Praying for a miracle, and reaching for the stars

Regardless of what happens tonight, and it might be all over then, though I hope not, by the next time I get to post here, the baseball season will finally be over. Hopefully, it creeps over into November, because if it doesnt, it means the Dodgers have lost the World Series, and I will be a slightly less happy bunny. I mean, they could still lose it tomorrow, in November, but then at least the dream will have lasted one more day.

In all honesty, against any other team, I’d probably be hoping for a Houston win, because of all the problems they had with the hurricane, and everything there, it would be nice for them to have something to bring cheer. But, yes, its the Dodgers, so fine, I care, lol! No, I have no idea what I’d do if the Dodgers were playing the Royals, except that I probably wouldnt really care who won!

Technically, the Dodgers have a strong hand, given the last 2 games are at home. But the pressure of having to win both games, or else, must still play a part? Game 5 was an absolutely crazy game, 13-12, in what was supposed to be a game between 2 strong pitchers. But yes, whatever they’ve done to the balls this year, its certainly changed things in favor of the hitters, indeed, gone too far in my humble opinion. Yes, I like runs being scored, as much as others, but all tactics seem to have gone out of the game this year, beyond the hitters just trying to smash every ball out of the park! And the balls flying for miles, to help them!

Anyway, not a lot I can do, from here, I guess. I know what some think, but no, I’m not a witch, and cant fly at supersonic speed on a broomstick to get there, and change the history of the game lol! Even if I had a flying saucer spaceship (oh please!), still the same! But yes, in my sleep, I’ll be hoping for 2 Dodgers wins in the next 2 nights, and a World Series title.

My next game, all things permitting, will be next May, on the West Coast. But no, not Dodgers Stadium, but a long way north of there, in Seattle. Yes, another stadium to tick off my list of visited for a game, though I have done a tour of that stadium. But yes, definitely health permitting, but fingers crossed.

The video, well the title is a line from the lyrics. Cannot find an actual live performance of this one, sorry!

I will always love you?

Or an alternate title might be, this is the script that no actress would ever expect to see. Oh, technically its a story, but yes, its done as a script for an infomercial, which was probably far funnier for me, as an actress, than it might be for many!

http://192.155.80.152/LoveLocked/index.html

For those sensitive types, yes, there is an incest tag, some very mild stuff between mother and daughter. Note, I’m not a fan of incest, even in fictional theory, but its so minor in this, I could live with it. But lets just say, you’re warned!

No, I’ve never seen a script like this in my acting career, hardly likely I suppose, given that most of my work has been in small/medium parts in theaters, and a few small (or smaller) parts on TV. But yes, I’ve seen those type of commercials, especially in the US, and I roared with laughter reading this, knowing what they’re like.

Thankfully, or otherwise, I’m now too old for a script like this. Yes, it wouldnt work with someone who is nearly 60, lets face it! But fine, I couldnt resist posting this, just because its so much of an actress/actor type piece, and gave me a fit of the giggles accordingly. Yes, we are a weird, perverse bunch of people, believe me! šŸ˜‰

Right, the video. I know, everyone says this is Whitney Houston’s song, and I guess, in a sense nowadays, it is. But Dolly Parton wrote it, Dolly sang it originally, and so, in terms of educating my readers, take a listen to her version, OK? Because if you dont, I might set those Lovelock people on you, OK? šŸ˜‰

Walking on the ‘milky’ way

Oh fine, if that doesnt give you a clue to the video, nothing will! A tale of getting older, and cutting back, so call yourself warned.

When I was young, or indeed while still into my 20’s, I used to walk miles on my days off, quite literally. Yes, in those ancient (facetiousness factor) days, it was nothing for me to just walk out on a Sunday morning, walk 4-5 miles or more, have a bite of lunch, or at least a drink, when the weather was fair, and then walk back again. In truth, if I wanted to go far, on a Sunday, back then, in Somerset, or Dorset at least, and didnt drive, you had to walk, there was no Sunday bus service at all! So I did.

