Cruel To be Kind? (Adult Nature)

Hopefully at least some of my readers will understand what I’m getting at, if I mention the pain v pleasure conundrum?

For many with the pain, and pleasure kink, it seems to involve getting smacked, whacked, or something even worse. I know its each to their own, but I really have to admit, thats not my scene. Me, I like my pain to be intense, in a different sort of way.

I suspect thats the robot play thing, for me, because lets face it, robots are obedient creatures, so dont need to be punished by spankings, of any kind! So yes, the areas I like to feel intensity revolve around my nipples, because lets face it, its one of the big charging points, in any scene that you see. Ideally, it involves a ‘little bit’ of electricity being applied, through electrodes, generally a Tens machine, or something like it. Fine, I quite enjoy similar, though lower voltage intensity through the head, and neck as well, very much the robot brainwashing/programming thing, I guess?

But there is a non electrical way to get the nipples tingling as well, any variation of nipple clamps. In some ways, they are more delicious, because though the electricity pulses (more apt for a robot), these little babies stay tightly clipped, until removed. Fine, the really serious ones, I cant take for very long, but the slightly (and I mean only slightly) less intense ones, yes, I can take them, and enjoy them, for a while. Indeed, nowadays, pretty much the only way I can get really aroused, involves a little bit (or more) of pain.

I actually had a nicely nippy pair, that a friend got me, but they went astray when I changed rooms here, and I havent been able to find them, and yes, I’m missing them! But currently, I’m really not prepared to spend money on something like that, that I can live without, when I have very limited money coming in. Anyway, cut a long story short, the subject of spanking came up on one of my more adult forums, and I commented on my personal preferences, and how I was missing them. Anyway, to cut a long story short, one wonderful guy on there has sent me the money to buy some new ones! So yes, I’m going to be a happy girl again, very soon. Hopefully, before I next feel the need to relieve a few stresses (probably next weekend), getting my motor going might be a bit easier.

Of course, if someone wants to offer to wire me up, and get my motor going electrically, yes please! Or, they can take that electrical control a step further, I really wouldnt mind! 😉

OK, video. Well, you could say a nice pair of nipple clamps, fixed on to my nipples, could be just this?

Heavy breathing stuff

Right, lets get right away from personal woes, and post something a little silly, and definitely a little kinky too.

The traditional method of use for gas masks, is to protect people from breathing in dangerous gases, and all that. Of course, some people use them for other purposes, either to deliberately make people breathe in a certain gas, usually for devious purposes, often in mind control stories, for the purpose of controlling someone quite literally. They can also be used to restrict people’s breathing, in a D/s sense, which can be quite fun, but anyway…

A new writer at the EMCSA has been using gas masks in a rather delicious way, though to be honest, his method of control is cigar smoke, which as a big non smoker, is pretty much a major turn off for me. Some of the other technology he uses, is so delicious, that I’m happily reading them anyway!

Yes, I’m no angel, I’ve worn a gas mask on a few occasions, though not recently, and not to protect me from any noxious gases, either! And yes, I have good memories of doing so, to be honest. Not so much if someone decided to restrict my breathing too much, but as a way of depersonalisation, then yes, I loved it.

But fine, if someone wants to put a gas mask on me, and pump it full of mind controlling gas, I wouldnt complain, even while I could! Equally, if someone wants to turn me into a ‘machine’ by putting one on my face, and removing my humanity, good by me too. Its been a long while since I wore one, but if I got the chance again, then yes, I would!

The video. Well, to be honest, this was the only one I could I think of, with some heavy breathing in it. And besides, its Abba, so…

A little bit of discipline needed…Who, me?

Well, fine, I might enjoy a little bit of disciplining way too much, but thats not the true issue here, unless someone is offering? And then… 😉 more of that later, maybe?

No, what I’m talking about here, is highly paid professional sportsmen, who cant keep their behaviour under control when they need to. For those in cricket following countries (not many here, from past experience), I just have to mention the awful behavior of Chris Gayle, a highly paid, professional cricketer from the West Indies, while being interviewed by a pretty woman after an innings in the Big Bash League (The Australian 20 over cricket tournament), and proceeding to not answer her questions, but to chat her up, and ask for a date instead. Supposedly, he has since been fined heavily, and its been made clear that he wont be welcomed back next year, but fame talks, so I wouldnt bank on the latter happening somehow. Sadly, too many Aussie men were busily defending him, and saying the woman should be ready for this sort of thing. Yes, that wonderfully misogynistic behavior we can come to love…not!

But the lack of discipline I’m talking about now, comes from the US, and it didnt just hurt the players, it hit their team too, though I wonder nowadays how many sportsmen are only concerned with themselves, and not their team? Judging by some soccer players over here, they are the more important, but anyway…

On Saturday night, in the NFL play offs, Cincinnati were beating Pittsburgh, and when the Pittsburgh QB threw an interception, that should have been it, they should have won. As history shows, they didnt. To be fair (of sorts), the running back who fumbled the ball, handing possession back to Pittsburgh was at fault, but even so, it neednt prove critical. But just as the last Pittsburgh opportunity was failing, a catch was missed, but a defensive player decided to take him out with his helmet all the same. 15 yard penalty, just about putting them in field goal range, but still very missable. Then while the Pittsburgh sideline were trying to check on their knocked out player, another Cincinnati defender couldnt stay out of the way, and threw abuse, a punch, or both. This led to another 15 yard penalty, and now the kick is an easy one. Pittsburgh make it, and win the game.

If those 2 (or 3) players had kept their heads, Cincinnati would have won the game! Seriously, these players are paid millions of dollars a year, and they cant act intelligently. Really? I know, its a very macho game, but even so…

For that much money, in a situation like that, you play by the rules!

