to her, start to switch back to me, so I was back in control at the end of the session.

In truth, I have no idea if I was just going to let Clara experience the float, or whether I was going to ask her questions, as I never really reached that point. Not quite sure if I could ask her questions anyway, or whether someone else would have to ask ‘me’ them, in truth? I suspect would have to be the latter, as my mind was in Clara mode? So asking questions of herself, without a script?

So yes, I’m going to have to go back again, for sure, and this time get her involved far more quickly. If nothing else, seeing life through her eyes, and feeling her thoughts, for more than a few seconds will be amazing.

Another shower, a glass of water, then back to real life. Yes, cold, wet, and lousy services by First Buses!

Oh, and by the way, yes, the back feels a whole lot better too! So 2 pieces of good news, for the price of 1!

I can hear you asking, is she still going to try acupuncture now? The answer is yes, got to give both a chance, lets face it. And besides, they might use the needles loaded with robotising nanites! Yeah, I wish! 😛

But yes, the whole flotation tank experience, truly amazing for me, and maybe Clara needs to try it again, just to see how she really feels, lol?

Right, video time. Well, I was floating, not running, but otherwise it was certainly silent when the music stopped.

 

Wouldnt it be a fun role?

A sense of fairness means I’d have to proclaim this story, even if it wasnt so good, because I suggested the concept for this. Well, the flapper bit at least, the genius author did the rest!

https://mcstories.com/Flapper/index.html

This guy has already done a couple of pieces on the EMCSA which are pure scripts, and yes, he knows there are several parts I’d love in those. In fact, in Occulus, he was the one that suggested I read the part of the Inspector’s wife for myself, and yes, its a part I’d love to play, given the chance. There is the slight snag that she is supposed to be in her 40’s, and I’m 60, but apart from that, I’d sure give it a try!

But yes, fine, in Flapper, I’d die to play dear sweet Edna, and would think I’ve gone to heaven if I did. Of course the snag is, the age difference is even greater, and fine, I’d need the opposite treatment to her, to be hypnotised to speak with a Southern accent instead of my own! OK, y’all? And yes, I think the use of Johnson as her surname was pretty deliberate too. Not mine, but a name close to my heart, so…

But go on, read it, and have a little bit of fun. Just imagine a twenty something me, complete with entranced ‘natural Southern accent’ reading that part, and indeed performing that role. Yes, wouldnt that be good? And of course, in a hypnotised state, Edna is living without a care.

Well, if those two lines, plus the blog title havent given a clue to the song, I dont know what I have to do! One thing to fool you, no Nik Kershaw to be seen. I know little, or nothing about modern group, but I gave this Placebo live cover version a try, and I’m impressed, so…

If I believed it was the 1920’s?

Alright, I suspect there might be a few readers here who miss the more entertaining (aka weird) postings I used to make here, and dream of the old days. Certainly judging by the stats, they still seem pretty popular, so…?

Thinking forward to Blackpool next month, and the showing of Some Like It Hot, and those of us doing the 1920’s thing, as volunteers, I was just wondering what it would be like if some (or all) of the volunteers actually thought they had been whisked to modern day Blackpool, from those glorious days!

No, I’m not suggesting actual mind control devices as such, though I might not say no, but just say, for example, a hypnotist made those of us happy for it to be done to us (which obviously includes me!) think we were actually from the 1920’s? Might make any flappers even more fun to be around! No, I think my days of being a cute young flapper (without a rejuvenation machine) would be beyond me, but for some…? Not that I would say no to a full frisky young flapper makeover, mind!

I just think it might make it even more fun for the modern day public, if those ’20’s folk’ actually thought they were from the 1920’s! I know, probably the only one who would think this was fun, but you never know? Anyway, if by sheer luck, any hypnotist from Blackpool area, or someone that knows such a person reads this, then yes, I’d love it done, even if at 60, I wont be young, and not too cute! Mind, I suppose the issue of changing everyone (or just me) back again afterwards might make it all a bit complex? Ah well…?

Mind, if it didnt happen that I changed back, only after I slept, it wouldnt be the first time I’ve ‘travelled’ as a 20’s flapper! Mind, she was prepared for modern life, but I guess we would have to be this time, as allegedly at least, no one from the 20’s would know about things like cell phones lol!…angelic look…

PS If anyone in the area reading this, wants details of the evening, either comment to me, or go on Winter Gardens website, and check out Some Like It Hot night.

Video time. Old song, modern version, quite apt under the circumstances, just maybe?