Its fair to say that over the years, my walking has got a bit slower (though some at work might not believe that), and maybe a couple of miles each way was enough, but I kept walking, when I could.

But yes, now, since my back went wrong, I’m now finding that my limit, in 1 go, is down to about a mile, or just under! How do I know this, you ask? Well, according to Google Maps, the distance I walk in Bradford, from the Bus Station, to work, is approximately 0.8 miles. And yes, I’m beginning to ‘feel it’ at present when I near my destination. So in truth, not much more, which is why I’m using a mile as a guide, and I might have problems nowadays. I know, I was about 25 then, I’m 60 next year, with osteoporosis, but its still a blow to the ego.

Will it get better, will it get worse, who knows? I suspect that its more likely to be the latter, than the former, so I’ll settle for stability at least. In truth, any other year, I could book my holiday for May already. I just about have the funds, or will have after pay day next week, I know who I want to fly with, I know where I want to stay, but…its a me issue!

The thing about staying in hotels, is that they expect you to go out for the day, each day. Hopefully, fine, it wont be an issue. Equally, if you can tell me, that in an 8 day stay, there wont be at least 1 day where the body is suffering a bit, I’d love you. It might be true, but given that 2 working days in a row is about my limit at present (Holiday time would not be as hard on me, physically, to be fair), assuming I can get out for several (or more) hours each day of my stay, hmm? There is, to be fair, an apartment option, but that would mean getting provisions on arrival (using a UK credit card, in the US, not always easy online), and I suspect I might not be up to that, after a long flight. So the hotel would be better, now.

Oh, and then there is my own determination, and budget. In theory, the hotel offers a shuttle to and from the airport at all times, so I could use that to get the train into town from Seatac, but it wouldnt get me back, anyway. In fact, I could do a flat 0.7 mile walk to a station, which would be fine at present, but then, and each day…?

So yes, I’ll leave it a while to make my booking, just to see how far I might be able to walk by then. I will make the call by February, and see how I am by then, is the plan. Its not just that of course, it is the length of flying time (its direct coming back, but via LA getting there, adding several hours) as well, so we will see.

In truth, I probably ought to have a Plan C, involving either the East Coast of US (shorter flight times), or somewhere in Europe, but I’m trying to avoid working on thoughts like that at present.

But yes, getting old sucks, lol!

The video, a live version of the blog title!

A week in the life of…?

Last night, here in the UK, Channel 4 presented, for want of a better term, a documentary about a white woman, with, shall we say, strong views, spending a week as a Muslim. No, I didnt see it, didnt know about it until after the event, and even if I had, I probably would have avoided it, these things tend to be ‘road crash’ TV at the best of times, basically because thats what the TV people want. As it happened, events took over, as it was being filmed in Manchester, just at the time of the Arena bombing. This showed the sad side of too many people towards Muslim people, which presumably came as a surprise to the woman, and the TV company. Unfortunately, it showed what Muslim people have to put up with so often, whereas she only faced it for a few days. So yes, the few terrorists create the wrong image, but I guess thats what they want to do. Of course, as white supremacists have shown, they’re just as bad!

Yes, that program wouldnt get the same effect if I’d been in her place, but of course, in these days, thats not what TV people want!

Me, I wonder what it would be like to spend a week in the life of a chorus line dancer, like my past life self, either now, or in the 1930’s, as she did. Given that one thing Clara Johnson didnt pass on to me was any dancing skills, its never going to happen, but if I did have her talents, would be fascinating to know what life would be like, in either era.

Of course, the other thing that would appeal to me would be a week in the life of a robot. Fine, given that at present, robot technology is not forward enough for that really to happen, I suppose I could do nothing more than a theoretical life as a robot, but that might be quite something. Even more so if it came with a chrome bodysuit!