Oh, fine, lastly, I havent misbehaved, but if a Master, or Mistress wants to discipline me a little…? 😉 Full time submissive somewhere, wouldnt say no!

The video, a song related to discipline, of another kind. No, not Britney, but a Latvian Britney lookalike, having fun!

Anyone fancy a robot wife?

Oh fine, maybe its because I’ve just gained a new identity, or maybe its because its the end of the year, and I’m still very single, that my thoughts turn to romance, love, or from personal preference, becoming a robot wife. Yes, gives a clue to the video, doesnt it?

I know, its not for the first time, and I’m hopelessly independent after having been single for 15 years, but maybe its time (again) to consider whether I should find a partner, or more aptly for me, a dominant person, who fancies a robot wife. In play sense only, I guess, unless they are a brilliant hypnotist, or a mad scientist, but anyway…

Yes, its that gorgeous corset I mentioned recently, got me feeling all submissive again, must be that collar attachment lol! And I guess a Master, or Mistress would to some degree at least take away all those needed love issues that I would have with a normal relationship. Yes, fine, a normal relationship, especially a date, might be fun, but given my issues re sex (I live without penetrative sex, and have done so for 15 years), I wouldnt be ideal for most folk. Yes, strictly, a lesbian one doesnt require that nasty stuff, well, unless she’s into strap ons at least, so might be better, whereas a man would probably have to settle for blow jobs, and the like. Not the best, I guess? At least they’d probably enjoy tying me tightly into corsets, and the like!

But fine, in my heart, doing the whole submissive thing, especially if I could find someone that fancied the robot kink, would appeal far more. If nothing else, it removes all requirement for me to love someone, but just be happy to serve, and obey them, which should be fine!

But where would I start for something like that, not a clue! And not sure I have much faith in dating agencies, and certainly would have no idea at all on the submissive side of things. So yes, fine, in a years time, you’ll probably get a similar post, without the name change thing!

Yes, I would love to just be wined, and dined, just so someone can convince me that I would make a good wife, partner, or submissive, for the first time in a long time. Probably as likely as a serious relationship, but anyway…

Fine, the video. Yes, that robot wife thing lol. Would be perfect for me, especially if I really was. Or at least an obedient, brainwashed slave, as second prize!

Tie me up, and a few other things

Seriously, if there is anyone out there who thinks I’ve had a thoroughly innocent past, you’re going to be disappointed. Fine, I’m not as kinky as some, but yes, I’ve done bondage, and electro play in the (distant) past, though sadly I’ve never got to do a robotisation role play as yet, but there’s still time. I’ve played with the pro’s, I’ve played in private, I’ve played in clubs, so…Not that my halo should slip too far in your imagination, given the mind control stuff I’ve written in the past, but anyway…Oh, and fine, I’ve been friends with a couple of massage parlour workers, and I dont mean the ones who work wonders on my back, either! No, I couldnt do their job, but because of the kinky stuff… 😉

Kind of ironic then, that my interest in actual sex is pretty much zero. I mean, I’ve never had much of a sex drive ever in my life, but this century, well, I just havent bothered full stop. Literally, the 15th anniversary of the last time is only 4 months away! Alright, a little personal attention, every week or two, but otherwise, absolutely nothing! And no, I dont miss it.

Equally, as I’ve mentioned in the past, my Twitter feed is a pretty eclectic mix. Everything from old movies, vintage clothing and stuff, right through to scientific stuff. Oh, and writing stuff of course, what I originally planned to use it for. Well, anyway, one of my ‘friends’ there not only does vintage stuff, she’s also into burlesque! Up to now, my only experience of Burlesque was at that amazing party in Hollywood, in April, and yes, it was entertaining. No, I couldnt do it now. Maybe when I was in my twenties, just maybe, but in my fifties, you have to be joking!

Anyway, one of her contacts on Twitter is one of the queens of burlesque, and made a posting about how liberating strip tease could be. So fine, you know me, I made a witty comment about it not being a career option for a 50 something, and it went’downhill’ from there! No, not literally, but it did get to the point where they were trying to convince me that donning tassels, and shaking my body, at my age, was still a viable option! Next thing I know, a couple of others have joined in, and I’m being told about an event happening in Manchester next month, this

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No, thankfully, or otherwise, I’m not yet stripping, or doing burlesque at this show, though I know one or two who might say why not? Well, the fact I’m 57, not overly pretty, and have a body in less than perfect condition, but otherwise, oh fine!

I’ll be honest with you, if I was younger and earning, going to something like this might be a lot of fun. No, not to join the burlesque show, but seeing some of the corsetry, and fine, the latex clothing might just be a lot of fun. Not that I’d buy latex clothing at my age, and however much I love corsets (and I do), having no one to tie me into one makes it a daft buy, as my physical limitations would make it impossible for me to tie myself into one. Besides which, I’m lousy at knots anyway! And yes, I dont deny the chance to meet some of the people who do these things would be interesting.

As some who delve the site might have noticed, there’s even a BDSM/Bondage room in the evening. Now, if I say the last time I did any bondage would be about 10 years ago…yes, been a while, but it used to be fun. The only thing I never got was the spanking/caning/whipping stuff, which I never enjoyed, far too painful for me. I know, getting zapped by nice amounts of electrics can be painful, but thats a different ball game for me!

So now I can hear you asking, will I be going? Lets just say I’ll think about it, more so if I’ve got a job by then, and not working that Saturday. It would be fun, even if I’m not likely to get tied up, and ‘fried’ during the day, and the evening do would be inconvenient, both in terms of cost, and getting home afterwards! But fine, I’m tempted to go over during the day, despite the cost, and the fact I cant afford to buy anything, but it would be nice.

Right, the video. One of those random You Tube searches under ‘Tie Me Up’ led me to this.