I know, neither are really going to happen, or not in my lifetime at least. But a week in my life, as a Muslim, well, maybe…?

The video, some vintage Beatles. Seemingly from the later years, judging by their styles. A few famous faces from outside the group here too!

Walk of life, and death.

When it comes to US sports, my longest term love has to be the NFL. Primarily because it was the first one shown on TV over here, back in the mid 1980’s, and I’ve pretty much followed it ever since then. In that time, its changed channels, its changed from being recorded highlights, to 1 game a week, to the numerous games per week we have now over the years, but its always been around.

For many years now, providing most of that much improved coverage has been Sky Sports. Even then, they’ve been through a few presenters over the years, but for many of them, there was 1 American guy there, who definitely knew what he was talking about (unlike some of the UK ones), and even better, was a fellow Buffalo Bills fan, through thick and thin. Well, I suppose had a good reason, he was born in the city, whereas I just picked them out purely at random!

Then tonight, when the coverage of the game from London started, I heard the sad news that he’d passed away, at the age of 62! Hey, he’s not that much older than me, and believe me, I feel my age at present, anyway! So…I just want to say, Kevin Cadle, I’m going to miss seeing you on TV, and yes, rest in peace.

I guess it would be wrong (and I’d hate myself if I didnt) not to mention a certain team in the World Series, starting Tuesday (strictly, Wednesday morning, my time), the Los Angeles Dodgers. Yes, its a shame its only happened the first year after Vin Scully retired, though such is life. I have seen people hoping he will do something, but hey, he’s fast approaching 90, so I dont blame him for saying no, so far at least. Who me, a Dodgers fan? Well…

No, I wont see any of it live, all going to happen in the middle of the night over here, and I’m too old, and fragile for things like that, even if I wasnt working! I’ll see some presentation hopefully, though no idea how much? But yes, naturally, I’ll be dreaming of a Dodgers Championship, though only from afar. It will actually be strange next May, assuming I decide I’m up to the trip, when I see a game in Seattle, its been a long time since I saw one other than Dodgers Stadium, but…I can at least add another to my stadium visit list, as I say, health permitting. With luck, and finances, I hope to add the White Sox to my collection next September, though that might be a step too far on both counts!

The video is one with plenty of NFL, plenty of baseball, and some basketball too, which Cadle was a top coach in. Yes, its an oldie, the Houston Oilers no longer exist, so…

Still ‘normal’ after all these years?

I know, doesnt sound like me, does it, lol? Well, apparently one part of me is still normal after all these years, my blood! Probably is the only part of me that is normal, but besides all that…

Yes, I rang up and got my blood test results today, and it seems they’ve all come back fine. So, if you want to look at it positively, the only thing wrong with me at present is the fracture in my back, which is of course down to osteoporosis, and old age. Of course, given the related pain due to that, its only a mixed blessing, I guess? Thankfully, today hasnt been too bad, I’ve spent most of the day in my brace corset, and probably because I’ve been taking it relatively easy, the pain has been pretty minimal, but I’m sure that work on the next 2 days might change that lol! šŸ˜›

And yes, I only wear the brace corset as a back support, and nothing to do with the sensation of having my waist pulled in, which I enjoy far too much! šŸ˜‰

No, despite everything, even though I probably should at this point, I’m determined not to believe I’ve acted in public for the last time. In truth, I probably have, not only because my part options would now be a lot more limited, but also the fact its been a few years now, and in terms of seriously competing for roles, no I havent done much of late! Well, beyond writing about the dream, pretty much nothing! So yes, it probably is over, but I’m not going to officially retire just yet!

As to me being normal, oh fine, I fail on most counts! Have done that for a long, long time, in truth. I mean, its perfectly normal to want to be turned into a robot, fly in an alien spacecraft, and have ECT (mild, ideally) as research for a book! And lets face it, they are just 3 of the weirdest things, in a pretty crazy lifestyle attitude! Oh, and as for the dream of time travelling, and finding out what Clara Johnson’s lifestyle was like, well…rolls eyes…

So yes, lets face it, I’m probably right when I say that the only thing normal about me, is my blood! The rest of me, still crazy after all these years, and still dreaming of more craziness, however unlikely that is now.

Which leads me to the video, the obvious one, a live version…

Watching me, watching you

One of things I suspect we all do in these days of social media, is ‘follow’ famous people that we like and admire, or indeed otherwise. Yes, even I do that to some degree, though probably do it with less people than some! In some cases, I’m pretty sure that the person doing the social media posting isnt the celebrity, or if it is, they only post a small percentage of the stuff.

There are others who do post (and in some cases, we wish they didnt!) on Twitter, and Facebook, and you know its them. But normally its a case of you, the fan follows them, and they naturally dont bother to follow you. Fair enough, why would you expect them to show much interest in your average life, lets face it?

As far as I know, no one follows, or in the case of Facebook, friends me, because they think I’m a brilliant actress, who is going to make it big some day. I certainly have friends in the entertainment industry, but I’d have to believe thats a friend thing, not that they think I’m going to make it big, and…I know, Elizabeth, by the way, one day I will, but we’ll still be great friends for sure, anyway! šŸ˜‰

So fine, when I went on my Twitter page earlier today, and saw I had notifications, I got a real surprise when I saw what one of them was. For those in the US, especially in the Denver area, or who are fans of the craziness that is ‘Around The Horn’ will know the name of Woody Paige. I suspect others will have heard of him too, and I’m certainly a fan of his on Twitter, but even so, when I saw he was following me back, I was absolutely thrilled! I have no idea what I’ve done to deserve that honor, but yes, I’m delighted by it.

Oh fine, if Harvey Weinstein starts following me, I might get concerned, but I think I’m far too old for him! šŸ˜› But yes, when someone who is famous, and who you admire, follows you back, oh wow! So thank you, Woody, very much appreciated.

Right, the video. One of the lesser hits for this group, but very apt for a moment like this.

Yes, when I become a famous actress (stop laughing, all), I must remember to follow my fans, as well as the other way around too.

Its nice to know how you feel!

Let me say that this post is meant in jest, but given I was lacking subject material tonight (feel free to send ideas), I thought I’d roll with this, and hope Betsy doesnt kill me for doing it. In truth, the story is really good, and if you love well written, sharply done enslavement stories, with a dose of dry humor, this could well be for you. I will warn you, she does have a thing for including ‘body matters’ in her story, so if that sort of thing might put you off, consider yourself warned. The link for the whole story is http://192.155.80.152/Auction/index.html but its Chapter 3 I’m focusing on tonight.

No, the last thing I expect from Betsy is forewarning of any element relating to myself, I think we both prefer it when I only find out when I get to that point in the story. So, when I came across this point today…

The two girls, presumably trainees or there for work experience, were talking softly to each other but stopped at our entrance and checked the animals for deviations. Not one of the animals was talking or even making a sound when we entered. In fact, they never made a sound the whole time we were there.

I didnt think any more of it, other than as info for the story. But then, a few paragraphs later, I found this…

Everything calmed down for a second or two, during which time Abbey the cunt ordered Steph the cunt and Clara the cunt to set up the emergency stall. The girls ran off to obey, taking the long way round in order to stay well away from their new charge.

Dont take the cunt stuff too seriously, Gillian, the lady in the story seems to call most people by that term of endearment lol!

But yes, to many, Steph is my name (and is still my middle name), and Clara is of course my well known past life name, both of which she knows, so the chances of that being coincidence, pretty slim! Yes, I roared with laughter, in case you were wondering! We have a wonderful online relationship, which tends to involve winding each other up at times, and this was seemingly one of them. As to this

Those girls were competent and worked as a team. I remembered that. If I got out here Iā€™d have to kill them quickly.

Well, its nice to have some warning lol, not that I can move at any speed at present, anyway!

In truth, I always find it fun when I get these unexpected moments in stories, especially from Betsy, probably because they are less than respectful, I love them more!

Right, video time, a witty response to that lovely lady, with a song nearly as old as me!

A chance to dress up?

I know, I know, its a bit early for Halloween, but I was short of material for tonight, and someone on one of the Forums asked about people’s dressing up plans for the big night, which inspired this.

Its fair to say that in the US, Halloween is a massive affair, and has been, for as long as I can remember. Here in the UK, not the same. Indeed, when I was young, I think the whole event barely happened over here, let alone to any major degree. Nowadays, it is a bit bigger over here, but still not in any major way, compared to the US. I’ve only ever once seen the build up to it in the US, 2 years ago, and thats as close as I’ve got.

No, I have no idea whether I would have dressed up if I’d been there (would anyone even take any notice in Hollywood?), but it might have been fun, and tempting to do. Though yes, finding a good robot outfit, at short notice might have been hard. Mind, by then, a flapper outfit might have worked better for me, anyway. I’m sure some of them were scary lol, and I certainly would be in a short dress lol! šŸ˜›

Currently, given the state of my back, and stuff, the safest, scariest look I could probably do for Halloween, would be Davros, of Daleks fame, though I’ve no idea if that era of Dr Who really caught on in the US? But yes, a look like this would definitely be something I’d love to do for Halloween!

And yes, this year, I could do it, if anyone wants to design something, as it is a non working day for me, being a Tuesday!

Oh fine, Metropolis robot, with suitable back support would be even better for me, but, practically…

Maybe some day I will get to experience the full US Halloween thing, though I’m not quite sure when! But yes, if I did, I would so want to dress up myself!

The video? Well, I couldnt think of anything really suitable, so by slipping the flapper idea into the blog, I’m going to use this! So 1920’s darlings!

No more guilty feelings

No, sadly I havent been brainwashed, or mind controlled into accepting that its fine for me to use a wheelchair, when I need one, much though I would enjoy it if I was! No, the reason I can officially accept it now, without having personal issues over the matter, is that I have been given the news for real, I count as disabled. So yes, absolutely, go for it girl, use that wheelchair with freedom when offered one!

I might add, that for now at least, I dont plan to use one, unless I really need it, which pretty much means it is going to come down to travelling matters, principally airports, though I suspect that major railway stations may become a place where its now all too tempting to use one. I did decline one at Boston recently, though I suspect Kate thought I probably should have done, and fine, it was one of those matters you could make a case out for, either way. But as I didnt have to worry about the case, and I was only walking to the train seat, not stood in one place, it was fine.

Equally, already, if I have to stand in one place, unsupported, for more than a couple of minutes, its a problem! Thankfully, with a bit of planning, most places I can avoid that situation. And for example, things like the wedding, with my brace on, I can survive a fair bit longer, but yes, Immigration, or Security, at an airport, no chance! Especially as I have discovered that wearing a brace through airport security, you have to prove what it is, lol! So maybe next time I’ll take it off post handing over case, but before going through security, just slip it in hand luggage! Ah well…

The main blessing for me, now its been recognized as such, is that I can get a special design chair at work, to help support my back in a way it needs. Standard office chairs are fine for most folk, but when you have a bad back, they’re not sympathetic lol!

Yes, I hope my disability doesnt get worse, as most of the time I can get by under my own steam. It has slowed me down, that 20 minute gap between finishing work, and getting to the bus bay has got more of a challenge! Still doable at present, but…

But yes, now, next May in Manchester Airport, if not sooner, I will have no need to feel guilty about needing a wheelchair to get me through any more, I have disability status! Thats not to say that if someone wants to ‘convince’ me that its fine, that I’d say no, but… šŸ˜‰

The video, something I dont need to feel any more about this requirement